SL™ Diary of a Prettyboy

Stupid Student(s) -Day of Exam

2012-02-13T18:35:00.000-08:00

I thought the one who asked what would we expect in our exam was stupid. ( Reason: The question was posted 6 weeks ago- No surprises for any of us)

But 2 days later, on Friday, we had exam, and another unbelievable thing happen.

After the "slide identification potion" has ended, which took about 20 minutes, this student came in. He seems to be in shock that the day he was in class (25 minutes late on 50 min. class) happened to be the first exam.
Then, he asked our professor to repeat "slide potion" for him. I applauded that my professor refused this *Speshul treatment.

THEN...

5 minutes later, he, again walked to the professor and start argue that how he was unable to prepare so he should have some sort of ... you guessed it, "speshul treatment". Professor stood her ground and refused but the thing is... she fucking allowed him to distract all of us.

I shushed him loudly, explain that I was taking a (fucking) exam and has to concentrate for constructing my essay.

You know what? I will email my professor today that she should have locked the door after 10 minutes on exam day.

So, Friday, I was so riled up, I was so cranky after the exam. Oh my exam was A. I mixed up the title of El Greco's "The Agony in the Garden" as "The garden of Agony", but she gave me a full points anyway.

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Do you think that was the end of my misery? NO.
(By this time, some of my readers must have been enjoyed too much to see me in constant state of mental pain. No fucking shit.)

So today, Monday, Prof, returned our exam, take home exam, and circulated the student grade spread sheet in the class.

I was the one of 2 A grade. (It's not surprising. Right? )

17 F. (!!!!!)
Mostly C or D.
Rejoice, if you get B.

How in the fucking hell is it even possible to get C's and F's, when you have the complete questions at hand for 6 weeks?

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So the prof announced to the whole class that she has to chastise everyone. LOL HAHA
Oh. She added that people who really needs to hear it, are not even the class today.

Good, she acknowledged that she didn't want to scold people who made A grade. (like me)

But seriously, I feel her pain.

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Yes, her class has bazillion assignments.
Yes, her class discusses highly intelligent subjects that ... I usually rant about it in here.
Yes, it is a survey course, and it is very broad.

However,

She makes all the study guides and documents that you can pass the class with A/B grade, even if you lack some common sense knowledge and understandings.

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She should drop all those students, so I can have more discussion time or whatever in class.

17 F's? I didn't know there are more than 17 students still registered, since I rarely see about 11 students in class.

Those fucking stupid students don't deserve to be there, I think.

Seriously.

New Link [College Misery]

2012-02-13T18:05:00.000-08:00

My blog list/links on the right side now added [College Misery]-professors contribute to this blog about what they experience in colleges across U.S.

I was visiting my Humanities course professor yesterday, and she also told me that what I have seen so far are not at all unique to me.

Apparently, the experiences are all too common among professors all over the U.S.

I am not sure I should feel better that I'm not the only one, or I should lament the fact that I cannot escape this fate anywhere in the US, either as a student nor as an instructor/professor which I am aspiring to be...

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So, the stupid student of the week (I should make this a series...)

Humanities XX2 has page in our college online server where they store the course/class materials and external links.
Because she is an enthusiastic and good professor, she posted all the materials, including complete exam, assignment schedules, reading list and project list, due dates of extra assignments in the first week.

To make everything painless for the students, she also gave us the exam questions in the first week, and all we have to do is study them and submit answers on the day of exam.
Basically, we take the exam at our own leisure, in the comfort of our own home, in the course of 4 weeks or so.
On the day of exam, we will compose two short essays, which was also given to us in the first week as a study guide material.

She lists two essay questions, and the list of additional materials to prepare.

All the instructions are clearly described.

--- It cannot be more easier and user friendly, methinks.

Then, this student, mister I-act-like-"I'm-actually-literate-and-have-common-sense", asked this question.

"So, what kind of essay are we going to write next week?" ... and questions about what sort of exam he should expect followed...

... I think he wanted to look like he actually cares about his college education, but it backfired on him, because I actually care about my college education more than he does.

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Okay, I usually don't act condescending or giving the condemning look in real life, knowing that there are some students with disabilities and attending the classes for occupational therapy, but yesterday, I had to laugh out loud and gave him a look.

And I told him over my shoulder in the coldest tone;

"Dude, professor posted a study guide on the second day (which is near 5 weeks ago for us). Did you even go to <> ? Answers for everything you just asked are there. "

He replied:
"when did she give us that paper?"
Now, myself and the girl sitting next to me responds in slight amusement:

"Dude, you are supposed to log in and print them out yourself. It is in the syllabus."

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The fact is that, everyone has to go to <> to download or view the syllabus.

I hope he learned the lesson.
(... yeah, I can hear my readers' voice, "He won't")

From what my professor told me yesterday in private, she hardly ever encounter student who actually study her class contents and give a sincere consideration, if even with an academic curiosity...
She told me that it is painful to grade essays written for exams, because many of them can't even make a clear thesis statement and construct an argument of their own.

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What really gets me isn't the stupidity of those students, because that is their shit, not mine. They can fuck up their own life all they want.

What gets me the most, is that those fuckers are wasting my time and my professors time, and most of all, the taxpayers' money that funds their fucking education that they don't fucking care in the first place.

So, I know for a fact that some of them are fucking thugs who are trying to revert the attention of their probation officers, but I hope all of my professors have the fucking sense to drop those fuckers early in their college career.

Seriously, we don't need those fuckers coming back for second semester, clogging the waitlists, (because they are on welfare, meaning that they have FUCKING PRIORITIES in registration... I will talk about that on next time.) and wasting my classroom time with stupid questions about exam date listed in syllabus.

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*this is what I wrote last week.
I had exam on this subject on Friday, and results came back today (Monday).
The tale of stupid students (notice; now in plural form) continued on Friday as well. So I decide to post them separately.

Cowboy Hat Snapshot_028

2012-02-10T19:20:00.001-08:00

Cowboy Hat Snapshot_028, a photo by ~ Frӛdӛrїс ₱rέ౪౦ჴᎿ ♋♊~ on Flickr.

Maybe I should reopen my store, Daini Ken Designs again...

Stupidity of Second Life- Joke, the definition

2012-02-05T11:27:00.000-08:00

In my book, "Jokes must be witty, or at least, funny."
If I didn't think your statement-which the person meant as light hearted comment- wasn't funny, I will not laugh at the statement just to be nice.
(I mean, you have to tell me, it was a joke? That says something.)
But I will respond to your statement or comment, because you expect my response.

You should know by now, that I may not give a response you want. But I will respond.

Here's the thing.
I don't think the person meant to make a joke. I believe that person made an erroneous statement, so I refuted that statement with correct facts or my counter statement.

Then, after a conversation of back and forth, the person excuses he/r self with the words "joke":

"Oh, I'm just joking!"--- (It wasn't funny.)

"Hey, I was just joking, chill."--- (Chill? You are the one tried to stick a square nail in the round hole.)

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Do you know what's happening here? They can't take the facts that they did not succeeded in amusing Frederic.
Well, here is the summary.

First, it wasn't funny AT ALL. (Because it was a statement, not intended to be funny in the first place.)

Second, I gave you a response with the facts that you were not aware of. Yet, you tried to insist that your statement is a fact. (Okay, that is your stupidity, oh well. Not my fault.)

Third, THEN, you conceded that you were mistaken... (Or not, depends on the person's integrity. But I'm always right.)

AND

FOURTH, Don't blame me for your lack of wits or your lack of your knowledge.
(And attempt to blame me for not getting your "funnies"?)

Yea, this is the daily occurrences of SL stupidity.

HAHA, then, certain people will call me, DICK because I didn't laugh at your erroneous statement.
They should know, I usually laugh. (At them.)

Venus in Furs--- Definition of plagiarism ?

2012-01-30T20:17:00.001-08:00

Venus in Furs, a photo by =Marco= on Flickr.

Okay, putting a disclaimer will justify the plagiarism?

Check this out.

Do you think I can get away with painting a picture that are copied from magazine spread in an art class?
Would I be able to receive a passing grade?
Let's see, the idea of an art is not just the finished product. Is the inspiration original? The idea of composition original?
"Venus in Furs" is a book. So the title is not original, but the content of the book has nothing to do with fashion spread.

The virtuosity is not about how you can "re-create" the existing art. Do you know how much does the artist suffers from the pain of creating the original idea? Painting or composing music, no matter the format, when you concoct the original idea of the creation, your work is more than half way done. The rest is labor.

The art cannot be 100% labor. That become a simple craft. Nothing more.

Crafts men that produce the same chairs everyday are not the artists. The design has been done by someone else, and he simply recreates. The craftsmanship is an important part of the quality of the product, however, that is simply EXPECTED, isn't it?
There are highly skilled craftsmen, who may be able to command a lot of fees... But that isn't the point, either. The fee is paid, only if the quality of the product is met.

It may involve complicated skills, but it never be an art, because the idea of an art MUST be original.

Just a thought.

2012-01-19T22:43:00.000-08:00

NY times reports the cell phone incident at NY Phil.

These kind of things can easily prevented.

Mandate No Cell Reception in Concert Halls.

You go to concert because you want to have a few hours of peace, immerse yourself in fragment of humanity left. Two hours. If you can't afford that two hours, you can't afford to be in the concert hall.

So I dropped that class.

2012-01-17T21:36:00.000-08:00

Oh, Two of my professors enthusiastically recommended me to be their each respected subject tutor.

"Fred received the highest score in the class, and poised to be the great tutor for this subject. "

--- it isn't music. It is for one of the science course. Yea, I'm not just a music geek.

Update of yesterday's subject post:

There is no fucking point in arguing with professor who can't keep the logic straight. so I dropped that course. No point in staying in the class where I will not allowed to be my best. No FUCKING way.

How in the hell is my fault that 35 students missing their first assignment?

The answer is one of the following.

1. Because I turned in my post 3 days before the due.

2. Because the content I posted was too sophisticated for others.

3. WHATEVER.

4. Because those 35 who missed the due date were lazy bastards who can't keep their asses organized enough, or had no intention to turn in the assignment in the first place, because they have stupid excuses like... "My dog was using my laptop."

5. Answer 3. and 4.

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Anyways, I never heard the excuse, "I didn't turn in my assignment, because one of my classmates were smarter than I am."

But according to my professor, the depth of my analysis and thorough content is the reason half of her students didn't do their assignment. Yea, really... *rolls eyes*

Yea.

This has to be one of the best medals of my fucking life. Maybe I set this in my epitaph.

"Here lies the one, whose wits were too sophisticated for his college classmates."

lame.

It is just too stupid.

They can go fuck themselves. srsly.

I can understand some 14 year old can go emo over school, because some educators are actually lame.

This is a real episode...

2012-01-16T18:42:00.000-08:00

I am taking 17 full time units this semester, which does not include my two units in Mariachi study. 3 units are online, for music appreciation.

The online class consists of online quizzes, concert reports and discussion board posts. And today, my professor emailed me that I should taking "notch down" my post, so that I don't intimidate other students. She is blaming me that my depth of sophisticated post actually preventing other student to make their own posts. She went out to say that it is probably my fault that half of her students missed first deadline. Really?

She suggested that I should post public version of shorter post in Discussion, and I email my comprehensive version to her.
I told her I don't keep double books.

Okay, my post was thorough, but not offensive by any means. If nothing else, it was still humorous. It was academically insightful, accurate and used the terminology in precise manner, which she actually asked us to do. It was obviously written by someone with the years of experience in music.
And that is bad?
Isn't that the purpose of discussion board, so that you can learn from more experienced students?

I replied to her, I was never asked to dumb down my classroom comments in any courses, and there are always someone with different accomplishment levels, because this is college, not community center hobby class for seniors and toddlers.
If I was to take basketball class or swimming class, as good as I am, I will be still beaten by some 6 foot tall 18 year olds, however I tried. I'll be 48 in 5 months. I can swim 2 hours straight, but I can't finish 100 meters in 90 seconds anymore.
Are they supposed to slow down or miss their 3 pointer shot so the old Japanese elf won't feel so inferior? NO. So why do I have to?

After that, she said she didn't mean to upset me. I wasn't upset. I was taken aback by her suggestion because it came from someone who knows what the real competitive academic environment is like. FFS, she and her husband has 3 degrees each. Her husband from Juliard, being the most competitive music school in the world. Did any of their professors ever told them to play less musically, so that less talented musicians won't be intimidated? I don't think so.

So she has 45 lazy ass bastards in her class who can't even keep the due date of their first assignment. And the reason is one of the student has posted much more sophisticated contents before anyone did?
Excuse me? Am I hearing this correctly?
I am so turned off by this.

She said we should speak in person, and I told her I agree. See what happens.

I wouldn't be surprised if this came from some elementary school teacher, that I should take down a notch when I'm speaking to a 5th graders about music. I understand that. And I would not have spoken in full academic terminology in the first place.

Not in college, though. She explained that she is worried she is the only one who is getting what I was saying. So what? Others just need to keep up.

If I have to worry about whether my best is too good for a college course, where should I go?

2012-01-08T03:51:00.000-08:00

Life and Style tips from 100 year old lady

Deliciously Fabulous!

I wish I know this woman. She probably has a lot to say, and probably tell you like it is.

She probably uses French perfume that only be worn by grown woman, and her nails are meticulously groomed. In her tips, she says she doesn't wear jeans. And I understand why.

I always thought that the woman in advanced stage of her life should wear reds and bold colors. It takes some balls to pull off the outfit, and her wardrobe should reflect her rich experiences.

When I grow up, I want to be like her.

Assumptions and Facts...

2012-01-04T15:23:00.000-08:00

...are not the same thing.

Happy New Year. I'm enjoying my time out from my regularly schedule. lol I hang out in Trans and renew some of my longstanding friendship from old time sake.

Although I have logged in weekly to purge IM and receive notecard, I have not done any shopping, or catching up with the change in SL. One of the big one being mesh and menu/function change.
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That is not what I wanted to write today. I wanted to talk about this avatar started to hanging around Trans from not too long ago, I suppose. As my rule of thumb is that, I do not assume anything about anyone, if I can help it. I will be polite, and certainly not going to be abrasive without any reason or provocation.

And there is this avatar. She is probably trying too hard to fit in. Her superficial being just grates my nerve ending every time she opens her mouth. A couple of days ago, I totally blocked her, so I don't have to suffer the nonsense while I socialize with people who matters to me.

Maybe I should have permanently muted her. For I probably won't miss anything. But open minded person that I am, I unblocked her. And happens again, again, and again.

There she is, she doesn't seem to understand that some jokes are meant for the people who have been known each other for sometime, and not for the random person. You don't have to explain it. Any marginally educated person with average intelligent should be able to tell if it is a right time to say certain things to certain group of people.
I actually tolerate a lot of immaturity if I know the person/persons. It takes a lot to actually upset me. I rant, but most of the time, I rant because its funny. I don't rant because I'm really angry nor because I am affected personally.

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I was there, because Trans recently(like several month ago. lol) hired sexy German DJ, and I just adore her accents and personality from the first day I saw her.
So, she introduced next song, and with her lovely accent, she commented that its about the BDSM scene and people who belong to that category. I know a lot of people in Japan that belong to that scene and fetish clubs and the conversation naturally went to that direction.

Arcy was asking me if I was dominant or submissive, I answered I'm inclined to be dominant naturally, but I could switch for the right person. If anyone knows anything about what that means, the next question should be something in the line of ... that is interesting, how so? or that is not something you hear everyday...

Then, boom.

That avatar jumps in and makes following comments.

"I would take you for switcher, too. Fred."

.. if you know me already, you know the awkward silence that followed. And you know why she grates my nerve. It could have been interesting conversation with the DJ, instead, I had to cut her off before she thinks its cool to assume anything about me. Moreover, she should not mistaken her own imagination and assumption for a fact.

"I don't think you know me that well."

It is the truth. I don't know her, and at this point, I don't care to know her.
I only said, I switch for a right person. I did not elaborate why or what, nor explained what I like or what I don't like. I did not define what the dominant/submissive/switch is about, and I did not explicate where I stand as a simple definition of "dominant".
And this avatar went so far to define me as switcher for as far as I know, she has no knowledge of anything.

I may be switch. It is a fact, but her assumption is not based on the fact. It was an inference, or ignorant presumption, not even based on the conversation or what she learned of me from the last few days, watching me.
If anyone is remotely intelligent enough to make a conjecture about my character by a week worth of observation and conversation, she should have known not to make that assumption in the first place.

See? I don't judge people, but those people open their mouth and just give it away.

If she thinks that her assumption is close enough to the fact and therefore it is good enough, I really don't have any value for her opinion either.

Assumptions based on imagination has nothing to do with the fact. Although I accept other people's opinion, if that opinion is not based on facts, then that again, has no value.

Did she make that hypothesis based on her close and objective observation of me?

No.

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And again, I tell you like it is. Because you are entitled to my opinion.

Music of the Day .. (And this one...

2011-12-28T10:02:00.000-08:00

... is one of the top favorite performances of all time.
Hungarian pianist Georges Cziffra (Gryorgy Cziffra)

Everytime I hear this recording (or youtube), it pulls me back to the core spirit of why I play music. The music was written by my all time love, Franz Liszt (He is the first person I will going to visit in the afterworld, you don't know how much I am looking forward to that day!) actually, this is more like his official published version of previous, private version called Petite Valse Favorite which he wrote for his lady friend, Marie Kalergis.

The first version score shows unusual and non standard expression marking such as "as you play." or "as I play sometimes" in French, it is probably meant for Kalergis who was also an accomplished pianist, they must have had many musical moment together, till her untimely death at relatively young age.
Every time I see that score, I feel like I'm reading Liszt's sweet nothing love letter to his lover, or his best friend who had been his lover. (Likely around the year this original was published around 1842 or 43.)

This version, Valse Impromptu, played here, was revised and published about ten years after, 1852, much more polished with brilliant trademark Lisztian embellishment. Still romantic, and Cziffra here, probably being played this piece gazillion times, added his own twist here and there which is superbly done with great taste. I must say Liszt would have been enjoyed this rendering very much...

Cziffra usually known for his technical accuracy and virtuosity, however, here, such stupid label has nothing to do with the exquisite execution: it simply brings you to the sublime moment of bliss and pleasure.

There are many other recordings of this piece by another virtuoso such as Artur Rubinstein which is also stunningly beautiful. But for this particular piece, I think Cziffra renders the true intention of Liszt, of how and why this song was written in the first place.

Liszt, who was keenly aware of his lack of basic education in early years, always had been attracted to extremely intelligent and talented women, Kalergis was not an exception. As his all other lovers and mistresses, she was multi talented, with an ability to command multiple languages. (what's with all those women seems to be gifted enough to perform Liszt's difficult pieces! And they are not even musicians.) There has been a rumor that she might have been a Russian spy which could not been confirmed other than Liszt's insinuation in his correspondence to others at one time.

Handsome, extraordinary gifted musician and beautiful spy. ...

Paganini and what not (from Libertine: IV.

2011-12-20T09:20:00.000-08:00

Libertine: IV.: A friend of Mine, lutist by profession, time ago told Me about a movie he saw by chance also suggested by a friend of his, violinist, in a c...

The scary great Klaus Kinski portrays Paganini in this film. I happen to have this VHS (took a while to find it!) and I probably watched twice. There are weird interpretation of some events of Paganini's life and the script... sucks.

Well, if you are watching and doing nothing else, that is.

It would probably be fabulous, if you are having an orgy or training your slave or something. It makes a great ambient film, because it moves so slow. Camera just follows Kinski, dressed in black for minutes at a time... then some scenes turns pornographic without any compelling reason at all. Yes, it is made with European sensibility. And it is not for the most of contemporary American value-whatever they maybe. (LOL)

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I'm not a film critic, so that's that.

I am blogging this, because this was posted by SL creator, Alia Baroque's new blog, and I really like his aesthetics and idea behind this idea. I always thought that there can be a great value attached to the expression of one's eroticism and sexuality, however, it is very difficult to find something that satisfy my twisted tastes.

Almost 10 years ago (!) I was trying to write erotica just because I could not find anything that I wanted to read. The project was sort of abandoned, when I seriously started historical research in order to write some small scenes. (ha. ) In short, I got hang up on reading and studying random stuff, and didn't get to back to it. Then, I started taking up my instruments that were forgotten for decades, which led to the decision to go back to college, which continuing as of now.

In my SL career, there are times I used the title "Libertine" for a while, and I think, I have been a Libertine for the most part.

I have this idea of Libertine since I was a teenager, that some aristocratic man who is extraordinarily intelligent and articulate, yet, his broad interests and tastes were so hard to satisfy, he sort of wasting away from every possible angle. The ruthlessness and sensitivity combined, he can be the most charming at the same time he can be the most crude man in the room. He hates his own heritage to a point, yet, he very well knows he is also benefitting from it.

So on and so forth... sounds like someone you know?

oooh.

Freddie's next project is actually a Paganini's piece. Grand Concertata#2 for guitar and violin.

Wandering elf

2011-12-19T23:43:00.000-08:00

It's been awhile since I sit in SL for hours on end. Making a Holiday card was the task of the day, so with full on Elf regalia and even my boots on (inside joke) I was able to get few shots.

Some strange nostalgic reason, I decided to impose New Years greeting in Kanji. It is not intended for specific cultural Holiday event, as I really don't do anything in real life either. The elf is just roaming his world, stopping to think about others, that's all.

Lately, I'm considering to naturalize myself into US. Technically, I have good 8 years or so, till I have to update my Visa or Passport, however, the deteriorating Japanese civilization just making me sick of it altogether. I see no reason at all to retain my nationality at this point.

I don't hate Japan, but their closed culture in due to their specific language barrier is putting the whole nation in a solitary state, which prevents them from benefiting from the positive global change.
They are like sheep herd. They just follow around themselves. They don't even know who or what they are following. There is no direction at all. The sheep next to you going to the left, you just blindly follow, and then some other sheep pushes you from behind, you go forwards.

Their cookie cutter education system mass produce the highly functional robots which can follow the programmed command in a precise manner, however the individual unit has no ability to process the big picture of the task by itself. They are not taught to analyze the facts, or critically assessing the facts in order to determine its new direction. They just follow whatever everyone is doing.

What ticks me the most,

The FUCKING JAPANESE are now making up THEIR version of recent history, that they did not invade China nor made sex slaves out of Chinese/Koreans, and now THEY are the VICTIMS of whatever the CONSPIRACY they SAY the Chinese/Koreans are concocting.
That's not all, now they had the NERVE to tell that they want to know the TRUTH, not the propaganda that USA made it up for the rest of the world.

You know where this is going, right?

Yes, "I give you the FUCKING TRUTH, and you won't LIKE IT"

Consipiracy of William Huang

2011-12-10T14:25:00.001-08:00

I am not sure if this subject is in any way related to SL, but I have to wonder this phenomenon is anything to do with current culture.

The notriety of American Idol contenstant, William Huang is something that is really odd to me.

These people are incapable of acknowledging their actual capabilities in the certain subject.

First, I thought it was William Huang's conspiracy to stir up a controversy, in order to fund himself his college education which he suceeded. UC Berkeley Engineering student cannot be incapable of understanding his own capabilities, otherwise, he wouldn't have succeeded to be a good student with remarkable academic accomplishment.
One needs to be able to reflect your own ability, and strive to make oneself better. So it does not make any sense that Huang does not know his lack of musical ability.

... Anyways, then look what he has done to American population...

Yesterday, a student came into my music lab, asking for help on her final performance piece on her beginner piano class. She says she need "a little help to find out her hand position."

First of all, there are no "hand position in piano". Maybe in string instruments such as violin or guitar, that you could say it is a first postition or hand in 5th fret position or whatever. But Piano, there are no set position.
Which alarmed me that she must have missed a lot of class, and at this point, Friday before the final, it worried me.

She showed me the piece, so I asked her to play it for me.

What happened next is just made me almost scream. She started to look at her score and tried to figure which note she should play. Without making a note on the piano, I had to stop her.

"I am sorry, I don't know how to tell you this, but I don't think you will be able to play this piece by Tuesday as your final. You look like you have never played this piece, and at your level, it will take another year or so to be able to play this. "

Obviously, this student was misguided by their instructors and her parents. Her reply was unbelievable and I have to congratulate myself for not throwing her out right away, while keeping my composure.

"But no one will be able to instantly play, and I am not that level."

Fucking obvious. I know exactly how Simon Cowell felt when he heard William Huang protested that he never received professional training.

I tried to be calm and went on to explain it to her.

"I am sure you are talented musician, and you are correct that no one would be able to do that, (Some can, but for the sake of the argument) that is why we practice for hours, days, to be able to play the piece. Especially the beginner like yourself needs some preparation to perform this on final. "

Now she tries to challenge me by saying...

"I got an A on mid term although I missed first few weeks of the classes. My teacher gave me this piece last Tuesday. And I played this piece long time ago, so I can play this, if I practice. "

OH Great, then, you don't need my help.

You know what? Fuck those stupid "Self Esteem education" okay?
Teach them to value making your own effort, and and reward them for their achievement and accomplishment.
Those curriculaum which "everyone can get a sticker" for their unsbustantiated/empty self confidence is nothing but a hindrance to their future.

My last words for the student?

"You need to acknowledge your own ability now, in order to make yourself better. You have quite a way to get to where you want to be, and I cannot make you a better musician in 4days. I am not really sure what your instructor have told you the standard of expectation for the final piece, but any music instructor I know in this school does not accept your performance as a passable level. You should have prepared. Good luck for your final. Practice a lot for next several days."

The professors can't help them, that is why they are sending them 5 days before the final to me ?And they expect me to fix delusional, untalented student? Something is wrong in this picture.

Okay, I will tell it to them. I have no problem telling the truth.

Music that I'm currently working on.

2010-08-12T19:56:00.000-07:00

I really play a couple of instruments for real.
Here are examples of classical pieces I'm working on.

Piano
All kinds of Chopin. lol Yea Last semester, I only played Chopin's pieces the whole semester. People probably getting tired of it. 6 or 7 Waltz, all memorized. Yet, more Chopin.
During the summer, my instructor suggested that I should start working on advanced pieces.
So here are few of fairly advanced pieces.

Chopin- Scherzo #2 B flat minor
Bach Well-tempered Klavier book 2 Prelude No24 in B minor (BWV893)
Liszt Liebestraume #3 (memorized and pretty much done)

I like this last prelude from Well-Tempered Klavier. Really catchy and happy, although it is written in minor key. Come to think of it,Tetris people could have used this prelude instead of Menuet from French Suite.

In my applied music class (performance study), there are few people who had performed game music pieces last semester. (i.e. Super Mario, Pokemon Final Fantasy... etc.) So, I'm sure, playing French suite could get some chuckles out of my classmates without offending my professor. LMAO He is not really stickler about the genre of the piece, so, game music isn't the problem. But many students just play it without putting any thought or effort to preparing the piece. That's what it gets him.

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The plan that I made at the end of last semester was totally different. LOL However, I wasn't really motivated enough to learn Shostakovich nor Beethoven Sonatas. I hope my applied music professor wasn't paying attention to the foot notes I added on my practice journal I turned in last semester. Good thing, there are tons of classical music pieces out there for me to learn, so I should be all right, even if the plan has changed a bit.

For Violin

Bach - Partita #2 Allemande
Fritz Kreisler - Schoen Rosmarin
Again, my crappy bow doesn't bounce, so I can't really play this piece. For this piece, definitely needing a better bow. My current violin is totally fine for playing this piece.
I know for a fact that better bow would help me tremendously both for the technical aspect of playing and a projection of the sound. (Cha-ching! 700$)

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Heh, this doesn't make me look like I"m depressed. I guess I'm not.

How the classical music should be...

2010-08-11T10:14:00.000-07:00

So I talked about David Garrett yesterday. If you search his name on you tube, there are tons of MJ covers which I really don't care for.
But here is what you should watch, if you want to check him out He plays virtuoso piece by Pablo Sarasate. However, not in tux, and all of the audience are T-shirts and shorts. THIS is how the classical music should be. Forget the stupid protocol and dress code.

Zigeunerweisen is in style of gypsy music. You have to understand where this music coming from. It was solely for the enjoyment of his family and his extended clans who travel together all over Europe. Gypsies play anything you want to hear. It could be Sinatra, it could be Foster's Camptown races. It well could be Brahms.

After arriving at some strange town, somewhere in the middle of Europe, entertaining the townspeople all day, earning the pocket change and a scraps by playing tricks, and reading their fortune, coming back to the edge of that town. Families, young and old, gathered around a fire with the first modest meal after the weeks of wandering.

... then the man with violin starts with three dramatic sustaining broken chord... watch the video for the rest.

Heh, I just realized he plays the *lassan-slow part of Gypsy music* very slowly, taking more than 6 minutes!. lolol Friska (fast part) breathtaking. Funny, audience applauded in between the lassan and friska, which is usually a big no-no in classical music, and it usually never happens in anywhere. But here is what I think, and this is the reason for this entry's title. You should be able to express your joy and approval freely. Let the musician know we are loving his performance.
It is obvious, Garrett is also drawing energy from audience. Such basic give and take of emotions rarely happens in formal settings of classical music concert. This is the moment when many of the musicians describe the experience as "better than sex". There is no other way to explain to other people.

Classical music hunks...

2010-08-10T15:54:00.000-07:00

As you know, I already have a blog link to *Barihunk* sites, which specialize in Baritone opera singers coverage. I love this site because they don't go into snobby concert critique. Their posts are solely based on pretty stage pictures!

I am not going to establish blog about classical music, because they are just part of me. So I decided to cover whatever I run into, when ever.

Erwin Schrott, who is among the favorites of Barihunk site, already had been covered in here as well. His performance in La Scala last year has been somewhat unfavorable among opera fans, but if they want fat ugly baritone, thats their thing. They need to grew out of that snobby mentality.

Here are my two favorites from Strings division.

David Garrett, violin (Germany) Ah.... yea. I didn't know he had tattoo... *fans self*. The violin he is holding, isn't some cheap violin shaped object. That is REAL Stradivarius . He appeared in Banana Republic ad. He is doing some crossover stuff that I really could care less, but he can play. I totally understand, he couldn't make nearly anything, if he was in traditional classical circuit, so more power to him. His prettiness should be exploited while its hot. lol Hey, there were Franz Liszt back in 19th century. Why he shouldn't be?

Gautier Capuçon, Cello (France)
He is from France, very talented family. (his brother is also a virtuoso violinist) I first encountered his performance through video performance with famous virtuosa pianist Martha Argerich. Their performance of Chopin's rarely performed Polonaise Op.3 gives me goosebumps still to this day. Not to mention, his French accent on top of his cello. (I am pondering about buying a cello myself. lol)

There have been a lot of pretty female classical performers before, not to mention barrage of beautiful opera divas, but some strange reason, male classical musicians always neglected their stage presentation. lol
I can understand person like David Garrett don't see any future in traditional stage. He can reach broader audience if he is able to sell sex with his Strad. Worn out sneaker and Strad? Why not? I'm all for it, if it could attract more people to classical music.

I feel nauseous and light headed... from textbook price......

2010-08-10T15:00:00.000-07:00

I think I can justify making a rant on this particular subject.

It is just fucking outrageous. Can anyone explain that to me?

I had to shop around for over 8 outlets, both online and physical stores.

12 textbooks. About half of them used. 2 books are semester rental. I paid for my English textbook only 3.79$ from used textbook store, which my college bookstore sells the same book for 52 $.
Grand total of 471$..........

Let's put that into perspective, shall we?
The grand total of tuitions and fees for this semester is 476 $ Of which, 442$ is for myself. My son's account only needs to be paid 34$ (He receives grants for tuitions.)

So, textbooks cost more than the education itself...
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It doesn't include any of my music lesson related costs, either. Many of the sheet music costs anywhere from 12$ up to 55$ average, (many are imported editions from Germany or other Euro country) so I'm no stranger to paying a lot of money for books. Even so...
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At least, I can honestly say that my son nor myself would drop out or withdraw from any of the class. But I feel for the parents of those students who do drop out from classes for the reason of sheer laziness.

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Speaking of my college...
I'm happy to announce that I will be officially a tutor for my college music department. It should pay for my coffee cost. lol Yea. it's a paid position, and I get to have individual music lab. Hey, part-time adjunct faculty don't even have their own office, so I am not complaining. Music lab has iMac and a piano. I can practice my piano if I'm not busy.

Jagerkin's blog talks about obnoxious ppl in SL

2010-05-26T12:52:00.000-07:00

Is that his personal experience, too?

10 ways to become ostracized in SL

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I have not posted anything lately, mostly due to my own lack of activity in SL. However, I just updated some of my profile entry just yesterday, and incidentally, Jagerkins also made his this blog entry two days ago. The similarity to the sentiment of my own on this subject matter is striking to say the least.

Some of the points, I have not experienced because mostly I avoid having a contact with such person with " 1. people with no tact 4.Continue to shouting for attention when busy " ... Not that I have not seen them. But I do not remain in contact with those type of person in general.

As for the rest of the points, I agree with 110% enthusiasm.

The really weird thing about SL reflecting in this list and my sentiments I have been repeating regarding SL relationship in general is that, I rarely (almost never) encounter these type of people in RL. EVER.

That should tell you/me something about the characteristic of SL demographic/populous.

For instance:

7. Become draining

Barrage someone with a problem. Every. Fucking. Day. Be it made up crap due to insecurities or a legit problem blown out of proportion, crying to someone about a “problem” every day can tear at a person’s patience. Blaming the person for everything is also a guaranteed way to cause someone to become homicidal.

You just don't burden others with complaints of your whole damn life. Especially, to your friend, whatever your description of friend might be. And they become appalled when we go ape shit when we can't take it anymore.

What I really think is this. Those who bitch about their problems and blaming everything else but themselves to you, DOES NOT VALUE YOU and YOUR friendship. Period.

10. Have full entitlement for being on someone’s friend list
Put a lot of weight on your own importance in another’s SL just for being on their friend list. Even though you know nothing about the person who just accepted your friendship offer, expect to have rights to being let into their homes, having free stuff if they are a merchant, full map rights, building perms and so on. Expect their SL to revolve around you while you’re at it. Raise a stink if you aren’t given any of the above.

Not just on the friend list, but the entitlement on anything and everything.
What the fuck is wrong with those people?" I don't even know you. You can't even show your picture of yourself, nor what your occupation is, nor where you live. In short, I don't trust you, therefore, you do not deserve to assume anything from me. " (Jagerkin mention this in other part of this article.)
Is that so fucking hard to understand? Apparently, it is to those dumb asses.

Although the amusement comes after either: I made blog entry about the experience with one of those people, or tell them in plain language personally, they usually start blaming me for not loyal to "our friendship" that I never had with them. Again, such a complete entitlement complex.

How they fall... (or fail...) (Chronicle pt 2)

2010-03-29T09:19:00.000-07:00

whatever the insignificant drama went on in that group is nothing of naught. It usually involves with three word responses of poor RP scenes and a couple of officers who are AFK the whole scenes. (LOL yea. That also puzzled me A LOT. There is this one character who puts up *away* signs during every single group activity, claiming that RL is going on. Why even bother playing a game if it is such an important thing in rl? And her real life ALWAYS going on during the group activity. but whatever.)

I digress...

However, the mechanism of group operation failure makes a interesting read of an analysis to the virtual realm in general, and since many of those involved claim that there are real person with feelings behind, it also translates to their actual lives as well.

Each character stresses the importance of family and honor(wtf?) but they have no desire to actually contribute to the group operations.

Contributions, you ask?

Financial contribution, taking care of admin work, come up with sim operation planning to manage the sim, planning the events to enhance each member's rp experience, planning classes for actual RP skill improvement(ie: character development, hooks, rp scene etiquette etc. )

These are no brainer basics, yet as long as you run a group on LL land, it never do without them.

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They stresses that each individual is an adult, yet no one seems to have enough disposable income to support their own leisure they value so much.

I always say that the real life comes first, but they are only using real life as an excuse to get out of SL responsibility or contribution, financial or otherwise.

If they have stable RL to have enough leisure time, you must have enough pocket change to take care of your own cost of playing the game. Isn't it true?

If you are scraping the last penny to keep your family fed, you shouldnt be playing online game.

There are couple of members who make themselves to be an accomplished professional.

So, I run another numbers. (Always. My forte. Numbers usually can't lie.)

The annual income of college graduate with 15-20year experience varies from 65,000$ up . Many should have achieved 6 figures by this time of their life.

As for high schools graduate with some college, they should have achieved at least around 50K mark.

Of course, each situation can have vast differences depends on health, family, even geographical locations. However, i'm drawing these two examples from what I gathered personally from that particular group.

These population should be able to afford to spend some small amount of money for their own leisure, including eating out, paying for their cost of online game.

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Now, the sim operations usually cost anywhere from 300$ or 68K Linden and up.

If there are handful of people who falls into above population, it should be easily operated.

Many working adults I know, pays for eating out, coffee, nail salon, hair salon etc... Substituting one lunch and an afternoon latte, could save you 20$ easily.

it is not even sacrifice, because they don't even miss it.

Therefore the cost of sim could be easily shouldered among 5-10 people, shouldering anywhere from 20$-100$. (Case #1)

or operate commercial activity such as rent for land/shop, and cover the rest with member contribution. (case#2)

The last will be harder to achieve, but not impossible. Cover everything with commercial operation. (case#3)

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Now, how you can contribute as individual.

Financial contribution, or actual operation. If you don't want to contribute financially, you can always contribute your time. Since many of the member of this group emphasize the importance of unity and honor. *rolls eyes*

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Well...

I could go on, but its boring.

My point?

None of them cares enough to contribute. They are band of selfish bastards. They pretend to be the character of honor, but they come out when something was handed to you. They don't even have a decency to stay involved in a group meeting or activity. When it comes to contributions, they conveniently have private priority comes up.

The pledge to contribute is worthless are their title.

No one has the enough financial contribution to keep 300$ cost? And many of them are with college degrees ? yet, cannot seem to plan/run 300$ a month operation? oh wow. lol

Oh, yea.I totally understand it.

Because, at the end,

fake family and group is not so important for these selfish bastards. Fake friendship and fake honors never worth their 20$. Period. Am I right?

Otherwise, contribute to the place you so value worth foregoing one restaurant tab, or one shopping trip.

Guess not.

Talk of honor, loyalty... as long THEY don't have to do anything. That is the whole mentality of SL kindom that falls.

Since my objective is completed for now...

2010-03-28T15:22:00.000-07:00

I should start posting homoiri chronicles.

First of all, I have to admit that Jemma Magic is my agent.

I am sure some of the smarter population in that group must have suspected the weird/perfect timing for her appearance and joining the clan, or her lack of apparent skills or contribution to the activity themselves, yet she seems to be in the right place and say the right things when the time is right. ... is all me, pulling the strings.

Think about it.

Check out her profile for one. There are only two person is mentioned have her exclusive "dedication* in her profile.

One is Jager as if he is her love of her life. If perfect strangers see that dedication, there are no question that Jemma and Jager are deeply involved. Jager seems to be allowing it to go on, is another sign that at least, he tolerates that sort of advertisement to the public.

(True or not, isn't the point. I'm trying to make a point.)

And the other one? Frederic. From the entry, she obsessed with him and her sheer hatred seeping from every word she dedicates to him. Yet, that is the only other person she provoke herself to have any emotion towards to. now she triumphantly exclaims "I have your attention!"

It is just like a kindergarten playground. The girl always try to beat you up, usually had a serious crush on you. Some girls can't grow out of that immature behavior pattern for the rest of her life.

Well, my point is.

Jemma Magic is putting out a great cover for my plans.

So thank you, Jemma. For all those "I'm harassed by freddy!" drama shit. That was a well put out show for anyone to believe that you and I are at dire odds. (LOL)

She is one of the greatest person in SL, who is the sweetest and kindest of heart of anyone I have ever met in my whole life. /me does kissy faces to provoke laughter and violent vomiting.

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And someone can remember what I divined about homoiri?

Yea it came true, isn't it?

The sim is closed.

I don't care if you still have some necro group. I have a tons of groups which is running from 06. it doesn't mean I'm doing anything with it.

I don't have any time for myself to manipulate my own avatar to cause havoc in a place i don't care to be in, I have to have able body who has too much time on their hands to spend ALL DAY in an rp sim which has nothings going on in the first place.

Any experienced Rp er would have gone nuts in that sim, but thankfully, Jemma Magic doesn't seem to care. All she need was the place where she can make herself presentable. Preferably without speaking much.

You know, you remember your highschool years?

Some people never seem to get in trouble, or have wits enough to cause trouble? yes.

But that sort of person usually have misplaced loyalty to those who pay attention to them. This is no exception.

If you are curious, let me know.

I will tell you how to test Jemma's loyalty to the group she claims to hold and in exchange, holds the make believe honor title that are worth anything to anyone.

Yes. My bet is that, she is a liar like anyone I know. Only way she can outmaneuver me is to come clean by herself before I sent someone to rip her open in front of founders of that group.

Anyways. I have been AWOL from SL. So ponder that.

Like I said, everything is on my term.

Lot of site hits lately. LOLOLOL

2010-03-27T23:26:00.001-07:00

I have a lot of hits on my blog lately.

People just can't get enough of the story of stupidity, dumb asses and fake friendship gone wry...

I'm truly amazed with all those people who got nothing but hang up with the fake blog of fake personality in some make believe realm.

Sorry to burst your bubble, but you would rather spend your brain activity on reading a real book for once. (LOLOL *me turns the page of Anna Karenina and gets the idea of story.) Don't you think it is better off doing something *lit---tle bit more* productive than believing some pixel character?

Does your mom know you are reading these crap? LOL

You know, you ever wondered about supermarket "My baby is an alien!" tabloid? And you sympathize the people who could not resist picking up and actually try to read it...

YES, you!

Hahahahahahaha.

For those of you entertain yourself by knowing there are people actually taking my blog seriously, and being seriously offended and taking it personally, good for you. I'm glad to be of your service.

Some dumb ass is baiting me with personal attacks

2010-03-24T16:59:00.000-07:00

but I am not going to respond to it. LOL

Reason:

1.Accusation themselves (whole bunch of imagined truth) are not that logical to begin with.
2.There are no facts to support her claim. (Because there are none. lol)
3.The person has no ability to engage in logical discussion/debate.
4.I have better things to do.
5. The whole thing is a grossly misguided attempt for personal attention, as any other.
6. I have better things to do.

By the way, have I ever said all those homoiri people did anything to harm me or did anything to slight me? No, I don't think so.

Just because you read something unflattering, doesn't mean there were disputes between those two parties. Such near sighted assumption hardly ever worth my time to spend in rebuttal.

Some discussion is worth engaging. This personal attack, isn't.

Bring something worth my time, Jemma, if you want my attention.

Ditzy kolpophobic people like the group in SL below...

2010-03-09T19:42:00.000-08:00

are nothing to do with sexual orientation.

They are just another phenomenon of ditzy American culture in decline.

Check out this Lindsay Lohan's suit over *milk-aholic baby named "Lindsay"...*

I wonder one of the homoiri people who called hall monitor was actually Li-Lo. Because anyone with real brain and some common sense could ever care less about some pixel character's profile entry about virtual world's satire. (Aside from that person apparently lacks basic English comprehension skills. Errr... that is no surprise, since I have seen their so called... RP. LOL *gagsnorts*)

This FRIVOLOUS lawsuit over Etrade baby tv commercial totally reminded me of all typical ADD --*Adult Attention getting- Deficit* closet gays/gender confused/kolpophobic self proclaimed gender blind (HA!) pixels, who are supposed to be in Second life...

(Yea, it totally sucks that I have to explain my punchline, just because ppl either don't have sense of humor or lack some wits to figure it out by themselves. I'm sure some clinical ADD/ADHD people will scream at me or claiming defamation that I'm belittling ppl with ADHD, without reading the above paragraph correctly. People like Linden)

REALLY?...

Either way, its sad, that only attention you think you are getting in fact, has nothing to do with you. *laughs

Fomoiri- Satire of Second Life BDSM RP

2010-02-16T07:44:00.001-08:00

Make no mistake.

This is a satire entry towards Second Life which cannot seem to grasp the concept of First amendment. And the contents are NOT about gays in general real life.

Here is the thing about SL. You have a tool to disassociate yourself from the contents. In LL term, it is called *Self Governance tool*. It is basically, to stay away from what you don't like. The tools such as *mute* button, are there to help you utilize that functions.

But the least of them all, if you don't like me, DO NOT OPEN AND PERVE MY PROFILE.

Isn't that simple enough for you?

"I hate fred so let's read his profile! there, he is talking about me! Let's file AR ... "

It is called frivolous AR. And I will AR back at you.

Since there was no entry to point the reader to any particular person nor group, I'm surprised LL even sent me a Warning, but then again, there was a term like *gays* in it, and they can be coddling sensitive about such terms without really comprehending the contents as a whole.

(That is not new.)

So I asked for clarification about what or which or who I am supposed to be intolerant towards to, and who I am supposed to be defaming that inhibits their activity in SL. LMAO

Since I have not engaged directly towards anyone, nor any group in world, there should be no record of anything. LL should come to the conclusion that it was indeed a frivolous complaints.

Meanwhile, I was going to clean my profile and archive my profile picks anyways, so here it is.

All out. And my blog links are posted all over the place, so general public will know what the Fomoiri is about, from my editorial and my humorous satire.

Oh One More Thing.

LL has no jurisdiction over my personal blog. I can post SL conversation, I can name names, I can point the SL groups.

Anyone who has been familiar with my blog should known that there are few SL stupidity made an entry in my blog, and this group/sim will not be the first nor the last.

Many *anonymously * tried to threaten me with the case of libel and defamation, but in the court of law, you will have no chance against my blog contents. It only works inside Second Life, as such, becoming the butt of the joke themselves for their lack of grasp towards the definition of *Community*. lol

So here it is, my satire group picks for Fomoiri.

I rp'd there for about four hours once. They have no clue what the RP is about, so I left. Jager joined there, and harassing the whole sim ever since. He gives me a lot of reports and the list of blunders within the group.

They have trigger happy officers who can only seem to solve the drama by throwing the member that doesn't agree with him, and ban from the sim. If you are eliminating the good RPer who are willing to play an ass, you will end up with no one. And that is what is exactly happening with this sim.

They just bounced two tier contributing members not too long ago.

They can't seem to get rid of Jager, just because no one else is capable of doing the same job. On the other hand, they are also afraid of Jager because of their baseless fear that Jager is some sort of *hacker*... lol

I will publish the chronicle of Fomoiri shortly.

Anyway, enjoy the archive of my profile pick.

You will probably notice that glossary is generally satirical of SL BDSM, RP sim. Not just this particular sim.

I should add that Jemma Magic and Jager, both the member of Fomoiri, thought that these profile entry was funny as hell.

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We are Fomoiri, fierce band of closet gays who cannot afford to out ourselves in our real life. We only comes here with our alts, and pretend to have RP, whilist we have no clue what the RP stands for.

*Disclaimer* The spokes person pictured above is not an attorney. He has better looking av than most of us, so we just stole his picture. Be warned, the reality of our avatars may vary. Some depiction of our avatars might offend some visitors. Visitor Discretion is Strongly Advised.

*Obligatory* :)

Glossary

Definition of Dominant ~Person who lacks self esteem getting off of giving himself some make believe title of a Master.

Submissive~ Person who lacks personality. depending on their group dominant to help them jerk off. In fact,can't even attract their own sexual partner in RL/SL.

BDSM- Tie up others and engage in deviant sexual activity with pixel av. However Political correctness to save our sensibility is compulsory.

Gender blind- We put that there to fool ourselves. Females cause 100% of our drama.

RP- OOC avs pretend to be fake family. Therefore in any role play, we emotionally respond. It is not acceptable to offend our RL sensibility because every ugly pixels there is a emotional bitchy gays behind. We only ban- female- drama whores.

Medieval~We don't know what that means.

King and Queen- Characters who are desperate for other pathetic pixels to save their lack of self esteem. The titles are self proclaimed, as honorable and valuable as any other SL group title, such as *SLut of SL* or *VIP*.

We strive to keep political correctness so that we can alleviate the pain of severely lacking ideals. We do not use the term slaves, so we don't look like the simple brutes of Goreans. We are much more sophisticated. So just you know, we call them Jewels.

Fiana (Knights)---Another title to manipulate pixels with low self esteem, so they feel more important than they could be in RL. In truth, they are pixels working for this honorable title, (for free) and contributes to our abysmal traffic in exchange of place to hang out. This goes for all other lesser titles. Just don't tell them.

Title of Honor--- "We didn't sign up SL to be called MR, thank you. It is *Your Highness* to you, Thou tottering tardy-gaited ratsbane!"

Applause for Starz Channel

2010-02-15T15:15:00.000-08:00

So I have been watching new TV series, "Spartacus: Blood and Sand" on Starz channel. I have not made any opinion over this series till the episode "The thing in The Pit" (Episode 104) for few reasons.

Of course, I was impressed with the amount of violence and blatant sexual content as any other audience which is a easy guess. The creators Sam Raimi and Robert Tapert has been one of the most radical creators on both silver screens and TV. It was just a matter of time that these two come up with something that push the limit of *norm of the time*. For that, they are the true artists.

So with all the bells and whistles, why I have not had any opinion about the series?
Because of the lacking portrayal of bisexuality up until the episode 103.
Well, there was a slight suggestion, such as kiss between two female characters however, it could have been perceived as the simple custom of the time, or simply, it could perceived as European influenced custom.

With all the sex scenes, including the suggestion of orgy, plenty of male full frontal nude scene(yay!-Any one can appreciate the fine specimens of human males. It is no brainer. ), the stable full of naked gladiators, I was wondering why there was not a scene/plot of homosexuality/pederasty. I was wondering why the creators stopped at the mere sex scenes or frontal nude, if it was their intention to push the envelope.

Well, wonder no more.
In the episode 104-The Thing in The Pit, achieved all of the above and then some. There was an unmistakable(not an suggestion) sex between two male characters. Of which, also could perceived as pederasty, since the younger character seems to be in early 20s or even in late teens .
There was a very graphic and violent depiction of underground fight scenes which included some gruesome ritual by the victor who skinned the face of the defeated.

And, frontal nude of amputee shemale. (!!!)
I mean...
I thought it was a female till I watched the same episode *on Demand* seeing the extra package she carried, and totally applauded the casting, producers and at the end, Starz channel for approving that sort of edgy depiction of the underground Roman culture ever in the history of TV. (Especially in US.)
They could have get away with a scene with just a two female slaves hang nude in the chains, but no.

Seriously, I could not recall anything like this.
Sex scenes cannot be any more graphic without becoming pornography. Violence is unapologetic.

I thought there must be a lot of criticism by whiny American audiences who cannot seem to know how to turn the TV off and let TV station babysit them, by censoring the contents. But Starz shut them all up by putting disclaimer before the episode starts.

In short, if you can't take the heat, get out the kitchen.

Hats off to Starz channel, and I expect bisexual orgies!

Here is my Profile by Jemma Magic

2010-02-08T12:55:00.000-08:00

This is how others write my profile.

I'm a condescending jackass that should go back to sitting in my selfmade tower of lonliness on my throne because no one in the world is good enough, smart enough or beautiful enough to be my equal.

I have no respect for people that try to befriend me, they are a waste of my time. Anything I disagree with is stupid. Of course, I'd use bigger words, but no one would understand this if I did.

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Picks:

Pictures of myself

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First life tab:

I fool myself and say RL and SL never meet

Jemma Magic used to be the guest of my sim and friend of Lord Diglett who is lurking around here time to time.

She claims to know me from very small time we spent at my sim. In fact, I really don't know the reason she so hate me, since we never really engaged in an activity together to cause passionate discussion or debate. We have nothing in common for the most part, other than we have mutual friend. That is about it.

Since she was a guest of my guest, I welcomed her as such. I allowed her to stop by or invite her friends whenever she liked.

I have been cordial and polite to her all the time I was speaking to her. Therefore, it somewhat mind boggled me when I was told that she claimed I was condescending towards her when no one is around.
The fact is that, I was rarely alone with her for any reason.

"I have no respect for people that try to befriend me, they are a waste of my time."

This quote according to her entry is the prime example of how much she doesn't know me.
Anyone who is trying to befriend another, usually have mutual *respect* and *common courtesy* between us when both party is trying to develop a friendship/relationship.
None of my friends ever skipped this process. Some are put on probation (meaning that I decide to observe the person without cutting them off) and some made an effort to better themselves when it come to SL relationship. My requirements are very simple to understand, and none should have any difficulty with it. If it was not what they were looking for, they have all the control not to engage with Frederic's character. I never stalk nor track anyone who doesn't like me.
Jemma Maigic, however, she assumed to claim my friendship without build that trust and friendship and assumed that she will be my friend on default because she is a friend of my friend.

That was a serious mistake on her part.

She pretended to be my friend, at the same time she spoke badly about me when she was with our mutual friend. I really could careless what she thinks of me, since she never confronted me about my own shortcomings or my faults.

There are lot of accusation of my faults from her. The bottom line? Was she ever trying to clarify what I meant? No. Never.
Was it really the fault of my character? I am not sure.

The last real conversation I had with her, was the time *I* confronted her and asked clarification of why she bitched about my character faults to our mutual friend, and not to me.

She basically blamed that she wasn't the one who said it. She blamed what was said was in fact, from Jager.
My answer to that? Jager can tell that to me, and if I am a boring person, Jager can leave my sim anytime he wanted. (Yes, one of my character faults according to her, was *boring person* LOL)

There was not even a single line she can quote me the actual *abusive conversation when Jager was not around* . Nor a single incident that I was impolite to her. On the other hand, person claiming to be my friend will never spoke bad about me in my absence.

Is she expecting me to allow her all the impoliteness, double talking behind my back before we establish our trust of our friendship, and accept her as my friend?
She needs to think about that first.

After that last confrontation, I have not spoken to her. She has no basis for developing further understandings of my character ever since. Yet, she titled her notecard as "Person who used to knew him (Frederic)". Hilarious.

My rebuttal.

Jemma Magic never made it to the status of my friend. She forfeited that chance all on her own.
Do not ever accuse me of being condescending towards people who try to befriend me. I am only condescending towards people who is unable to grasp the basic logic of *building trust and friendship/relationship* and trying to claim my trust without showing basic courtesy and honesty.

"The Picture of Dorian Gray"--Frederic 's Profile

2010-01-01T07:24:00.000-08:00

Write my Profile Challenge

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One of my favorite Faustian adaptation. (Is it a stretch to call that? I don't think so.)

The vast difference between Dorian Gray and Faustian legend, however, makes this story so intriguing; it is also the basis for argument that this story cannot be Faustian adaptation, that the main character is an antihero with a huge secret to hide.

All my life, I have been always attracted to the story with antihero. And Oscar Wilde himself has been my *antihero*, along with other artists, authors, philosophers with less than perfect social reputations.

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Anyway, I was talking to a certain young lord, and he utters something like in the effect that it would be interesting to see what others would write his own profile.

Incidentally, I pondered the exact same thing the night before, while I was about to fall asleep.

(This sort of coincidence happens a lot around me.)

I know there are few of my friends who dedicate a pick for me in the past and present. Many more had a sentence or paragraph of me. Of course, they are assuringly flattering entries, but what we really wondered is the ones who might hate us.

We were discussing something that how others uses their own ignorance, naivete, or lack of perception to blame others, even insults them for being something they are not.

I got over all those, since there are more members of "I hate Fred in SL" than my friends, but the curious person that I am, I truly wonder what their logic, perception of my shortcomings are.

Are they really capable of seeing something I don't see in myself?

Are they really capable of analyzing my less than desirable character objectively?

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You may write as many, and you may add more in the future. I am thinking about establishing group or community. (Details will be discussed in the near future.)

Meanwhile:

Here is a Challenge for you.

Write my profile for me.

Keep it to yourself for now. I have not decided on submission details.

Breakdown moment

2009-12-26T08:06:00.000-08:00

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This piece is not even my favorite.

I totally wept for a while listening to this.

The execution of the piece was so evocative and so pure, as always with the case with Gould,

yet so unfamiliar of the emotion that I was experiencing.

There was nothing I could do but to sit and wait till everything was over.

There are no artist left alive today who can play like this.

Only once before that I have experienced similar emotion.

But she was a 8 months old baby, who touched a piano for the very first time in her life.

Her mom and I watched her eyes widen in sheer bliss and joy, pressing her tiny finger into the huge

black machine in front of her in amazement.

The baby had no intention to please anyone.

Just her, and magic machine that makes beautiful sounds on her command.

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By the way, I always thought Gould was talking to Bach through his piano.

Just him, his Steinway (his chair, too-He never played without his chair)

and the composer he never met.

There were no audience, no listeners.

Perfect Score + extra credit and nightmares

2009-12-15T09:15:00.000-08:00

I just finished my performance final.

Perfect score + extra credits. (Extra credits for letting my professor choose two pieces to perform for her, instead of two of my own choices. )

I don't have to suffer weird nightmare for awhile.

Seriously, in last few nightmares:

I have been smited by Liszt in his practice room.

Some dude who was suspiciously looking like Guy Pierce professed his dark secret love for me, (Don't ask. All I could see that was painful situation for him to admit that he has thing for a man, and letting others to know.)

Or a girl I picked up at shady club where dealing illegal pharmaceuticals and prostitution, turned out to be a shemale, however Fred the person he is, not even flinching at the sight of...um(Edited for contents~) then got on to business... She was wearing turtleneck red dress, and Fred thought she looked like the actress in movie Underworld.

I never had that kind of vivid dream with all sorts of details.

I have to go to my dentist, so I can't analyze my nightmare right now. I will add if I get to it.

Additional item on my fetish

2009-12-07T20:17:00.000-08:00

There were comment posted by my reader warspite, on the entry below.

Frederic Prevost's fetish

5. messing with inane people's minds
6. telling it what it is
7. making people gnaw their legs off because they cannot get you

yes... pretty much.

The biggest mistake on the part of "inane people" in Second Life is this:

They are mistaken that they are protected by Geneva Convention while they are playing some virtual characters.

And then, they realized that there are no protocols in Geneva Convention for the humanitarian relief of fake characters... they try to blame it on Fred.

The fact: Inane or not, the logic applies to everyone. Surprise!

"Blame it on Fred!"

I have a Final exam on dictation tomorrow.

(I just came back from the Final Exam. I think I got everything correctly. Perfect score. A+. It really sucks that I got -0.5 on one of the sight reading quiz. Every other quiz, online quiz, Mid Term, were all perfect scores on this unit. Actually, I have one more performance Final on this unit on next Tuesday. I am prepared and confident about the subjects on performance, so it will not be a issue.

Although she is not my Music theory 101 professor, she also teaches the different section, therefore I asked her opinion on my first composition. She answered me a couple of minor notation questions, corrected few notations for different voicing, and gave me fictitious A+ on my composition Final Project, if I was in her section. Not only that, she suggested that I should keep this piece for the projects in advanced music theory, because some of the musical elements that I included are only covered in intermediate and advanced classes. Yay --Too bad, my professor decided not to do any composition project, citing the reason that too many of my classmates are not yet to be capable to fulfill all the requirements.

She explained some analysis on my own composition to me, and told me that I should continue relying on my ears, since I already have enough grasp of musical expressions and knowledge, vocabulary to compare to. If it makes sense, you are doing it right. Sometimes, it is just as simple. )

Spring Semester

2009-11-08T12:58:00.001-08:00

In the comment by Lord Diglett about my college classes... Yes, definitely, my college music class started really slow.

However, after all of 15 minutes of soul searching (lol) I decided to pursue degree in music. Next semester, I will be a half time student, with 4 units of theories, 1unit of performance with private piano lesson, and maybe Swimming or class voice I. 1 unit each.

As long as I keep up with those 6 units, I will be qualified for some grants, too. As you know, coffee won't be covered, but 150$ of free money? I'm not complaining.

With all these severe budget crisis, only one class is offered to almost any level and any subjects. Professors would be left no choice but to drop students who doesn't show up on classes.

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Piano Accompanist who works for the classes agree to take me as his piano student, and since he comes to school, we can do the lessons on campus, which is very convenient for me. I kinda feel bad he only charges 20$ per lesson... as you know, my coffee cost more... ... ...

******ACK, eeeee! I just saw Stravinsky's almost naked picture! He was in sagging speedo... ***

(Downside of dual monitor!)

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my kinks and fetishes...

2009-11-07T16:17:00.000-08:00

Hmmm, there are lot of hints through out my blogs, but there is no summary in here, huh...?

In short, I am not sure myself. Everyone knows I'm not vanilla, but other than that, there aren't much of particulars are there?

So I just list several that has not changed ever since I was a little kid.

1. dude with long hair. Liszt (heart eyes) to Ted Nugent... what can I say.

2. boots and gloves

3. some sort of restraints. ---The one I really like is that metal loop on the wall which could be used with anything. I wish I could install one in my room. I need some sort of bracer for the structure.

4. certain music

See?

Please add if you can think of something that I have not remembered.

Forum and what not.

2009-11-03T13:45:00.001-08:00

So I joined the message board/forum of certain book series.

The place is very well moderated, and ppl are engaging in all civil and friendly manner. Since the main subject of the discussion is almost always about the creation of the author, you would think that topics would very limited...

Wrong!

Some ppl are as you may imagine, almost function as walking encyclopedia for the whole series, not only that, those ppl has list of links of quotes by authors who posted in online book dealer's webpage.

Man, I had this burning question about one of the book from the series, and I could not deny the feeling that same notion could have felt by at least some of the readers out there. That was the main reason I joined. If I was totally satisfied with the story, I wouldn't have been.

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There are individual board on each books, and boy, "I didn't like the book, although the main character is my favorite one from the series" comments are in sticky... LOL

Anyways, I will not reveal the series name here. That is my guilty pleasure for now.

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Second Life? ...... i do not have any motivation to log in at this very minute.

I tried to construct web profile for second life, but it is turning out to be a more than a challenge. I just don't have enough concentration on learning yet another format of blog/website (using wordpress this time) . Oh no, I'm not making this new one my blog. This one will stay here as it is.

The purpose is to paste the link to my profile *web* tab. Well, I could have used SL profile. com, but yea................. i dont remember the login and whatever...

Jagerkinz kindly provided me with his server space, so I would think its anything goes, compared to those of PG/explicit content warning rating crap on other servers. Am I right, Jager? Otherwise, he won't be sending me hardcore graphic background for my use...

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Rant of the day, #1

Jager and I are not lovers.

Anyone who feels jealousy towards us, are idiots.

I need to get that out of the system, once and for all.

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Rant of the day, #2

Jager is a big boy. He can take care of himself, meaning he doesn't need anyone coddling him or defending him form whatever the indiscretion I supposed to be committed on him. That is none of your business, quite honestly put. Leave the man's yard to himself.

There is nothing wrong with him, and he doesn't need any fixing. AT ALL.

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I love college Music theory class. I'm kinda becoming the Diva of the class, but that is just my character. Now at least 1/4 of the class prefer to sit around me for convenience of getting a quick question answered or purely the pleasure of my company. (truly) Of course, there are ppl never sits around me and probably annoyed that I always be able to answer the difficult questions, but that is their problem. (as always)

As a matter of fact, I am always willing to answer or discuss the related matters regardless of who they are.

However, there is also my favorite whipping boy, too. LOL

He is a cute mexican kid (well, so as the most of them are.) but he has this charming, outgoing personality with lots of faults. So, he always taking my blow in the class projects.

We also have 14 year old boy who are home schooled. He lives in my neighborhood. I think I visited his mom like 6 years ago, because I heard whole bunch of violins practicing.

There is an old Mexican mariachi musician in out class as well. He is always performing, I take it that was his life work. Mariachi is a very difficult style to master, as the most of the folk arts usually are. I have a respect for him, for taking college class, although he probably doesn't require any of those at all. (Mariachi is usually passed down from master musicians to apprentices, parents to children. )

I also have respect for remaining classmates. For the most part, these are pretty new to them, and keeping up with the contents takes a lot of studying, since music theory has nothing to do with any of out daily life, so to speak.

Loving both of my professors.

They are true musicians. They give me slack when I need. Well, not that i need a lot, but they understand when I make silly mistakes, are not that I'm not studying the contents, and it is just that. They also gives me a recognition that I am actually a good student, and understand I secretly studies at home. (>.> *darted eyes)

They also patiently explain to me when I ask oddball questions. (remember, I have been a musician for a long time, so I have very practical questions that are not addressed in the book.)

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I gained a lot of weight during the last several months. I had been my heaviest. But since my sleeping pattern is disrupted, i'm losing some again. Its not physical activity that lose me my weight. Always my sleep patterns.

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I HEART Banana Republic's Luxe card.

They give me free hemming on pants.

DO you know how much I have to spend on hemming in my whole life? This is a life saver. I should always thought my height should qualify for tax break or disability, since I need alteration of almost anything. At least one clothing label recognize some useful benefit. Forget stupid points. All for free hemming service.

Entry from my laptop

2009-10-24T00:05:00.000-07:00

Wow, i have been away for a long time. No, that is not accurate. I just didn't have nothing to post here. And this blog on PC laptop looks totally different than in my mac. Maybe I have to adjust some graphics here.

As I mentioned in my previous entry, I started a couple of college classes. Every day of the week, on 8 am, and I usually get there about 20 minutes before the class starts.

Music Theory class is not that hard, but turns out to be quite informational. It isn't quite Perfect A+, but I am able to maintain A's so far. Every now and then, I encounter something I have not seen before in my performance practice, and I thought I have very broad experience even as a musician. (Piano, violin, voice, choir, vocal ensemble, some orchestra, brass band, limited string chamber ensemble and various popular music group format.) without seeing actual scores, those theory is hard to comprehend with one liner explanation of one textbook. Maybe because there are so many ways to explain these things, I suppose. Professor also repeats that, we should put into practice, and that is the only way we learn these theory. I quite agree with that assessment.

Sight Singing 111, i was taking it only because it was co-requisite. just finished mid term. Perfect A+ so far. I think I will take next level of classes with this professor.

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LL being an idiot.
Stupid localization team announced Japanese portal, when they don't have Japanese speaking reps on toll free number. I am very understanding when it come to mixed culture, but I also have my limits on stupidity as you well all know.

Would you even consider calling 1-800 customer service number when you know they will be answered in some foreign language you don't understand, say, Dutch or Icelandic? No fucking way. But that is basically what they announced.
I called them out in both Japanese and in English in official blog. None of the LL employee responded.

On another LL blunder.
I just age verify myself with Elvis's name. Thank you, thank you very much!
Some reason, they do not reject dead people. They only match the input data with public record. Therefore, as long as the data you provide exists somewhere, regardless of that person is you or not, they will give you verification. LMAO

There is a group of ppl pointed out this loophole when the adult rating controversy started. LL's own fault, really. Their ignorance on ppl's suggestions and input, is always apparent.

Can they use this blog as an admission of my guilt? No. lol Because they have no evidence of me falsify my identity. Therefore they cannot prove it. Remember, they are the one who has burden of proof. And I may have used my real life info. Either way, they insists that they don't receive any of the private info, therefore they cannot match my account, may it be true or untrue.

There are many Elvis running around in adult sims!

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On the subject of idiot.
We should nominate Amiryu Hosoi into SL idiot Hall of shame.

She, either seriously think Shunga(19th century Japanese pornographic wood prints. Even with disclaimer I should not put that sample in here. Since my blog is not about erotic art. But if any of you want to know what I'm talking about, just google the term Shunga will give you more than enough examples.) is an art ... or anything old is an art, or anything should be permissive in PG sim, because it is 150 years old, even if it is a blatant display of copulating couple. ... ...

Bringing up once in Forum, is quite enough. Three times nearly after 4 months? I think she should get over her obsession on Japanese porn.

Decided to get rid of my sim

2009-08-05T08:57:00.000-07:00

Let's just put this one first.
I am not having any difficulty financially. That is NOT the reason for selling my sim.

Lately, I am sick and tired of SL in general, and SL has been nothing more than a drag to me. I have always said that SL is a place I can fail and no consequences whatsoever. And this is the time.

Actually I have considered to rent the land as many people in SL do. However, the new announcement by LL about content roadmap just made me think that I can't endure any more fiasco created by the lack of planning and objectives by LL.

In short, I'm not trusting LL enough to give them 300$ of free money for no reason.

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In a few short weeks, I'm starting college classes (music. YAY! Easy A's) and I'd rather spend 300$ for my books and snacks. Even for me, 300$ for sim so I can just idle and AFK while practice my piano, doesnt worth the money.

If anyone thinks having a SL sim is some sort of status symbol like driving a luxury car, the person probably need to develop a good self esteem. As I said before, either of them means nothing to me. I used to see some value in SL, now I no longer see the same value. Simple as that.

It's kind of amusing to hear someone feel bad about me letting my sim go. They lament the work I put in, or the memory of good times they had on my sim. Sure. That was nice. But that is just them.

I pay 300$ for SL if i enjoy whatever it offers. Since it is no longer the case, I stop paying them.

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Anyways, this is your last chance to stop by and take a pic. :D

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And no, I'm not leaving SL.

Conflicts?

2009-07-24T07:43:00.000-07:00

Warning: This is somewhat macabre post. Don't read, if you feel these kind of contents are negative.

Some people here who knows me to a certain extent already, can tell that I have a good life, fabulous living environment with enough material comforts. My immediate family members are perfectly healthy and happy.
My children are very happy, and we have great relationship. 17 year old is very mature and responsible, very intelligent, even as a young adult. His school work is meticulous, his academic achievement start to show his true talents in all areas. The important of them all is that he start to recognize his own potential (took some time to make him understand how exceptionally intelligent and capable he is; was the almost the hardest. ) I braced myself for tumultuous teenage years, but he skipped stupid and awkward antics and straight into maturity of 27 year old. I really can't find anything to be desired at this point.

9 year-old. He is the happiest child in the world. What can I say. He may not have academic achievement of his brother, but he has great, resilient character to offer. His mental strength in certain area can help his older brother in the future.
They are years apart, but also have great bond in between them and understand that, in years to come, they have each other.

Any parent would love to have such family in a heartbeat.That is what anyone wants and anyone would be working hard to achieve where I am at.

I am contributing to the community, I have a lot of good hobbies that are meaningful. I have a happy, good life, and I am a very happy person.
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Yet, there is this nagging feeling of boredom and apathy.
In a way, I need constant challenge in my life, and I suppose I overcame all the challenges of the early human life in general such as raising a healthy family or establish oneself.

Mid Life Crisis? Certainly.
I bought 60,000 $ Steinway several years ago. That is about the same sticker price of Corvette or Hummer, isn't it? (And my piano still values about the same if not more. I doubt that 5 year old Corvette has same value.)
I can play some of the great piano literature from memory, on demand, and I can impress any musician, without using any excuse such as " I only learned when I was a kid."

Yet, all those achievement seems irrelevant and trivial. I don't feel like cheering myself for having a good life. "yay me!"... seems stupid. And I loathes everyone becoming Oprah's "Yay me! I overcame my drug abuse/ obesity/ poverty/ abusive relationship/ whatever you think you don't want in your life etc etc etc.. "
I wasn't stupid so I never be in that situation in the first place.
I always know when I was a kid, that I don't get those awards, because I was already above the level of *achievement awards* that some of the kids get. "Yay, you are able to count to 20!" awards? And I never resented the fact that I was always smarter than other kids, which means i hardly ever get praise, nor teachers ever let me answer the question, when I raise my hands.
Many teachers asked questions deliberately that the most kids doesn't know, so they can sustain the classroom for some attention, yet, they refuse to let me answer, because they knew I know the correct answer of Shakespeare's "Hamlet" quote or who wrote "Beneath the wheel" or "Brothers of Karamazov" in 5th grade class.

so yea, to me, achievement is not a big deal.
I didn't even think those i described above was an achievement till recently. I thought that is no brainer, common sense stuff everyone has to do.

Having a right path is not an achievement for me. It is expected and quite compulsory.

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We sometimes see the news of a suicide by a person with full of talents and great life. And as anyone else, I always wondered what went *wrong* with that person's life.

But recently, it occurred to me that maybe there was nothing *wrong* with his/her life. All of a sudden, it came to me that you can just end your life in absolute certainty that you have absolutely perfect life.

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The society we live might think that it is a conflicted view. But I don't think so. Those views are based on the notion that death is a bad thing.

Think for a second.
Death is bad for the people who are left. It is a very selfish sentiment by the family or friends.
The who is dead is dead, and could careless what happens after. Or, rather, one can't do anything about it.

I always thought vaguely that I really don't want anyone to throw any typical funeral for me. It is stupid. Several grand for dead me? They should just discard my carrion somewhere and go to vacation or have a nice dinner.
Now, I'm sure of the reason why. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for themselves by the passing of myself. lol

It is NOT true, "death = negative, bad thing."

PPl who feel threatened by my presence... lol

2009-06-12T10:20:00.000-07:00

In SL, I am not an obnoxious ass that giving grief to others. I am respectful, and I don't play games nor go into drama shit.
No gadgets and weapons I can use effectively in SL. I don't know how to hack other people's account, nor I don't know how to cyber stalk anyone. I'm not that geeky.

For that matter, I am not a threatening presence to anyone in SL.

Yet, there are a couple of grown man who feels threatened by my presence in their own place for whatever the reason/issues they think they have with me. In reality, I don't know either of them, and I don't talk to them either.

So, why do they asking me why I'm where I want to be, or they feel obliged to tell me to confirm what I write in this blog is truth or not?
And the ultimate amusement of the thing? They don't have a balls to come to my face and tell me what the FUCK is their problem. (One, seems to think that I am writing about him, in the article below. LOL THanks for confirmation. Sometimes, silence is golden. ) The other, apparently sent IM to mutual friend and hinted that I leave. LMAO

Why the fuck are you so afraid of ME?

Look, the fact, that just I'm not as egoistic as you nor having *I'm the king complex* like you that everyone has to like you, doesn't mean I am not reasonable nor I am going apeshit throwing drama around like you do. (No drama policy wearing thin, since you are always surrounded by fucking drama of the worst kind in SL... )

I never spilled shit inside SL, never griefed anyone, never attached anyone. So, I just dumbstrucked by the fear/negative energy I sense from you. (Yea, it sucks to be empath, but I get over it quickly.)

If you have issues with me(from fucking two years ago that you should well have been to be gotten over with.. but) say so, and I can discuss that. If you wanted me to leave for whatever the reason, all you have to do is ask. LOL It is YOUR place, and you can have your own kindom. Just as well I have my own and I have the control in mine. I was there by invitation of my friends and I wasn't bothering no one, i was minding my own shit. IF you don't like DRAMA but you seem to forget a lot that what you do is ACTUALLY the very drama you say you hate? When the man become hipocrytic or repeatedly inconsistant, the weight of his words becomes less meaningful.

Just don't send some 21 year old girl as a messenger, like some immature 14year old girls in highschool cliquey cheerleader shit, to tell me to leave.

Of course, whatever the drama you have in mind, you can keep that yourself and stay the hell out of my way. Because in honesty, I have no clue what the issue here. Either way, I'm parepared to deal with you.

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And for others who seems to be unable to read the warning and public disclaimer of this blog, and addition to that, forgetting to understand that my BLOG is out side SL, and I have constitutional right to express my opinions in here...
You *chose* to come here and read my blog. LEAVE, if you don't like what you see.
Simple as that. Squeaking about what I write in here? lol high school cheer leader shit. GO to your own clique and talk amongst yourselves. LOL

What I write here, NO ONE have any control nor say in this.

This is MY blog, and I have my RIGHTS to do so, as much as you have the same rights.

IF you are mature, grown man, you should know that you can't tell me what to do in my own domain, You are not my father. LMAO For that matter, my own 82 year old Faustian father don't even tell me what to do in my domain.

You have no fucking power over me.

Here is an idea.

Set up your own blog, and get over it.
This is not your clique bulletin board where everyone love one another.

Get
Over
IT

Here's a recap of some of the drama I was talking about

letter

2009-06-04T21:08:00.000-07:00

How do people writes the condemning letter thinly disguised as an apology, and what they really mean...

This note card is being sent to all the Royals in regards to my stupid and unwarranted behaviuor that occured in August 2008.
I apologise for Ravenheart Armistice's behaviour and whatever part I may have partaken in it.

First paragraph after the opening.
Interesting. Meaghan apologize for Ravenheart, but not her own mistakes and indiscretions. "Whatever part I may have partaken" insinuates that, in her own mind, she does not recognize anything wrong in *HER own behavior* nor no recollection of *offense* that brought her ban. If her *sincere apology* starts with blaming someone for her own mistake, watch what follows...

He ended up ripping me off for the tune of $500 USD. So I have learnt my lesson the hard way. I also lost my fulltime job in real life as a result of the split. He never tried to repay me.

Here we go. *Pity me* paragraph.
"He ripped me 500$", but who gave him that money? Oh yes, She did. And what? How the hell she lose her RL job, because of a split from SL pixel? Possible answer? She is fucking mental, nutjob, who cannot seprate fantasy from reality. When gift was made, the recipient usually does not have any obligation to repay. It is a matter of contract. If she is thinking that giving him 500$ get her some good fuck, she should have written up a contract to hire this manwhore who lives half way across the world. I would think that 500$ does not cover the travel expense that the gigolo have to pay from his own pocket from US to Australia. I certainly would not be hired by such cheap-ass woman for just 500$.
Oh i digress. Those, just my irrelevant thoughts. My point here? What is got to do with her apology? NOTHING. Not a FUCKING thing. This is a paragraph to solicit sympathy, so she can obtain the pardon without making any consession herself.

I took my alt Carolyn Paule there because she was partnered at the time to Rune Galicia and we had a business partnership together which fell apart when he unpartnered Meaghan on the grounds he had grown bored with me. I apologise for taking her there to dance with his alt. Again I have no excuses.

Well, Transylvania people knew her alt and Ravenheart's Alt (Rune Galicia) the next day, those two were created and partnered. I have a blog entry back in July 8th '08. about alt attempting to recreate a new character only to fail in a moment it was created because of the lack of creativity, and I ended my blog entry with one prediction ;
"But it would be something to amuse about for another 2 months or so? As far as I know, those ppl are on 2 months cycle. New alts, join the new place, had a drama or two and be banned.
I swear it only takes about 2months, 3, tops.
Mark my words on it.-July 08 my blog"
Instead of going to new places, they just went back to old place, and got banned. LOL
Another interesting fact is that Ravenheart listed his gazillion alt names but Rune Galicia's name in his profile, mostly to suggest that my empathic findings are false, that he has not hide in such alt account and anyone (me) can find him in one of those alts but not Rune Galicia. (lol) At that entry appeared in his profile, probably all the officers of Transylvania already knew that was him, along with Meaghan Winthorpe's yet another alt Carolyn Paule.
She has no excuse, because she deliberately, knowingly entered Transylvania with her alt, even she knew well they do not tolerate alt.
Yet again, pity me phrase appears here. "He unpartnered Meaghan ---grown bored with me." WHO THE FUCK CARES? lol

I tried to stop him from selling his Lycan vial's on Xstreet, but he ignored me. He also refused to accept the fact he was jeopardising my position in the family. I apologise for not stopping him, there are no excuses.

Lip service.
That is not the reason she was banned. Let's just be clear. If she thinks she has influence on anyone, she is gravely mistaken. This paragraph should be read as follows. "Since I have no authority over any adult, lets just take the blame for everything and earn more points. There is nothing to lose by saying this. "

My own bloodline and one blood vials are not transferable. Even if they were, I would have destroyed them not sold them. I kept them as Obscuro was my friend prior to SL.

Again,Irrelevant. This does not earn her points because she didn't sell the prim junk.But She did not lose the opportunity to name *name*. IF she knew him that long and did not understand what is going on in this place, it is just shows her selfish point of views and her inability to grasp the concept of this place in general.

My own actions in creating a group to snub the Royals at the time, was done in anger and it was the only way I could deal with the fact I had been kicked out of the family.

I apologise personally to the Royals, Willow and Annie in particular for saying what I had said in my group charter again it was out done out of anger and was extremely childish of a grown woman to act that way.

I spend a lot more time in World of Warcraft and should I ever feel like venting I shall go there and kill things.

Boring excuses. Childish. Immature.
Remember who is writing this. This is not a teenager who are pretending to be vampire. This is a grown woman of over 50 years of age. She could have blamed her stupidity on her menopausal hormornal frenzy, tho... lol It could have been a lot better, I would think... but thats just me.

All I am asking at this stage is for me to be allowed back into Transylvania. I would be quite happy with a probationary period and should I do anything that is disrespectful to anyone, you can boot me and ban me for life. I will never ever bring an alt into Transylvania of any kind. I have not taken any alts into Transylvania since August 2008.

dun dun dun. I hope she is reading this.
I am back into Transylvania since last Friday. I kinda doubt that she wants to be back in Trans if she find me there, AGAIN, and NOT disrespectful. LOL but yea. It is just too funny of a coincidence to be this timing.

So I ask for the forgiveness of the Royals and the Transylvanians, and ask for your mercy as I know that the Royals have been gracious and forgiving before, and have let others that may have done worse than I might have done, back into Transylvania, and even the Family.(IS she serious? "~let others that may have done worse~"?) I would like just to come back to Transylvania as I have always loved it there, and I miss it terribly. I hope that all of you can truly understand what it would be like if any of you suddenly had this part of SL taken from you. I humbly request your forgiveness, and ask to be allowed to come back. If I am allowed to return, I will never disrespect the Royals or anyone in Transylvania again.

Respectfully yours,

Meaghan Winthorpe

Yeah, yeah, yeah... lol

This, was passed to the officers of Trans last week, but there is another underlining current that this letter does not suggest at all.

Transylvania is known as the oldest Vamp/goth community in SL, but lesser known fact is that some of the older members came from other online community. That is the reason why Meaghan deliberately mention obscuro's name in the above paragraph to remind all those officers that she is known the owner of this sim longer than the most.
Another drama/tabloid point is that, now, Meaghan lists her umpteeth SL boyfriend in her profile, and it is not widelyknow fact , the person is one of the oldest member of Transylvania who is just separated from his wife(I heard they are in the process of divorce in RL. According to the rumor, his wife committed adultery-!- with one of the Vamp from Trans in RL... LOL talk about drama. My rl is not that interesting. ... ... )
Ok, so what right? lol
Well, it seems that this dude offered to pay for the whole tier peyment for this month in exchange of *pardon* of her status.
I can easily imagine that Meaghan offered 300$ US to buy her status in Transylvania, because, read the top paragraph about 500$ Ravenheart ripping her off.
Raven probably did not rip her off, not in the sense that con her out, but I can make an intelligent guess that she sent him money to reconsider their *partnership* or asked him to visit her in Australia. The 500$ was to fund his trip. (Impossible, since Raven lives with his mother. LOL Yes. )
Why do I know this?
She did the same thing to me. The only reason she is not accusing me of ripping her off is that I returned her money. I think she tried to buy my friendship for about 200$. (meh, i'm that cheap? LOL)

Anyways, the apology letter arrived just after the Trans officer was asked to consider this *option* with benefit, so to speak.
Talk about pathetic.

You know what I suggested? Just accept her *donation* and keep her banned. LOL

I suppose this letter was laughed at, and circulated. Because I (remember, I 'm the bad guy in trans.) even had a hands on this notecard? which meant that this was a fair game for my blog.

Toyota of North America is owned by GM??!!!!!!LOLWUT

2009-06-01T13:41:00.000-07:00

I was ignoring the seemingly pointless thread about GM's financial difficulty byHunter Linden because it has been an old news, and it is like discussing why the stupid people are stupid... But then again, I saw this post this morning and just couldn't stay out of it.

You can scroll back a page and read the comment by Nyala blaisdale... Ho my gawd...

"While I agree with you about the unions, the thing that you may not realize is that toyota is majority owned by, and operated by guess who? GM... to the point that the Toyota Camry is actually no more than a Chevy Impala (or is it the Malibu) with slightly different sheet metal, yet costs MORE, and is made in America by non union labor... THAT is the reason Toyota is profitable while GM goes bankrupt..."
~~~Nyala Blaisdale

Um... Toyota of North America is 100% subsidiary of Toyota Motor Co.

Camry is not sharing any platform with GM vehicles at this time.

***
I explain this about three times after I saw this, and the woman still insists that Toyota of North America is 51 % owned by GM. "Ridicule and joke all you want, the fact remains... " NO no No NO NO!

The decline of US auto industry is parallel to the phenomenon of degradation of the intelligence of the educated (err... lolwut?) average Americans.

I think I wrote something about Americans totally ignorant of who is the Japanese manufacturer back in 80s trade *cold war*... that many so called self proclaimed economic patriots didn't even know Sony was Japanese Company, while they cheerfully burn the Japanese products, their prized possession being a new aqcuisition of fabulous 30inch Sony TV.
"Errr... Mike... You don't like Japanese products, right? That means if you can buy the same item from American company , you will not buy anything from Japanese Company right?"
"Hell yea. What?"
"Um. Sony... That's a Japanese Company. Morita-san runs it. (yea this was back in late 80s. ) "
"NO fucking WAY!"
"WAY, dude! So can I have it? "

Yea this is a real episode.
***

I didn't imagine back then, some 20 years later, I still have this conversation with some dumb, ignorant American. I always laugh at this sort of stuff. It is just... lol comical. It's not racial, its not bias, its just fucking comical dumb shit.

GM owns the half of Toyota North America's shares... lol IF that was true, do you think they are in this deep shit?
I don't think so.

Oh Hunter Linden in my follower's box... lol

2009-05-30T14:30:00.000-07:00

Um, you could just use your *bookmark function* to follow my blog, just as suella or beagles do. LOL

And another new anon person . :D

Both welcome to my boring blog.

******
I can say one thing about Hunter Linden, tho.

He reminds me of some dudes in highschool that who never dates with the girls but strangely very comfortable hanging out with girl's clique, talking about fashions and stupid jokes that only the pubescent girls perceive them to be funny.
They are usually very geeky and that ability also apparent when they have no problem learning the latest fashion and variations of cheap fashion brands all those teenagers patronized...

What I don't understand is tho...

How can some grown man laugh repeatedly and think it is just a lighthearted comments about the same old fucking joke about cheese and knickers thrown into it... for the ... get this, folks, not once, not twice, not even three times... but like gazillion, bazillionth of time.

Can anyone explain that to me?

This week's stupid thread.

2009-05-28T14:43:00.000-07:00

Amiryu's border line libelous cloner thread.

LOLOLOL

Her *stupid question of the week*.

The woman who claims to own the design firm in RL, and also established herself as somewhat successful owner of store in SL.
She can't seem to understand nor had ever read the LL's TOS by herself? Unlikely.

The funny part of this question is this:
1.Amiryu bringing up some old news in SL, asking the moral center of the product she didn't seem to know what it is.
2.Amiryu carefully avoids the word to be perceived as *libel* but then again, since she didn't seem to contact the creator herself to understand what the product is, it is a libelous entry in context.
3.Bringing up the words such as TOS, but then again, from her entry, no one can tell which part of TOS she said the product is violating. Person who claim to own a company do not do these type of *baseless accusation in public* , UNLESS, her stupidity serves her right. And in this case, and in Forum, as always, it does.
4.Without me, pointing her *petty scheme to put her name/banner in the forum*, the most of the comments pretty much dismissing her *self righteous question*.

Cara Ametza-It's possible to screw up like that. Either SL has a glitch and messes up, or you screw it up yourself. Things like this can happen, and responsible usage of these tools is not against the TOS. Your a bit late to gripe about it, this was hashed out weeks ago.

Ginger Glimmer-If you want to report something, report it. Be done with it. We've had this discussion about this product at least once already. Another occasion where sales went very high thanks to the added exposure here.
Can we please stop picking apart other merchant's products?

Ann Otoole-If you wish to address the issue of ethics within Linden Research Inc. in respect to content theft then the best place is on a blog Google can index and no censor can remove it.

Rene Marsaille(Creator of the products)-Amiryu, I would have told you if you asked me

Cito Karu-oh lord not again.. people whines about this product for like 30 pages not too long ago but in the end it did not violate any rules.
so here we go again
I wrote my own version since it's simple script that get's the prims parameters then rez's a new prim and makes it have same parameters.
it's nothing new and it's great I use the one I wrote to instantly mirror tortured torus's and stuff to save time.

LOL
Amiryu probably has thicker skin and bigger ego than I do. She thinks ppl in the forum are stupid dumb asses. That is the part that amuses me more than gazzilion other stupid forum threads that serves no purpose.

She doesn't care, her contents had any logic nor purpose, nor even tinge of wisdom. Put her name up there, accomplish that, making her self look stupid, or not, is not a question. In that sense, her goal oriented focus is way exceeding the ones of Suella Ember or Beagles.
Let's just say, repeating cheese is like a preschool kids who can't stop bringing in the blankie or her favorite plulshies still, at the end of the school year.
(*pets Suella's head) On the other hand, Amiryu offends everyone in Forum, even the silent readers. By not saying "You are all stupid dumbass who will comment in my thread to keep it bumped till next week."

LOL

Frederic, You have gotten crude lately...

2009-05-28T08:26:00.001-07:00

"Frederic, you have gotten crude..."

"Have I ...?
~Frederic rubs his chin with black tinted slender fingers, his lips curved in faint but cruel smile.
... must be the crowd I'm mixing lately. I may be crude, but I'm not a coward like of those who paste my picture in their password protected forum, talking amongst themselves *AWAY* from me.

Like I said before, sarcasms and insults are art. You only achieve something when your enemy who you hate is truly dented his/her ego by your clever insults. Sarcasm and insults goes two ways,too. The one on the receiving end has to be equally intelligent to understand the depth of the insults as well. If the insults goes off and brushed off as *no value* *Oh are you done? I'm bored*, it is a clear indication of their lack of comprehension. If their insults do not go farther than the scope of picking on their grammer or semantics, it is equivalent of their inability to match your skills. There is no further discussion required.
Had they ever achieved any of that? "

"They are just afraid of you."

"And is that supposed to be my problem? And of those who lament that they had not made a *hit list* yet. Well, Either they have to be very stupid and single minded or very smart to make the list. I loathe mediocrity. I probably don't even remember who they are, it is unlikely that they would ever make it in my list. And repeating the certain dairy products day in and day out, those ppl should be banned, as well. At this point it is not even funny nor entertaining. Perpetuating the same jokes usually are the sign of weakness between their ears, wouldn't you agree? I could make other people's life much easier, if I was to be really vicious as can be, but hey, I am just a selfish elf. Who am I to worry about those good people , yes?"

Frederic and his gentleman friend laughed as they swirling their brandy in their stuffed chair...

Another classical concert preview...

2009-05-15T15:29:00.000-07:00

(Note: I have to cancel the invitation, since we (me and my charges) are all plagued with persistent cough for weeks now... I am so bummed that the fact this might be the last opportunity to see her as a top performing artist. Oh well. )

I get to go to certain American soprano diva's concert tomorrow.

This singer, I had purchased her CD's in the past, so I have been quite curious to see the actual performance of hers. Her career as a diva opera singer was mostly behind when I moved here in US, and at that time, I couldn't afford to travel and chase her performance career.

According to the symphony musician who will perform with her, she has been very difficult to deal with, musically, as a musician and as a person. LOL (yea, that is always the case with diva.) I was already warned that, since she didn't really participate fully in the rehearsal session, can't guarantee the performance quality...

I suppose the mostly oblivious audience will be happy to see some well known performer, but the juicy story like this, is much more interesting. It sucks, that the artist starts to act out some cliche, by doing that diminishing the respect from fellow musicians. They may not have to earn the respect from *uneducated audience* but certainly, the respect from musicians who perform with them, count as something...

Just a thought.

The lesson stupid ppl may never be able to learn... #1

2009-05-14T07:33:00.000-07:00

(OK the entry ended up nothing to do with original title so I fixed the title.)

As much as I tell it like it is, I never intent any of my entry as hate speech. If you read my entry of any kind, I never pass judgment on person themselves, mainly because I don't care, and I don't know the person enough to form any sort of opinion about them.

That has been said:

In general Forum for Xstreet (public forum), there are variety of characters who just cannot project themselves as they probably intended.

The reason for failure, mostly for
their lack of consistency (You should have learned this vocabulary by now.),
lack of control for their own emotional reaction,
lack of backbone(balls, if you may),
lack of ability to comprehend other ppl's entry,
lack of conviction when they try to deliver/articulate/execute their points IF they have one etc etc...

In short, they are just weak minded ppl, who tend to go *lynch mob mentality* whenever they see fit. Their mass psyche of sheepish followers are just too predictable to be amusing all the time, since they do not have wicked intention as some of us do. *wink, wink*
So they are just pretend to be upstanding, righteous citizen of the forum, when they are alone, and just switch to ugly troll when in numbers. WHICH, gives me the conclusion that they are fake and superficial, lacking their own conviction, and inconsistent.
Their inconsistency is apparent from thread to thread, often, only few seconds apart. That, is almost comical, since those ppl like Sleven whoever, posts righteous comment on one moment, then at the same time, go to next thread, and making the opposite comment of trolling. He also knowingly particiate in deliberate trolling, yet have audacity to call some elf(!) being a troll. LOL omg. wha?

However, there are always some exceptions to the rules... in this case, there are ppl who are deliberately being one of the dumb ass in Forum on purpose, by design, with intent on self serving objectives to achieve.
Oh, I'm not talking about drama whores and some emotional posts.

I'm talking about character such as Amiryu Hosoi, who repeatedly manipulates her posts disguising into seemingly innocent(and really dumb, but it wont look significant in forum because there are so many retarded threads anyways) questions, so just be able to put her name on the thread originator, and with it her banner on every entry she *kindly* take her time to responds to the *contributions* of *innocent-I mean in a bad way* forum readers.

Those sheepish brainless forum readers are always stupid enough to buy into her scheme every fucking single time.
So, Amiryu now posts about twice a day.

Her thread title are usually one word, to peek interests. -Her trick #1.
Her questions, so retarded, no one seems to put any opinions of their own -Her trick #2
Her answers, already prepared when she posts question, are posted some 43 minutes later from the original entry.With it, she earns her own star sticker. LOL -Her trick #3

Couple of threads by Amiryu last few days

"Salary"
Regarding some ads that business who pays 250L for 15 hours a week employment.
She pretends to be disgusted. LOL I bet that is her own ad for her sweat shop labor.
SL's emplyment always have been cents to the dollar. She knew this all too well(that is why she is in here.) yet this retarded question at this time of SL...

"Linden Trees" (or trees whatever.)
"Linden trees doesn sway on release candidate viewer. But I like my trees swaying when i'm walking thru a beautiful sim(of mine, which there are NO linden trees)"
Boohoo.
less than 50minutes later(lol) she posts how to trigger flexi on debug menu. ... Right She had that blog entry BEFORE she posted retarded *I want to enjoy "MY" beautiful second life as it was* thread. I'm not THAT narcissistic. Please.

"9465"
"6534 Is this forum record?"
LMAO both just too retarded.
The number of concurrent login for Forum. Mind you, Xstreet Forum.
Who the FUCK cares.
etc etc

Since I already pointed out a couple of times in her own thread, and she didnt even defend herself, I take it was true. lol
All she could say to me each time was: "You are gay!" insults and "Look at my blond japanese av and smile, it will take my dark clouds away!" --phailed sarcasm? ... She needs to bring her game up, if she wants to insult me.

Oh that will take me to next, much more deeper subjects.

Insults.
Please, just, ppl. Learn the art of insults. Just. Please.
I read Forum not because it is important, but because it is like TV, and sometimes, you need to watch Jerry Springer between CM time on CNN ,Fox and ESPN.

Now, you watch ESPN because professional sports are good. They beat each other up, but they do it with skills, right?

So, why do I have to suffer reading these elementary school playground insults like "your mama has outie." "you gay!"... ... ... ...

And what the fuck is wrong with all those ppl, who can't take the opposing opinions as it is. Always OFFENDED easily by just about anything. This, i know there are some silent forum reader already blogged about the subject. But I have to repeat that here, as well, since this is one of the main Forum characteristics in general.

They always have to be warm and fuzzy with everyone in their OWN clique, and anyone who is not in it, are trolled or derailed or flamed whatever the moods suit them.
And then theres ppl who are so senthitive about everything.
They would be appalled at the slight impression of sarcasm or insults for their sheep brains. Then all of a sudden they turn into trolls themselves, because they can't controll their emotional dent.

*Learn the art of insults (recommended)
*develop some thick skin, if you don' t want to be looking like some 14 year old Emo girl.
*Controll your emotions, when you engage in debate.

It just deeply amuses me when ppl make false assumption that I am trying to earn their respect or I would be insulted by barnyard mudslinging of the least sophisticated level... They make false assumption that insults by them would dent my pride because I could not earn their validation... lolwut?

Let this be known now:

I am not trying to earn their respects nor validations, therefore, also, their playground insults does nothing to my pride in a least bit.Just because they are easily offended about stupid stuff, that doesn't mean I would be.

Watch and Learn, every now and then. lol

Yet another shamless plug...

2009-05-01T17:27:00.000-07:00

Check this idiot out.

I am not sure if I could be THIS narcissistic and self centered.

We have seen so many forms of self plug and thread for attentions, but along with Amir Hosooi's self advertisement, this got to be the most shameless personal attention seeking thread I have ever seen. Forget all those "I have terminal illness" shit.

Forum poll is one of the stupid thing you can do, and you paste your own picture, and asking the public if you are datable... pity. He has condom on his lighted keyboard, but I totally bet on the fact that the batteries sold separately.

Shameless and Stupid Self Plug on Forum

2009-04-30T17:51:00.000-07:00

I think that in ANY sort of public forum either prohibits this by clear forum rules or enforced deletion of the posts.

However, when the poster gets cocky and start their self advertisement thinly disguised as a legitimate Forum Topic, only gives me the reason to pound on that poster. Lemme tell you.

Apparently, some Forum readers were amused to read all my bantering.

Observant blogger. But just don't announce that I was speaking up for all the Forum readers... Come on. Moi? No way. lol
This would totally affect my reps, seriously, Jager.

I really wonder who this Ami Ho sooi, tho. Her products are just recreation of RL objects which I totally doubt that she created. (LOL they are Japanese crafts and traditional objects. )

Totally stealing the design of others/real life creators. It may or may not be punishable by law, but yea.

She trying to insult me by asking me if I have created anything to look at... LMAO Girl, she should remember that I am 100% Japanese who can trace up to 7 generations in Traditional Japanese families of which, some of the branches are Bushi(Samurai) Caste. My mother was accomplished craftswoman of traditional kimono fabric dye technique and some traditional weaving. My mother and my step grandmother were both Certified Mistress of Tea celemony, my home in Japan has traditional tea rooms, and I am well versed in knowledge of Japanese arts, crafts, culture and architectures.
Yes, things Ami makes and sells in SL. (Now... I am really not sure she is the one really makes those stuff. To me, the vast output of her products are too industrial to be made by just one person... I am suspecting that there are whole bunch of slave designers and virtual creators in her windmill warehouse in holland ... LOL yea My imagination. )
Does she really want all out war with me?
I think not. I don't think she is paid enough. LOL

You think you can sell your sim for over 10K US$?

2009-04-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

LMAO

I was browsing thru SL related business websites. There are many businesses that open inside SL as Solution Provider or Community Gateways.

Either of them, in short, advertise themselves as such and basically solicit business. Community gateways also provide individual new residents a broad choices of where to start, in addition to LL welcome/help island.
Anyways, I was looking at one of those websites and one of them tells us that their business offers services for "Appraisal" of their sim's worth.

And the example shows us that it will be up to 10,000$

***********
How ever you look at it, I just can't think of any *sim* that worth that amount in SL right now. I am not talking about selling a turn-key established business. I'm talking about *private Estate*.

If anyone who has been in SL, that sort of amount is like joke that no one believes, nor taken seriously. If anyone wants to get in SL as business, and believing they can sell their sims after they *developed* a sim for that price... they are dumbasses that who can't even sell lemonade in front of their houses.

LOL

It's not like real life land development, which can add almost any amount of value by landscaping, building a house, whatever... SL sim has nothing to do with *developing a sim*. Any owner who buys sim WILL develop in their own specification, therefore what you hav e *developed* has little or no meaning to the new owners.
(Very few exception in the past. )

Why do they have to mislead potential new client?
They may think that buying a sim for 1500$ would be a bargain, while the market probably let you buy any sim for around 350-600$.
If the purchaser is lead to believe that they can sell them for 10K US$ in time, that would be a gross neglect or intentional dishonest practice on the advertiser's part.

SL is a land of crooks.

I just noticed about people in Forum...

2009-04-20T17:24:00.000-07:00

1.They try to get my attention.

2.They try to get my approval.

3.They want me to know *their* truth (lol).

4.They want to convince me that they are smart.

5.They try to troll me so they can type my name "Frederic". It looks better than trolling "Beagle"

6.They try to obtain *my validation* by trying to convince me that their rhetoric has some logic. (LOL)

7.They try to piss me off by saying *Boring* */me yawn*... because they can't come up with anything smarter to say.

8.They try to convince themselves by making me *boring* ... is somehow change the reality that they are still not funny/interesting/smart/whatever... (LOL

9.They don't care what I presents, regardless of the fact that it is the truth that they know it is the truth. They just want to read what they think I say, and never be convinced otherwise. They get offended when the truth is harder for them to bear. They suddenly becomes illiterate.

10.They just love to repeat the name Frederic.
If they start their post with addressing my name "Frederic... " they think their post may look intelligent or something. (... unno) You know, certain French name always sounds better than ordinary sounding English name? If my name was *Bob*, I totally doubt that I get this many trolling or verbal challenge. (ROFLMFAO)

mmhmmm *nods sagely

The reality is cruel, and at the same time beautiful

2009-04-19T15:54:00.000-07:00

I just came back from watching special engagement by MET opera HD, presents "The Audition"-Film by Susan Froemke.

This is a documentary about aspiring opera singers, who are semi finalist of 2007 Metropolitan Opera National Council Auditions. Especially focused on several of them from semi final to the final on.

There were winners, one of the singer who are on his life's turning point, with financial difficulty, suffering bankruptcy and what not, just coming back from three years of absence from singing. As being 30year old singer, this was the last, make or break opportunity for him, Ryan Smith pursuing his dream.

The bitter sweet real life drama.

He won by triumphant performance. More than that, right after that phenomenal singing, he tells the camera that he did what he came here for. And his exhilarating expression tells all of us that he, himself was not expect anything from it. It didn't matter the outcome but it was personal triumphant that mattered to him.

He won.

He got to perform on MET with veteran star such as Thomas Hampson, but all of the audience were informed on the credit scroll that he passed away from cancer last Nov 2008.

Was that the tragedy?
Not really.
He pursued and achieved something that many would ever be. He reached where many only dreamed to be. In that note, I think it was a story of triumph. Not about the life cut short by cancer.

The artist is always remembered by his art. Not how he died.

LOL some annonymous forum reader

2009-04-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

both of you. I see you you are lurking around Thanks for Contributing to my Traffic.
R, and E. :) Welcome anyways. Bring in more friends/cliques/mignions... More traffic for me.None for you.

So just you (Ewan and Rival, and others in the clique) know, my blog has general disclaimer set by Blogger/google that this is not for little kids who can't take the criticism. As just you quote me, you have a choice to read or not, and use X button above. You cant really bitch about what I said, because you are entitled to my opinion in MY BLOG, because you choose torture yourself by choosing to read it. I have legal rights to say whatever. This is not Forum governed by some other entity. This is personal. You are invited to read it *on your own discretion. I have no obligation to cater to your taste, AT ALL.

So, here is what you can do.

Read the disclaimer, understand what it means, read MY disclaimer on top of this page, and understand what it means, read the first amendment of the United States, and understand what it means. Then continue to read what you want, not what I really said (many are seems to be incapable so I have noticed.)
This is not about what it says in my blog. You are howling at the wrong trees.
or, continue to come here, read my blog, continue to contribute to my blog traffic. I will totally appreciate you coming here and contribute that in that aspect more than anything. LOL *bows

And watch & learn, mister/miss smartasses.

Blog is to attract attention/stir controversy so we can bring in more traffic. So you working for my blog, by putting a individual thread(trolling or not) on me, IMing your friends to read and make them into the clique of your own, make them come to MY BLOG, I totally didn't expect but welcome with everything.

So, any of you, just curious, or thinking that Rival/Ewan is sincerely have everyone's emotional/ethical rightousness in mind-which is not. They are just another cute little trolls. They are just a bit uglier than me. :D

As for them, making a equally personal/pathetic(let's just make it clear, I know my blog is pathetic and I never said my blog is better than anyone's .Nor this is unbiased journalism. Have I? lol LMAO) blog, thats their legal rights, and I totally approve/recommend practice their own first amendment.

Would I go there and read? no. I'm not that into you. sorry. lol

You people need to understand this once and for all.

It is irrelevant what you think about my blog contents.
Agree with me or not, is your opinion. Not mine.
Because Unlike many of you, I'm not making a blog to solicit your approval/agreement nor your validation. That is the difference.
It is not even about who is better. I'm here. You are there. That is it.

This is MY BLOG, and you are all entitled to my opinon.
You can do the same on your own.

As for all others who reads my blog because of who and what I am, thanks and continue to enjoy with your coffee and bon bons. :)
This is not a serious jornalism. This is biased opinion of me. Didn't I say that before?
Yea I did. lol Just some noobs.

Srsly, guys. SRSLY...

2009-04-15T18:10:00.000-07:00

Ok.

I know not too many of the whole population possess some equal intelligence as I do, which is just a fact of life, so I could careless about that.
Edit to add: Ok, if you read this above paragraph and really offended by them, then you really should log off and regain some sense of humor. This is not a kindergarten classes, OK? Ann, thanks for Bell curve. which side I'm on, is again, irrelevant. Left, so that makes everyone feel better about themselves, even if is untrue, or concede to the fact, again, that i'm on the right side, and take it just a fact of life. I never said, I'm beautiful like beckham or Brangelina. Because its not true. I said I'm smarter than the most of you because its a fact. Saying that, is crude and uncaring. Yes. But never said I'm gracefully uptight have I? I guess it is the crowd I'm mixing lately. LMAO So continue reading.

The thing that mind boggles me is this.

Why in the hell anyone want to make themselves look so godDAMN STUPID...?

Srsly

The worm who claims to be 23 year old boy... I used to pity him.
Now, I seriously pity their parents.
That pretty match explains it all about him.
I feel really sorry for his parents.

I sincerely HOPE his parents are TOTALLY FUCKING OBLIVIOUS for their own SAKE. Because to parents, your child is like your legacy work. Your Masterpiece.
You really don't want to know if your legacy master piece is in fact,whiny little petty lying piece of shit.
You.
Really.
Don't.
Want.
To.
Know.
LOL

I'm bored with Xstreet Forum now. It's fucking immature ... i really can't say kids, honestly.
All the RL kids I know, whom I have been taught, have in contact with, or friends of my sons... are not even come close to those stupid adults I see here. THEY -the children I know around here- all at least speak with purpose.

Adults in Xstreet Forum... *snorts... their immaturity/stupidity knows no bounds.

Another one bites the dust... LOL *sings

2009-04-15T11:47:00.000-07:00

I provide entertainment for Forum readers, because I am not that stuck up to get into the muddy insects infested battlefield and get myself dirty.

I know and I certainly understand that some people wants to maintain certain grace in the public. Frederic, as his most complex personality that you could ever imagine, thinks he can achieve to be a sort of status as a court jester, with bluntness of truth and twisted humor of reality. Any deceptive, superficial fuckers who uses and hides behind the lies built with half truth, are exposed as soon as they have the nerve to step into the field with him.

I love a formidable adversary, and more often than not, I just acquire my allies before they even become my adversary.

It is hard to play chess without the opponent, isnt it? (bitching and bitching... lol)

***
Anyways, so I have to settle with swatting some flies buzzing around me.

Check this thread on page three, scroll down to the bottom.Then to page 4

Recap of the court comedy of the day:

So this idiot with some false sense of *i'm smarter than you* or*I get to take a shot at Fred first, regardless of how stupid I am*... takes the bait I laid out.
Now, my friend like Sabrina, would know that if I set a verbal trap such as this, you should not baited into taking a shot at me *without thinking 5 moves ahead*.
He did.
Watch how he dig himself a hole, deeper and deeper with each posts.

1. "You are not Torley, otherwise the world will be grayer"
-Okay cool. You just wanted to be a idiot Number One. Srsly.

2."Seriously. whats with the war with vowels"
-Now he trapped himself in the verbal quicksand... My Entry using uncharacteristically lolcat vocabulary is direct reference to Torley/Torley's blog entry.
Which he used the word *srsly* in his both Linden and his own blog.
LOL THAT , was really funny, because the idiot just didn't even had a decency to check out what is he getting into. (it's called strategy planning)

3."Now you are butthurt Torley aficionado and I'm jealous.."
-Come on. LOL Do I ever look like some "teacher's pet, linden Ass kissing I heart Linden supporter to you? He must have lost his cool there. I can see his hand trembling. Now, it is easy to take him down by keeping my cool, and GENTLY nudge him to remember some humor and creativtity. (I know that would be another quick sand there. Smart people will know. but NOooooo. not this idiot)

4.So he posts some monty Python Holy Grail clip.
-Ignorance is futile. oh wait. LOL He hammer a nail into his own coffin there.
You just can't bring in some cult classic such as Monty Python or Terry Gilliam film and intend as a insult, (not to mention the lack of creativity...) and expect anyone to look at you with complete admiration and respect for facing bravely before dragon or giant like Fred. LOL
He could have been better off taking some home made clip. Then I didn't know what to respond to him.
What he did was, in effect, comparing me to the most highest form of humor and sarcasm exists in this century, not to mention respected creators of comedy/film classics... Yea , kinda things that Frederic worships... tsk tsk.
Bad move for him.

At this point, the activity getting boring so I just bow out.

Because your adversary is not really your adversary anymore.

****
As for Torley thread... lol
I really feel for Torley. Because dumb public puts him in a very awkward position like "Torley you can do better than that"(than comment "Pretty cool")

I loath this type of situation. Peanut gallery or parents get me to say something you are not willing to say. Like. Real life.
Kids trying to get me to praise their artwork when his parents are also standing behind them. Or Parents standing in the backstage asking my approval of their kids performance... *not even my opinion, They ARE asking me approval as a musician...

What can you say, when the kids' art work/sings totally off key and two bars behind sucking big time and has no talent whatsoever, but the parents asks you how much talent he is showing?
Yea, I hate that. I have no heart to break the news to the little kid or the parents seemingly believing that the kid are truely gifted.
What can you say?

"Well, you can continue to encourage his artistic activity. "
*sighs and avoids parents eye contact, and gives sticker to the kid.

Yea.
I am not a heartless s.o.b in RL. LOL

So just you know...

2009-04-12T22:48:00.000-07:00

I don't need to manipulate you or anyone to think I'm a nice person.

I just counted Xstreet Forum post on first page. There is only two that remotely something to do with SL. What the fuck is wrong with people who post links to some blog or news and *what do you think?*

*ship captain released-viva america*
*I lament because I pay too much tax-meaning that I am rich!*
*GLBT vs amazon-did you write that blog? no ok. lol*
*I got fired but I'm overqualified-read I am mentally unstable*
*COPYBOT!--- yea for like last three years*
*Mindless game1* *mindless game 2* ----*mindless game 27*
*Clique thread- opposition not needed*
*Clique thread- its not clique thread, everyone is welcome as long as you are in the clique*
*mindless Happy easter post 1*
*mindless game number 36*

sadly one post that really needed other experienced reader's response was
"kitty needs help with setting up RLV folder" which one of the poster made fun of the op without contributing. LOL sad isnt it.

FUCKERS.

I watch CNN if I want to know whats going on. Thanks.

Another hilarious stuff from Xstreet Forum...

2009-04-12T18:46:00.000-07:00

Xstreet Forum is full of unrelated, irrelevant posting, which is why I was totally oblivious about the existence of the Forum for so long.

That is Jager's flow chart *Guide to Forum Thread you can ignore*

Today's theme
People ask for the honesty, but they hate me for giving it.

Unfortunately, this is not a biased view of one person, but a general view of actuality.
So why so many irrelevant thread? Because if you put something relevant in Forum thread, it will be taken over by response such as
"You are FUNNEH! HUGZZZZ ALL AROUND!!!"
" Someone was making copy right violation products What Am I GONNA DO? OMG OMG OMG"
" I AM THE EXPERT ON FORUM COURTESY"
"MY IP RIGHTS ARE VIOLATED"
"I have absolutely nothing to contribute to this thread but I will post my totally hilarious av picture. HAHAHA"
" Everyone should listen to MY DRAMA and RANT, because I have to be the center of attentions, but i dont have to be respectful because the rule does not apply to ME. "
"The forum rule says you can't say that."

Today, we had that another irrelevant thread what I call a *Clique thread* appeared... on... ta da! Beagles and maia. Maia is an absolute crazy chick but she at least never been disrespectful, nor never be oblivious to the time, occasion, place of what she can or cannot post. In short, she knows appropriate place to be funny.

As i said in yesterday's blog. Beagles... on the other hand... He just dont know what he is doing. I never really paid attention, because he makes mostly irrelevant comment, but on one thread, he instantly start posting HUGE, unrelated picture from some joke site... in effect, the original post totally highjacked, nothing interesting came after, since no one knows what to respond to *I can't fucking careless about OP but JUST LOOK AT ME!"

I ignored more than few times, but yesterday, he complained that no one had came to confront him on the forum... LMAO

Guess what?
He got his wishes.

He also complained in public that he received inbox full of mail that expressed displeasure in his "light hearted posting practice" LOL

beagles apparently incapable of making distinction between *light hearted* and disrespectful practice. Yea ... its hard to see. it is so close and its probably depends on the person, right? LOL

**
I spare you the details but the punchline is this.

I thought he was much more intelligent and capable enough to understand my sharp tongued but adoring comment. LOL Some people just cant recognize real humor, when they are claiming to be humorous person themselves. HAHAHAHA

And he had a nerve to make a comment about what is the Forum Par standard... And THAT... WAS funny. Yea. He is an expert of Forum courtesy.

Lemme tell you.

Some people just need *hugs* with cliques, so they can be safely within the limit of caring people.

*****
I wasnt dislike him nor hate him. Certainly I was hoping that we could be make some sort of conversation. But my mistake.
Some people are capable of seeing the truth thru another's eyes. using that to his advantage and grow from it. Some. Not. LOL
As such is life.
Just another immature kid in SL.

Not even worth my time.

However, as always, I gain a few really intelligent, talented allies. That counts more than hundred *insects-not my word*.

The moral of the story is this:
As much as some superficial avatars hates me for giving them a truth, there are more people learn to like me for my truth.

Some hilarious stuff from Xstreet Forum

2009-04-11T19:18:00.001-07:00

So I post non-sense in Xstreet forum.

And I posted my total displeasure of one of the poster in one of the thread.
Nothing new. I am not that annoyed with the person himself.

Anyways, one of the poster made some Funny SL cartoon out of our differences of opinion and I should like to share them with you.

Frederic vs Beagle

I hope the link will take you to the post.

My pokemon card 's weapon/strength says
*Flaunt
*Icy Truth
I cant see the words of the description but the punchline was also hilarious.
(The noob girl with heart all over my picture. LMAO LMAO)

Now that is some creativity. I totally approve such humor.
(I'm trying to obtain the picture from the creator. so I hope i can show them in detail.)

*****
Edit to add:
So I talked to the creator of the cartoon. I guess he meant to annoy me, but his creativity failed his attempt. How can one not to recognize such humor.
i liked the card so much, I paid him 500L for full perm card. Now I can use it for my calling card in world.

During the conversation, I almost killed myself from laughter.

It is almost embarrassing my subtle attempt for my sarcastic/tongue in cheek character were seen thru so easily by total stranger. He was observant enough to use my vanity.
I was saved by the truth(or he let me believe it as truth), that the noob with heart was not his creation but was real event which took place when he was taking a pictures...

Maybe it is time to buy this skin...
(like I stated somewhere, the picture is DEMO skin... )

One of very few entry about my RL...

2009-04-03T08:25:00.000-07:00

If you are reading my blog, you already know, or at least you can make an intelligent guess that I like classical music to a certain depth.

The most of my boring real life consists of practicing piano or listening to those music through out the day. Therefore, naturally, the most of the very few outings are also classical music concerts/related events and operas.

This weekend, I was invited by a symphony musician to the concert of Mendelssohn. (The famous E minor Violin concerto and Italian Symphony) I would have posted music player from Jiwa.com, but they just restricted access from US because of the license issues... so if you want the sample music, please do your own research, maybe Amazon can provide you with plenty of samples.

I am looking forward to the Violin concerto, since I count this violin concerto as one of the three best Romantic Era violin concerto of all time, along with Beethoven's D major, and Bruch's No.1. (well, there are not that many... lol And I really don't count Paganini's violin concertos as *Romantic works* despite the era he was in. )

In his very short but eventful accomplished life, Mendelssohn established firm base layer of German classical music in general. His contribution is not limited to his productive composing career, but also in music education, establishing new theater/orchestral productions. If he did not revival Bach when he was 19 by the first performance of "St. Matthew's Passion" after the Bach's death, we might not aware of the greatness of Bach to this day. By the early 19th century, Bach was entirely forgotten and buried, unknown to the public. I believe that we owe it to him for reminding us about the one of the greatest legacy and an essence of humanity -music of Bach- left by the genius. Amazingly, he had done all these from late in his teens to early 20s.

Anyways, these concerts are for my enjoyment as well as for the part of *the grooming process* of my two boys.
It is not just about the education, because I really hate to make this as an *education*. Music is supposed to be an enjoyment, and if theya re able to enjoy these performance, their life would be richer for it.

I just do not understand the notion in US, that classical music is somewhat snobby, and attract snarky comments such as "Oh, I am not THAT cultural nor educated..."
LOL It is apparent that many are missing the whole point.

I doubt that my boys would be a president of the United States, but they won't be intimidated by the protocols of meeting the Queen of England. lol Not that I teach the protocols of official business, but they are all derived from the tradition of court protocols and manners. Just because we don't have Royals, courts and aristocratic ranks, doesn't mean you don't have to know the manners and protocols, where it came from.

For instance, attending evening performance or Saturday matinee... what would we wear? My boys are taught about dress code prescribed by traditional protocols. I tell them not to be *ignorant rule-breaker*. In order for you to know when, where and how to break the rules, you really have to know and well versed in every situations.

That cannot be learned an hour before the events. They are all my responsibility as a parent to *groom them* to be the smart cosmopolitans in the future.
That is not even about sending them to an ettiquette classes or giving them protocol books.

I have seen many adults simply intimidated by the formal place setting at the table, preventing them from enjoying the meal, or their ignorance utterly apprent, preventing others to enjoy the otherwise exquisitely prepared meal. How sad is that?
(and some - there always be one- that bragging the knowledge of ettiquette and preaching everyone at the table. LMAO Fake ass. The real people with class who are smartly educated would not make others feel inadequate at the table. )

Since I didn't graduate from college nor accomlished in anything, so I can't really say that I am educated. However, I have to say I am fortunate that I was groomed well by my parents.

********
We won't be wearing tuxedoes to the performance. But my boys would know what they should know if that occasion was specified, and how to break the rules when the occasion were called for.
Following every rule to a T, is one thing. Being able to break the rule is quite another. It takes more than knowing the rule.

Don't be an ignorant, if you want to break the rule.

Career change for virtual world?

2009-03-27T19:54:00.000-07:00

lol
I am still pondering about Ars Nova's skin.
What do you think? should I buy? its 1300L for just single skin.

No, I'm just jaded and bored.
I bitched about it to my 16 year old, and he said I should practice my instruments. LOL Yea in my RL. Has he not noticed I have been spending more than several hours a day in front of that $ 56K machine every day? LOL He must be tuning out the sounds mentally and not noticing at all anymore. (I must say I am making an effort to learn classical(like mozart.. eek) and baroque(bach. yea) I even start practicing Vivaldi's aria for the castrato.(!) Seriously, my voice falls in between the range and counter tenor aria is very confortable for me. So I'm squeaking aria from Giustino... I find it less strenous than flashy Donizetti without any sort of operatic training ... ...(i have very basic classical voice training in the past. But not opera.)
I think its very funny if anyone heard me singing baroque opera aria in my car in California city. hahahahaha

In second life, I think its time to learn clothing designs.

I have been staring at the templates for like two days now. I guess I'm fiddling the idea inside my head for all these hours. Some sort of Goth/Regent or goth/Biedemeier style. (I'm not really into Victorian, even tho I love the whole 19th century thing, I never liked Victorian English style. They are just that up in the ass, you can tell that its never my style. )

I really cant say what it look like because they are all still inside my head. LOL
My creative process had started long before it would be realized on photoshop. All I have to do is find the proper ways. Once it gets rolling it should not be that hard. They are all labor. But right now, its the hardest part of them all.

Finding some inspirations.
I'm not talking about surfing the websites and stealing the designs or downloading some catalog pictures.

I'm talking about tracing back some of my favorite books, letters of artists, music ... that sort of thing. IT takes a lot of time.
Imagining what went on the salon hosted by the wives of newly emerged social class, mixing with bohemians and aristocrats, politicians and priests... That sort of things gives me an inspiration. I know its unusual, but it can't be helped.

There may be month before something comes out, but I am not worried.

Erwin Schrott sings Votre Toast... (Prepare to be swooned

2009-02-20T08:20:00.000-08:00

Erwin Schrott at Dresden's Semper-Opernball.

Too bad, those militaristic German chorus can't be like Spanish crowd at bullfighting arena or lawdy Spanish Cantina where tobacco factory workers/ soldiers and gypsies gather.

Escamillo telling his tale as a Toreador just came back from his triumphant arena, and Schrott does just that. He is not in the costume since this was opera ball, but one cannot picture him anything other than the most popular toreador in Seville.

I'm telling you, I have heard more than 20 versions of this aria, and I have seen performance on stage, and some video recordings close to another 10 of them. I'm not sure if the Schrott's latin temperament or his acting skills, that makes this Escamillo comes alive. I rarely see the stage actors/opera singers or even stage performers who could coax the audience from four sides. (I'm sorry but rock band just staring straight up does nothing for me. LOL)
Schrott's natural ability to include every single soul in the house is just his gift. Some learns as the craft of their profession. For Erwin Schrott, that is where his heart belongs.

Need I say more?

Self righteousness/creativity infests in virtual community

2009-02-17T20:34:00.000-08:00

What is with those people who take on themselves some duty to police around second life?

Oh and dime a dozen self proclaimed creators and designers who has no back ground on any sort of arts education. Please.
When they think they are creative because they know how to *recreate some RL products* it shows their limitation of their ability as an artist/creator or simple put lacking their creativity and originality.

Attaching some sort of end use agreement that has no legal basis whatsoever on every time they sell...
Attaching some sort of copyright/DMCA warning on creation they stole the design from some real life products or picture they didn't snap.
It is very funny to read those *seemingly legal* notice when they never even read the whole DMCA nor the law that pertaining to the IP rights they are proclaiming for.

My advise? Leave the laws to your counselor. You are not that smart to be your own counsel.

Call themselves DJ when they didn't pay for the tracks they play. Or don't even know the album it came from.

Don't forget those DJ's and creators that use hacked/stolen software.
Lemme tell you. Before you put those stupid baseless EULA and DMCA warnings, they should prepare to attach their software license number.

Creator's IP rights, my ass.
Buy your own software to start. Then, design your own creation. Not copying some designer or product catalog.
Buy your own music.

Those fake creators and fake creations bores me to tears.

I read some forum entry on some example.
I do not remember the exact quote, but in effect that "the kid who drew the picture of Pikachu won't be sued for Copyright infringement."

Yea, those so called creators are like 7 year old kids tracing the picture of Pikachu from their book. ... They may not be illegal, but their creations are as exciting as those doodling by elementary school kids.

*yawn

Coffee and Bonbons...

2009-02-06T12:51:00.000-08:00

Before I go into the details, I want to clarify that I could careless about the sim I am going to talk about.
From where I stand/my point of views, they deserve each other, and i just watch their stupid drama in slight amusement as I have always been done.

So I was warned and go sit down with fresh pot of coffee and bonbons.

The sim I used to hang around when I used to think people over there are generally cool. However, the owner is clueless and oblivious to what is going on under his nose, people who truly spend their free time basically working, contributing to *HIS* private sim was never get the backings that they deserve.

There are few *MANIPULATIVE*, *NARCISSISTIC*, sons of a whoring bitches who don't have balls to take responsibility yet point fingers every now and then WHEN they are fucking around with each other which make them look really bad, ignoring the duties as *the Royals* as they call themselves. lol.

As I said, from where I stand, it is just funny as hell.

But then, I have few people I count as my friend there.

The person works her ass off in real life, supporting her own family which demands siginificant of her time and energy compare to those of us with fairly healthy household. Oh it is good. I think the person is capable enough to handle stress and responsibility of her own household.

Then, she comes log into SL on her limited freetime, DJing, managing the sim, trying to put everything in order.
Did anyone else with that stupid title help her? Maybe one.

From where I stand. That is nothing new. That just what it is. That is normal for them. They don't care if *family* is working their ass off. They just stand around the wall and shoot shit.

But this manipulative bitch...
Just sit back and talks all the shits like how honor counts and how loyal he is... then turn around and manipulate others who are younger or with less wits into go gainst those people he feels like pointing figer at.
Every single fucking year, this son of a bitch entangle himself in a drama, and CONVENIENTLY *take a vacation from SL* till the shits he started calms down forgotten.

Go check your Royal's profile. Clean the profile and "I'm taking a vacation from SL".

You know why he has to do that?

Because he went behind one person who really takes care of that sim, calling in some Royal meeting so he could make himself look like some hero stepping in to make things right. In truth, he has something to hide from everyone, so just needed to devert some attention from himself, selling some fight against someone he calls *friend*~ whatever that means~. SELF RIGHTEOUS bitch who has no integrity whatsoever.
I never lied to anyone over there. They hate me for my capability to point out the brutal truth. That is fine with me. I never call anyone so superficial and fake even an acquaintence. That is basically why I left.
And same ficking thing all over again.

My opinion is that the sim does not deserve my friend's attention. Let alone her effort and time.

Yesterday, I thought the whole drama was funny.
But after a day, just the fact that my friend still cares about the sim itself to a degree just making me feel like strangle those people who are TAKING HER for GRANTED.

WHY the fuck is this person feel the need to hide in her own fucking sim?

This is exactly the reason why i don't do *FAKE SL FAMILY*.

Look at them.

Votre Toast, Chanson du Toréador

2009-01-01T00:31:00.000-08:00

Happy new year!
THis is a musical Toast from me.

I kind of pondered to put Brindisi from La Traviata, but I just couldn't ignore this clip.
(I have been watching this clip about 20 times a day... )
And i just can't think of any other baritone does this french aria better than ... well French singer, ruggedly handsome Mr Tezier. )

The thing is that the fact, Carmen is sung in French therefore, its crucial for me phonetical French pronunciation of "...Et songe bien, oui, songe en combattant..." part MUST be right. Well, particulary, this line makes all the difference because the music introduces the new story within the song from here. It simply seems that none of the well known recordings or performance done by non-French baritone can get this part right.

I have probably compared close to 20 recordings, but all were done by non-French singers. Italian, Spanish, Russian, American(errr), Chinese... They just can't nail this part right. Not only the pronunciation, but also the execution of this particular phrase, which totally changes the militaristic minor scale march of first verse to mojor melody with *dreamly* singing quality as the libretto says.
Therefore, Mr. Tezier wins hands down on this one.

Toreador, en garde! Toreador, Toreador!
Et songe bien, oui, songe en combattant
Qu'un oeil noir te regarde
Et que l'amour t'attend,
Et que l'amour t'attend,
Toreador, L'amour t'attend!

So How's your SL relationship?

2008-12-20T23:38:00.000-08:00

"Are we really happy with this lonely game we play,
Looking for the right words to say?
Searching but not finding -- understanding anyway,
We're lost in this masquerade."

- Leon Russell, This Masquarade

REALITY CHECK!

I have been saying in here, in SL, constantly, that one should NOT try to substitute their RL with SL.

You just can't have a fabulous relationship that last long and forever with pixel avatar. If you are lacking something in RL, you just can't magically make up everything else in SL. Well, except for very few things such as shapely ass or mansion on the beach.

Again and again, astounding numbers of adults just can't keep themselves from having UNREALISTIC expectation of perfect relationship in SL, and believing that it can also be perfect and lasting relationship in RL.

PEOPLE, I know its a Christmas time, but, THERE ARE NO SANTA! lol

Your seemingly sweet, perfectly handsome dude with bad attitude cannot be some perfect, intelligent, responsible cute boytoy in RL. (Believe me. I know what's a cute boy toy can do. They have its use, but not for relationship, let alone *life together*? FORGET IT. lol)

I sometime spend my money on cute little things. They amuse me. They think they can charm me. The fact that they believe they can charm me amuse me a lot. Its an innocent game. They know what they can expect from me, and I do not have stupid illusions about them, either.

Many people says that SL is not a game. But I beg to defer, and time and again, I proved i'm right.

You just CANNOT mix SL and expect them to become that dream come true. You just do not wake up in the next morning, having this shapely ass you have in SL . LOL
But then, you plan all kinds of shit for RL, the dude you are screwing in SL, is now screwing your Whole RL... if you have one.

Ok, that happens a lot. They deserve it right. Right.

The thing is... Aftermath of this perpetual drama of *SL, mistaken it with RL, then got screwed in RL* spilled over back in SL.

"Oh I met this dude, he was fabulous, he is so sweet and handsome, I'm moving in with him in Spring."
Packing up things, bundle up their daughters/sons.
The dude is divorced, or *in process of * divorce. (Yea ALWAYS. thats what they say.)

snorts. over and over and over

Gave him money, but he screw me and left me.
I overdose my meds.
I slit my wrist, but doctor said put bandaid on them. (snorts)

My prediction.

(sniffles) " I was mistakedn. He screwed me and please help me picking up my pieces. I am so depressed and I need all my friends with me. ... ... ..."

NO. We are not your friends. You think you can get back into the drama queen routine that easily, so people can wipe your snot with our own tissues?

HELL NO.

By the way, if you want to learn how to play those love games with cute bad boys who never ties their long hair in bed?
I teach you how to do it correctly, how to do it right.

1.Spend money on them. Never *lend* them money.
2.Make yourselves available all the time, so you will be there when they need you.
3.Never make yourselves available, so you will not be looking like desperate woman.
4.Call them when they need you.
5.Do not call them when you need them.
6.Treat them with something their lovers/girlfriends can't afford, like convertible car or Harley davidson, make it look like effortless. And never bring it up to remind them about it again.
7. Never ask them where they have been.
8.Do not call them just to ask them "how they are".
9. Always available for sex. but do not let them know you are, and know how to seduce them at least expected places.

Oh, wait. This is not the advise for bedroom games.

These are tips for successful marriage. LMAO

By the way. Are you still going to see your SL partner in RL?

Season's Greetings from Fred

2008-12-15T18:55:00.000-08:00

I'm suffering from unlikely wet weather of California. So is my Steinway. 94% humidity is like Japanese weather. Humidity in the air makes the sound so sweet and resonates better, but the piano itself is so used to relative dry environment, of low 20's at the most... now the wood is absorbing the humid air rapidly and expanding, resulting in squeaky keys and funky tuning. IT does not help that my piano tech is already scheduled to come in on 17th. because in two days, I doubt that the humidity in our home will settled back to the normal winter average. arrrrgh.

We can use some humor. Me, in stripper outfit. Too bad, I cannot demonstrate the *ripoff feature* of this fur.

Outfit and hair cost me nearly 4$, with spending hours trying to capture the right moment of these dance moves... (*laughs... more like enjoying watching myself grind and thrust.) The result is this.

I used restraints not to make this a prim book with 12 pages of my nearly naked pictures. I commend myself of settling with only two shot. (PSD. files have nearly ten layers... lol) drool and admire as much as you like.

Men fear me, women cant handle me...

2008-12-10T14:09:00.000-08:00

LMFAOOOOOOOO

Come on, I'm not lying. THis is exactly what I saw. I couldnt stop laughing for like 93minutes.

I saw this actual floating title on some typical *shoulder width 100* av with biker outfit. LMAO THis dude must be some skinny ass, pasty white little dude living in middle of nowhere in the basement of his mom's house. LMAOOOOO

Seriously. I almost grilled him with motorcycle technical questions. (I am evil like that as you know. It is so easy for me to figure out fakes. )

Maybe this dude thinks men really fear him if they saw that title, but he has no FUCKING clue that this title only draws out nothing but laughter.

His av was even wearing badly homemade H-D head wrap prims which his hair from calico creation was sticking out left and right. LOL

Oh my god, that was not all. His profile says *I ride alone under the name of four horsemen*....
ROFLMFAOOOOOOOO
Ok so he doesnt ride alone, then. LMAO Four horsemen has three other dude.

The way he puts the four horsemen, it definitely not from bible but from Highlander the series. (The TV one. not the movies. TV series had a few episodes that involved Four horsemen, which was popular episodes among highlander geeks. Yes, I have all the DVD. )

So he thinks *men fear him and women cant' handle him* while he watches highlander the series on video tape, imagine he is the apocalypse.... PLEASE. Some fantasy just has to stay private. LOL

Once in a while, i get a good laugh out on the expense of these idiots, who thinks they are cool as hell. LMAo

I could have so start the brawl with this dude, but I didn't. If anyone interested in finding this dude, go to the place in SL where rhymes with Sturgis.

I'm just pissed.

2008-12-01T07:55:00.000-08:00

You know I mock people who can't get a grip on their pixel life.

When I see those entry about "Behind this av, there is a real person with real feelings..." I instantly think that they do not belong in here. If you have to advertise that you have to be babied, cuddled, nurtured, cared... just Use the X button on top of your browser.
I do not have time for babysitting grown adults in MY free time.

That is why i do not like alcoholics, drug users who has weathers depends on if they are on meds or under the influence (prescription or illegal, doesn't matter)

Why do you want to drag your pathetic real life everywhere you go, even when you dont have to? ie: second life

****************

Now, why i pissed?

Those psychos, alcohol/drug addicts, liars, thieves, untruthful backstabbers who uses so called *friends* to get ahead, to whiners, immature adults who acts like 14 year old girls, stalkers who hid behind their alts to harass others etc etc ---They take away my friends from me.

See? all my friends are mature adults with common sense. So they know how to use the X button on top their browser. It means that they just walk away from SL at any time.
I respect them enough not to stand in their way, however, I also value them enough to spend my time, helping them solve their problem if they trust me enough.

Personally those dramas really don't affect my real life/feeling, just because I am too forgiving and generous for my own good. I may criticize them in sharp tongue or shoving the brutal truth in their face, but that is just about it. I do not harbor any feeling towards them. (call it a wisdom. )

I have this curse of seeing the person's character pretty much the first time I speak to them, so if I sense something fake about the character, I do not let them inside until I establish the trust on them. And yes, it may take a year. I constantly evaluate their characters.
Sure enough, sooner or later, I will see their true colors, validating my gut instinct of *something is off about this character*. Sometimes the incident does not involve me directly, but all the same, serious enough to sever them. As many of the SL says "If you fuck with my family ~" I do not threaten people, I do not kill them nor grief them, i just cut them off.

To this day, I only met two people in RL from SL, and they are my real best friends as well. Few more, that I feel I can make exception of getting to know them in rl. Only the handful are allowed to contact me in the means other than SL IM.
I do not invite any of my rl friends to join SL, except they joined on their own. (In that case, by all means I freind them of course, but I do not claim responsibility)

The objective is to keep my freetime as enjoyable as possible.

Isn't that the purpose of second life?

So I'm pissed that all those stupid people give my friend some emotional stress that is so great that she is ready to walk away without talking to me, out of respect she has for me. She was just ready to press the X button.
I told her to block everyone except the ones she can trust, cut the cards of the rest, mute them if they make a scene. Why should she concern about the feeling of those people who are so selfish? She shouldn't.

I'm pissed, but the thing is, I can't go after any of them.

If the subtlety doesn't work, then...

2008-11-23T08:11:00.000-08:00

there comes the blunt force..

You all know that by now.

My profile says "Rude, crude and lewd" , but I will not be head on rude most of the time. I have commonsense, common courtesy and even have some delicacy to express my own thoughts without offending others.

But then my subtlety fails to be understood by the others, their lack of intelligence is not my responsibility. I have to put it in the words that they can understand it.

And they dare to be offended... *laughs

Noob: Where u from?
(fred: wha? Can't you just type the correct grammar without omitting 'y' and 'o'? It is not that you have a date in 20minutes... can be this boring from the start? Isn't my av interesting enough to start a convo?"~/me is sporting pointy ears pierced with gold and silver rings, with fabulous blond hair that none of the noobs ever seen, with slick latex pants with mesh shirt, with leather gauntlet. )

Fred: I'm from Daini Ken, my sim. It's a second circle of Hell.
(read:I am not going to tell you, where, in suburbs of sunny California with how many cars and how many bedrooms/bathrooms I have....)

Noob: No, in real.
(fred: why is it so intrigued by where I live? You are just rezzed in fucking second life.)

Fred: Wouldn't you like to know...
(fred: Take a hint, dumb-ass.)

Noob: Yes.

(fred: That's why I just said two minutes ago, I can't make you smarter, so dont forget to bring in your own brain from real life..., didn't I say that? I did.)

Fred: Look, many people in second life are not into telling everyone/total stranger they just met about their personal details. It's just common sense. If this is so important to you, then... I'm living in west coast US.
(fred: this is the most polite reply I can think of. Yea i understand you might know which time zone I'm in, or language culture you are in. But not that stupid general question for no purpose. You are lucky, puppy. because I'm wearing Mentor tag, otherwise you would be slapped with my pixel cock.)

Noob: Aren't you moody, today.

*snorts...

Fred: If the other person does not understand my subtlety or unable to take a hint, I have to be blunt, in that way, they will not mistaken my sincerity.

Noob: I'm just making a small talk.
(fred: You just have small brain. Can you imagine how many Noobs spawn in a day?)

Fred: Do you know how many times I have to tell noobs "hi" or respond to "Where u from?" question?

**************

I teach 4-5 year olds when they first started social life.

***S p e a k w i t h p u r p o s e.

La damnation d Faust

2008-11-22T13:19:00.000-08:00

http://www.metoperafamily.org/metopera/broadcast/hd_events_next.aspx

Just came back from Live broadcasting Live in HD MET.

Rarely performed opera by Berlioz. *La damnation de Faust*, of this production, combined with multimedia and interactive technology which was not available 150 years ago. But I have to say, knowing the composer's character, he would be pleased with this production. (I would think if they were alive today, Liszt and Berlioz would be in Met together, immensely enjoying the performance themselves. )

I only knew couple of pieces from this opera (yes, because recordings are also rare) which one of them, are from Erwin Schrott's CD, and the other is the famous "Hungarian march (also known as Rákóczy march) that I had a chance to see the manuscript copy of the piece in Budapst Liszt Museum.
I was very lucky to see this exhibit, on the bicentenial celabration of Berlioz's birthday back in 2004. There were always the question of who composed this first between liszt's Hungaria rhapsody and Berlioz's Hungarian march... but I have to say, teenage Liszt was already fiddling with this melody long before this opera by Berlioz.

I know, no one would be interesting in anecdotes between Berlioz and Liszt, so I just leave it at the fact that they were close friends for decades.

As everyone already know, the subject of Faust/Mephistopheles, which i cannot ignore, paid particular attention to the role of Mephisto... John Relyea was... deliciously, devilishly handsome. He has also added the subtle but unmistakable comic values to the *evil* plotline, so I really loved his role. (his towering physical presence, also helped a lot. Check out the link on his name. ... he is hot.Another hot baritone found from MET.)

Marcello Giordani's Faust.. well, he is a typical twinkling *bel canto* tenor who could hit highest notes I have ever heard on tenor aria. (yea)
I'm not sure about French opera with twinkling italian tenor. I guess its okay, since those are the tenors they had back in 19th century. Just not my thing.

Daini Ken sim ~ The church

2008-11-19T07:34:00.000-08:00

Some strange reason, Daini Ken sim is enjoying random traffic, lately. I guess that is how the sim become popular with regular visitors.

I plan not to bounce anyone, unless they cause trouble for my friends. (If they walk right into me and try something funny, i will just do something funnier and it will be end up in here. so I'm kinda waiting for them.)

The community central figure is the church. Of course, that is not kind of church you see in real life.
As I always said, what is the point in perpetuating the real life, including trying to make a similar avatar like your real life (but skinnier), or building house that can be bought. What's fun in that. I lived on the beach once or twice in my life, I lived in the busiest city in the world once, I lived in suburbs, too. None of that would be anything different than I have done before.

The church, as you step inside... you will see the red velvet drapes, lace sheers and purple curtains. The exotic carpet were strewn around, furniture and devices that are too interesting to explain here. Among those seemingly religious paintings, there are few sensual pictures, too.

That is not all.
The church has secret dungeons in the basement. Of course, the basement used to be a crypt for the bishops, cardinals and place to put holy relics. Not anymore.

I am not your everyday vampire nor demon.
There are no family to join.
because you do not need to advertise them that you are one of us.
The important thing is that I know you. That is all it takes.

You came to me on your own accord, and nothing will ever change.

And those of you who never visited me, you should.
You can come whenever you like, and leave whenever you like.

I will not dictate your life.

******
All the perverts and the freaks, welcome.

The saddest thing is that... I know these kinda ppl...

2008-11-17T08:26:00.000-08:00

Oh my god....

Any of you might remember the fact that I knew a whole bunch of nutcases in SL... but this. LOL
This is not just one isolated incidents. The saddest thing of them all ... We all know these kind of characters in SL.

Let's make it clear that i have nothing against fat people, or mental ailments. but then, you will get pounded when you are sitting in front of PC all day long and bitch about why you cant get laid,Why you don't have money, or why you don't have friends... PLEASE.

Just, get a life. And I do NOT mean, go to WoW. Get a REAL life.

And Raven.
This is for you. LOL

1.Get your facts right about yourself. LOL You forgot to mention one of your alt.
2.Do not lie about yourself in your own profile. It is just lame.
3.You don't read my blog? and You actually *have friends* (.... gasp!) who read my blog? I highly doubt both.
4.Small mind... yea. I think you are the one walk right into it. And you are the one banned from Trans TWICE. Not me. We all knew you were Rune Galicia the day you made that alt. Hint: if you make an alt, do not blog about your sorry ass in internet. I am just amazed that all the alts do the exactly the same thing and wear same thing and say the same thing as your main account. Oh lets not forget fuck same people.
5.A man reaching 40, pretending to be an gun slinging bad-ass like some teanage gamer fan-boy... Yea very, very, attractive. NOT.
6.Your belief is not the reality. You list lots of your beliefs in your profile, but that does not mean those are facts. And you think no one can see that? You need to get out more.
You think I have smaller mind than you? LMAO I'm not the one copying the original gift, the same night you received that item. In your small mind, "Oh fred can make this fabulous hat, I will copy it and sell them, so I can make some money." ... well, have you?
7. Read Dante's Inferno. Especially the Nineth Circle. It is for Traitors.You may learn something why you do not have any friends.

There is not need to kick the man who is down. (He deserved it, its only his pixel ass.)

I rest my case.

Aftermath of the land fiasco...

2008-11-05T23:11:00.000-08:00

Letter from M linden to the residents...

/me rolls eyes.

This is almost too comical to take it any more seriously than high school project, really.
I just flew back in from 7 days japan trip, which I rarely got to sleep, so read and talk amongst yourselves.

Bait and switch, price hike...

2008-10-28T17:41:00.000-07:00

LL's offocial blog

I just have to laugh, that new set up fees for open space will be 375$.

That is how much I paid for my full sim, 375$. Just a few days ago. LOL

Probably Jack Linden looked at my transaction, (because linden tried to ask us twice if the price was correct, delayed it for a day or two.) and say "Hey, 375$ sounds good! Yay!"

Well, it was not open space. It IS full sim.

Since we have about 2months till the change, no one will be able to sell these sims for whatever they paid... Only ways to just abandon right away. (since you dont want to pay another two months tier, I would suppose.)

As i stated and ranted before, if you want to keep the value of the money and security, do not pay into playing game, (ie; Second Life) save, or invest.
That statement is still true to this day.

Do not expect LL to be your moneymaker.
That is just dumb.

I do not expect to make any profit. These are managed within my disposable income.
If LL FXXX up the whole scheme ? I just abandon the land and walk out. LOL next month, I can keep my 295$, and go buy a new wardrobe, buy new game for my young charges, or eat out with my family and friends. Simple.

But I can understand the anger of my friend Noirran, who is just simply robbed by LL. She did nothing wrong. She followed prescribed used of Openspace sim. :/

Ya know, LL is asking us volunteer mentors how they could retain new accounts...
To me its very simple and easy solution for them. But they, apprently had not figued out, and thinking it will be the 8th wonder of the world. LOL

The whole land fiasco is just too funny to watch.

Angel fred cake

2008-10-25T19:14:00.000-07:00

This friend, who has been dear to me for over a year, (possibly over two years) who just greeted me and called me *angel fred* today.

"That sounds like angel food cake. "
"angel fred cake"
...

*************
Other total coincident.

As soon as I log in this afternoon,
"Heyyy, did you kick me out?"--- I dont know this person. never met her before.

/me receives friend offer from total stranger

"Oh, you are not my freddy."
"lol"
"sorry. sorry."

/me checks this person's profile picks

"Hey, you know R.L?This is a small world. I was speaking to him this morning."

~~~~

The case of mistaken identity solved.

sixth degree of separation?
I totally believe it.

(Hey, i have to find 6th degree to Mr. Schrott.)

Sim purchase!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-24T13:52:00.000-07:00

"I can make my own rules, and then I can break them, too." -Frederic Prevost
(I just added after the post below. but Mark My Words. )

As I reported about mass exodus of Japanese residents below, there are bound to be the flood of sim/land deals way below market value.

Buy low, sell high.

That's the principle of commerce is it not?

********
Many of you probably remember my rants and the propaganda of saving money before. That was in connection to why some people invest(or rather waste their money) in Second life sim, when they are hardly getting by in their own real life.

Come on. Get over it.
Not everyone can afford to risk 300 us$ every month.

I am not get into this without consideration, and the principle is still the same.
The risk I am taking is purely in the range of my daily spendable income, and I have not cut back any of my existing investments savings, and other securities as I had them in place before.
My plan was to purchase the new private region from LL within 3-5 months. However, the deal I came across two days ago was hard to pass up, and fortunately for me, way below the price we could find currently on the market.

Since I have modest store profit and rental income to cover part of the risk, the actual cost of running/having a full sim, is even less than what I anticipated.

*********

And YES!
There will be a shrine for Mr. Schrott.

And in which sim you could find in anywhere in SL, that there is this handsome incubus welcoming you warmly with classical music and opera, coaxing you into some conversation so cultural you had never even thought of ever possible, while you mingling the group of international, intelligent and beautiful avatars?

***

/me sings catalogue aria

~LEPORELLO

Madamina, il catalogo è questo
delle belle che amò il padron mio;
un catalogo egli è che ho fatt'io.
Osservate, leggete con me.
In Italia seicento e quaranta,
in Allmagna duecento e trentuna,
cento in Francia, in Turchia novantuna,
ma in Espagna son già mille e tre!
V’han fra queste contadine,
cameriere e cittadine,
v'han contesse, baronesse,
marchesane, principesse,
e v'han donne d'ogni grado,
d'ogni forma, d'ogni età.
In Italia, ecc.

Nella bionda egli ha l'usanza
di lodar la gentilezza,
nella bruna la costanza,
nella bianca la dolcezza.
Vuol d'inverno la grassotta,
vuol d'estate la rnagrotta;
è la grande maestosa,
la piccina è ognor vezzosa ...
Delle vecchie fa conquista
per piacer di porle in lista;
ma passion predominante
è la giovin principiante.
Noti si picca se sia ricca,
se sia brutta, se sia bella;
purché porti la gonnella,
voi sapete quel che fa! ecc.

Mass Exodus of Japanese residents from SL

2008-10-23T16:25:00.000-07:00

I cannot say that I am saddened to hear the mass Exodus of Japanese residents from SL. MagSL, Japanese company found exclusively for SL development purpose announced sale of their half of their regions.

The expectation of *fabulous internet community* was not what they thought it to be? I have not clue. They would probably blame it on slow localization by LL. Starting with Japanese client which every single menu is translated either wrongly or amateurishly. LL did not think they had to outsource the translation of *Help* *FAQ* *Edit* and resorted to use *babelfish* instead.
OMG. I am born and raised, fairly educated in first 31 years of my life.Addition to that, I used to work for computer company, translating English materials to Japanese.
I think I am fairly qualified to know computer menu are translated correctly.

And these SL japanese client, I have no fucking clue what the each of menu does. That is how bad they are.

No support for residents. (Oh I know they hired a couple of Japanese Linden. LOL They rejected me without testing my Japanese skills tho. They asked me how to find particle object. That was their concern for Japanese speaking LL liason? LOL)

The announcements of localization few days ago came too little too late.

In Japan, the pioneering company announced pulling out of the market, then guess what? EVERYONE COPIES!
You didn't know? Japanese people are like friggin lemming, marching themselves to wherever. LOL

So there comes all those pixel companies, trying to get rid of their pixel properties. Incapable of even running a basic English ad in classified, resorting to Japanese language forum outside SL. Their offering price is comparable to the price of Open space region, for a full fledged sim.

Anyways

Survival of the fittest. a la Darwin.

M & M ...

2008-10-21T11:42:00.000-07:00

Mephisopheles and Marionette, not your favorite candy.
Charles Gounod (1818-93, France) composed all forms of music but these two pieces which seemingly one has nothing to do with the other, are pulsing in unison in the complicated drama of our own lives. If you listen to them back to back, you will hear the musical similarity in theme as well.

Faust - Version 1860/1869 / Act 4 No.24 Sérénade: "Vous qui faites l'endormie"
This is Bryn Terfel, my other favorite bass-baritone.

In this scene, Mephistopheles taunts Marguerite for being knocked up and abandoned by Faust, in a very *rude, crude and lewd* manner. The sweetness of the serenade is not what it is, but the crude cynicism of Mephistopheles, who is not at all entirely innocent in this whole turn of *drama*.

"You should have waited to open your door, till you have the ring on your finger." , he torments and laughs at the girl...

Her brother challenged Faust in a duel for making his sister an outcast.
Guess what, he got killed by Faust, of course. (Has Mephistopheles anything to do with it? )

Then for the other, Funeral march of a marionette...
Two marionettes had a duel.
One got killed.
So the others are holding a funeral for their late friend.
Do you hear the cynical tone through out the piece?
How the life can be so short and wary. Even for the marionettes.

Funeral March of a Marionette (Marche funèbre d'une marionette)

Gounod, Charles [Composer]

From Faust by C. Gounod

2008-10-18T19:15:00.000-07:00

Sérénade: "Vous qui faites l'endormie"

Erwin Schrott - Arias by Mozart, Verdi, Berlioz, Gounod & Meyerbeer - Orquestra de la Comunitat Valenciana [Orchestra]

Forward the player to *Faust Act 4 Serenade

This is how you could acquire new addiction.
(Hot Schrott as Mephistopheles)

Add to your Halloween party selections if you want something different.

O, liebe

2008-10-18T18:21:00.000-07:00

O lieb, so lang du lieben kannst, S.298 - Brahms / Liszt: Lieder - Liszt, Franz [Composer]

, you recognize it from somewhere?
Of course.
The piano version of this song "Liebestraume -Nocturne No.3" is one of the most famous classical melody of all time. Even if you don't know anything about classical music, you know this tune.

Funny thing is that, even among the classical musicians and afficionado, the original version is virtually unknown.

As the composer puts it, the song is "frivolous"... *laughs... but it is simple and passionate. The lieder(song) is rarely performed, but I think this recordings delivered the core of the composer's intentions.

Don Giovanni ~ Live from MET on sirius

2008-10-14T19:21:00.000-07:00

So this is how addiction start...

I'm listening to Schrott as Don Giovanni on internet radio live broadcast.

Something I just can't have enough of it in my life... the dose of sweet baritone.

I am still plotting to see him somewhere in the future. Even though Valencia, Spain in Feb are just out of reach just because of few hours of time differences.

On the other hand, 12/14 Evening performance can be a possibility for me and my two young charges.
I am not sure if its a good thing to be taught at such a young age how to live excessively, or spend extravagantly just for the sake of one opeara (or one baritone)... Well. Yes. It is a good thing. The experience would last forever for them, a mere few grand for one weekend is a bargain, don't you agree?

Or since I already saw this production, save the money for awhile and wait for one of the performance in Europe?

what to do, what to do?

*****
Anyone who know me have heard me talking about anything related to piano, violin related works, but I have a thing for baritones and I have few CDs for Baritone lieders and Opera CD which featuring baritones as lead roles. (Don Giovanni is one of them)

Mattias Goerne, Thomas Hampson(America's leading baritone, he has Don Giovanni recording, also, has Met casting this season with La Flemming I believe.) Bryn Terfel has been my *Three Baritones/bass baritones* for more than ten years... (I'm not into tenors. I think its a matter of fetish.)

So, the discovery of Erwin Schrott is truely a special find for me.

Below is my dream sequence about Schrott's future...

His only recordings consists of opera arias, but I am hoping he will try his hand on German liders such as Schubert's song cycles... I really want to hear his *Die schöne Müllerin lieder *
This is written for tenor (or high voice) yet the story are about young men's life, mostly sung by men. Coincidentally, above baritone Goerne and Terfel also has recordings of selection from this song cycle. I think Schrott can deliver the subtlty of the Schubert as he is right now perfectly. Schrott is already familier with Romantic composer's works such as Berioz and Gounod, therefore it would not be a stretch for his style I suppose. (Do not get into the discussion/debate of why I think Schubert is a Romantic composer. I have my reasons.)

I am not able to think of great accompanist for his voice... hmmm that can be a quest, since I cannot name any concert pianists of this day who has Schubert as his/her repertoire. I am very picky about Schubert. Technically, not too challenging for any concert pianists, yet it forces one's artistic understandings of the comper and the art of its days. Schubert cannot be played just on the face of music book notes.

I guess Mitsuko Uchida, Emanuel Ax or Daniel Barenboim could be a fairly good choice. (According to his website, he will perform one of the opera under the batton of Barenboim in the near future. So it is not out of the blue combination.)

********
Anyways,

Why Don Ottavio can't do anything about Don Giovanni ... and why he can't understand Donna Anna's postponement of their weddings... LOL
I don't know why but eveytime I encounter this opera, it reminds me of people who says the right thing but can't deliver anything substantial in reality.
I don't think he is dumb, half - witted nor plain as he looks, but it just look that way and everyone will overlook this person. Sadly, the servant/valet, Leporello sounds more witted and smarter and looks more attractive than Ottavio. *shrugs* That happens. lol

Don Giovanni, does he deserve to be in Hell?

Not really.
Why everything has to be a moral story? Its life. Get over it. Well, in a way, that is way the title is *Don Giovanni* and not *Don Ottavio*...

********

Necrophilia, incest and art...

2008-10-13T12:57:00.000-07:00

So I missed the performance of Richard Strauss's Salome MET, starring Karita Mattila on 10/4... however, I was able to catch HD live broadcast at a nearby movie theater. (what a good fortune. )

I brought along my young charge with me so he, might as well can experience the controversial production of biblical story.

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I have this story in my mind for a long time since Akhet and I were working on our poses. It is just that ... kind of difficult to sever my head, even in SL, and display on the silver platter as the story... so I have to come up with the pose *before the beheading*...

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As for the dance of seven veils... I don't think La Mattila was completely naked...

I said this before, and I say it again...

2008-10-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

Hot Schrott is .... ummm
Hot.

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Random thoughts:
Erasing the blog entry (or entire blog, for that matter) does not erase your stupidity.

[The word of the day]
{Cached},
or cached pages on google

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Anyways.

Since I have nothing else to think about, might as well talk about *my hot Schrott*.

(*Contents omitted* )
for the sake of general public, who may not have the time nor patience to read all the blurbs about *my hot Schrott* the topic of the day.

So I'm still mesmerized by his beautiful profile and his dangerously delicious smooth voice, I am now seriously considering flying to Spain for his Performance of Faust in Valencia, during the Presidents day weekend, just to see him.
No sightseeing, no shopping. Just Schrott.

As my friend Warspite joked, I am not sure how long I can support my jet-setting opera groupie ways without selling my Steinway B grand piano... which is probably worth about 60K $, considering all the work done to it.
(Not just for chasing Schrott, the year 2010,2011 will be bi-centennial cerebration of Chopin and Liszt's birth, which means that likely I will be wandering around Europe for those special commemorative events and concerts...)

I am not exactly poor, however, I am far from rich as to be able to come and go as I please, it takes some plannings smarts and wits.

But at the end, what it takes to make our life rich is not the amount of money we have.

My ability to appreciate arts (humanity, in reality) is a gift I was born with, and no one can take that away from me.

I may lose a limb one day and may not be able to play the piano, or violin in the future, but I would still be able to appreciate the beauty of it. There might be an unforeseen time of crisis that I never prepared for, and I may lose all my material comforts i enjoy.

Would that be the end of my life?
No.
My love for life is something beyond money and the material luxury.

I would still be the rich, jaded incubus.

So Fred was checking out Opera hunk in New York

2008-10-05T17:16:00.000-07:00

You thought I do not have real life?

Oh I have one, I just don't kiss and tell... except on few occasion that calls for special treatment.
Yesterday was one.

I would never imagined this when I met leyla about 2 years ago. It was even before the Transylvania, but I was trying to clean up the SL drama, and she came and listen to what I have to say. Since then, the trust between us developed and fastened.

I wanted to meet leyla and solis, both one of the best friends in SL, for leyla 's special , personal occasion. I chose Metropolitan Opera's production of Don Giovanni, and invited two gorgeous vampires into his reserved box, close to the stage. (We experienced a small set back on first half of the performance, but it was quickly remedied by house manager of Met opera, and we were invited to the 4th row from the stage.)

Oh the performance was breathtaking. Quite literally.

Divine Erwin Schrott ripped his shirt open and stripped off of it in first 5 minutes.
It was worth every penny-though it was pretty penny, the most memorable thing in my life for two points.
I was with two best friends I have never met till then.
They enjoyed the opera as much as I did, and I was able to give the great experience to them.
Chocolaty smooth, dangerously sweet Bass baritone should be shared...

After that, we went back to leyla's lair, I was still in endorphin high. You have heard the expression, it is better than sex. Well, Schrott's Don Giovanni was just that.
(It's been five days, its getting excruciating that ecstasy still tailing off but not really gone. I can see that how addiction starts.)

Lemme tell you.

leyla and solis are one of the most genuine ladies I have known. How the life can be turned colorful and meaningful by few good friends.

Many in SL knows me know that I do not cross the boundary between this life and the other. But this time, I had to make an exception, and it was the right choice.

yes, I always make my own rules and break them.

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I am an incubus. I know why the rake did not repent even when he was faced with the ghost of his past.
(For those who do not know, I'm refering to the climax of Don Giovanni.)

By the way, my notches on my belt and my bed post has been all too full, and I could not resolve that issue for a quite some time now. But I think I found the solution...
The RED BOOK! The cataloge of women.(... well and men, and in between.)

Well, Don Giovanni has 2065 pages... I am not sure how many more to catch that record.

Seduction Theory--blame it on opera hunk...

2008-09-25T22:11:00.000-07:00

Seduction Theory

Every now and then, it comes along something to excite jaded incubus... this time, this bare chested opera hunk - Erwin Schrott.

I was one of those *cool kids who does not like Opera* even though I like the rest of the forms of classical music... What has changed ?

Opera is the closest things we can experience the good old days of Amadeus and Franz, mingling with Princesses and Emperors, dukes and countesses...
However until recent years, the classical music industry ignored to feast the eyes of the audiences and turned into snobbery on parade of flashing techniques without the lust for life.

How can I be seduced when the leading seducer weighs pushing 220lbs?

Brad Pitt cannot be Brad Pitt if he was just a talented actor with extra weight. Everyone knows that.
And finally Opera got that part down.
(They got the Angelina Jolie part down ages ago... It must be the sexism.)

So finally, semi nude loves scenes and in Vivaldi's case, hunky tenor with full frontal nude... and finally the pretty baritones for Don Giovanni.

I wonder if he would sing Faust in the future ...

Opera finally found the guy who fit the role of the most seductive libertine ever.

I would not mind if he'd play my role... :D

(I will be in NYC next week by this time. I am planning to ensnare two vampires from Transylvania. Where? At the Opera, of course. )

Haven't been around much in SL

2008-09-21T11:21:00.001-07:00

for purely personal reasons which I refrain from discussing in public.

Just let you know that its not like serious health or family reasons, however, it takes the priority higher than playing games.

I should be able to come in one to two days a week, but that would be the best I can for next few months. I continue to check my messages daily and conduct store related businesses.

I dont like to rent shopping mall

2008-08-25T16:36:00.000-07:00

I receive a lot of notecard/ spams from random mall owners. I really want to report spam to LL but since those spam never follow up on the offer, so all I have to do is ignore and likely receive second spam from same business. (I doubt that any of them survived two months. )

However, I read the offer. Often generic and boring. It is unclear that who is the owner, why I would trust them enough to have business with them, etc etc. If it is a business, they should treat themselves as such. I check the sender's profile, and they are near blank or newly created avatar. I was not born yesterday.

Then, I have read mall owners on some forums that they dont have to cator to creators, nor worship those business owners who rent their space... because it is a business and they have to make money, too. LOL wow what a concept.
HOw ignorant and immature to the point of naivete. Yes it is a business, so you have to make an effort to negotiate and make a deal. If that is the *catoring* and against their business philosophy, then they are in the wrong business. LMAO ROFL.

We, as a business owners ask for free rent for few weeks, if we are not the one asking to rent. We ask for free prims, because we know how to negotiate. We ask for discounts, because that is how the business works. We compare the price with other mall and ask for price match. Of course, we do.
That is not asking for charity or favor. THAT IS THE POINT OF THE BUSINESS.
They do not have to take that personally. All you have to do is make a counter offer. If you think 4 weeks free rent is too much, then make a counter offer of 2 Free weeks. We may counter counter offer for 3. You may or may not want to do that, because having an empty mall does not create4 new traffic.

As a experienced shopper, I avoid shopping malls. If I do search for certain creator, and if that person has few location to choose from, I pick main store, which rarely located in shopping mall.

If my choice is limited to shopping mall and I can't find the store where I landed. Then... LISTEN to this... I will leave. YES. IF I see the tp machine where I landed. I will at least wait for it to rez, but that is all I would do.

So, other business owners. Check your rented location. Tp to the shopping mall you are rented. can you find your location where you landed? If the answer is No, you should stop rent that mall.

It has nothing to do with worshipping creators nor catoring store owners. It is about making your business worth to the shoppers and renters.
Simple is that.

Note to self...

2008-08-24T21:00:00.000-07:00

checkout all the new fonts I acquired today in photoshop.
maybe work on new logo
work on future plans
work on matching cuff for selected collars
work on this to do list.
make sure I am on other people's to do list...

Ppl who can't spell their own store...

2008-08-20T13:17:00.000-07:00

Amateurish incompetent merchants and business owner in SL is plentiful. I understand that not everyone is coming from business background or had any experiences or even basic knowledge of marketing.

That is fine.
You study, learn gain experience, observe others... etc. There are a lot you can do.
But how much you do those things, sometimes lack of incompetence would hurt themselves from ground up.

For instance, *spelling*...

Let's get real here.
You put your store brand name in your profile or blog, but none of those brand name is spelled correctly.
(It is not the matter of proper naming/branding. I think... ) Choosing the words that misspelled frequently for your brand is not a good idea to start with, but that brand, if YOU can't even spell those not even once correctly... how do you expect your customer or potential client to find you?

I have seen profiles and advertisement after another, that the owner themselves can't spell their own business... Store signs says *Frederick's*, the profile says *Fredrick's* and your blog says *Frederic's* ... and the vendor box for one product says "Frederich's".
(The example are not real. To protect the person from shamed in public.)

It is cute when 5 year old kindergartener can't spell his own name on his home work.
It is not even funny, a couple of grown adults can't find the mistakes at all, but making those mistakes over and over, profile after another blog after another, vendor after another... SAD.

Nothing to do with experience or knowledge of business.

Common sense.

Am I bitching? NOT AT ALL.

I am jumping up and down with joy, because there are so much less competition there.
Throw in some giggle, too.

ToKon(Xcite!) -New Bondage system ... WOW!

2008-08-19T11:54:00.000-07:00

WOW...

I do not easily impressed about anything as you know. But this, I have to say I AM impressed.

Xcite! (TM and C, disclaimer etc etc) is known for pixel body parts and bondage collars, but they just updated the whole Bondage system with HUD based control.

But this is not just a new products. This new concepts are intriguing, and instinctive. You have to learn the function first, but watch the tutorial Video on the title link. Even you do not play pixel bondage, you will be impressed what they can do.

I think Xcite had been one of the best toy in SL around, and for now, they opened the whole new ideas for the pixel toys.

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*New concept - Positioning(watch the Positions Tutorial)

Those prim body parts are not just for pixel sex with 12 options anymore. With this bondage HUD system, body parts are just a small percentage of the whole system. For that matter, we can totally ignore the sex part.
there are whole bunch of Tutorial video, but watch the one about *Positions*. This is a new function to control av position instinctively, which, up until now, only done by playing pose or animation.

With this system, you can put your own av or slave's av by controlling body parts from your HUD. Since the positioning are not scrolling through single poses, the combination could be over 20 thousand, according to tutorial. Virtually endless positions.
There are pre-loaded popular poses such as Nadu and Tower available of course, but the poses created by your imaginations can be stored as well. The days for searching and hunting for new slave poses are OVER!!!

Now, with this, even slave could crawl around without putting on crawl AO. All you have to do is go down to your hands and knees position, then move around... Voila! you are crawling to your Master/Mistress.

Slave HUD and professional Owner HUD each cost 500L. Well worth the price and then some.

I do text RP, but sometimes, confusion happens when you are explaining contorted body position of bondage play. And now, you can actually control your captive's body by restrain arm and legs and yank his head back, using HUD.
Great toys for RP in general.

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Other general stuff... You dont have to remember all the command for add-on/plug-in scripts. It is in the HUD. Now owner can control your slave logging into website as well. No additional plugin needed. Message. Yes. Chain your slave to your own tree in the back yard? Yes. All without paying for extra scripts or plugin.

You make your own collar or restraints? No problem. You can add very inexpensive script, that is all.

The most cost effective/efficient bondage system. That I can tell for sure.

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Next time, I will post pictures. :)

A day as SL mentor... in noob island

2008-08-17T21:55:00.001-07:00

Since the day I was rezzed in world at Orientation island, the process for noobs has been changed few times.

Now All of the Orientation islands are gone, and converted into Help island.

I think its better this way. They don't need two different island for initial orientations.

Usually, I will be summoned as Japanese linguist to help them early in the morning. (Evening time for Japanese ppl.)
Japanese noobs are polite so they rarely gives us any grief. But sometimes, they are so afraid of asking questions or bothering mentors, they are in a hurry to walk away even though they didnt understand the answer I gave them. LOL

Many mentors takes personally when noobs do not respond to greetings, but they are simply not realizing that anyone would talk to you in the first place.

I remember the first day, it took some courage to say hi to those total pixel strangers wearing mentor tags. But they match me with resident who would help me get started with basics. I still in touch with the dude. :) Now we do not introduce noobs to experienced residents. I wonder why.

LL is wondering what they can do to retain new residents, and they can't seem to find the solutions. Introducing noobs to similar interested experienced residents can be a great way to promote retention I think, but well. You know how they are.

I dont know. If I'm motivated enough to help LL, I might make a suggestions.

Mozart digital music, critical notes...etc

2008-08-11T18:21:00.000-07:00

(title will take you to the digital music site portal)

I have been waiting for such sites for a long time, and this can be the best source for any classical musicians, students and scholars.

The source material is from Baerenreiter, which is well known for critical urtext editions in the world.

I, personally own couple of Baerenreiter urtext editions of several composers.
(Each composers have critical editions from different publishers, and for Baerenreiter's I choose them especially Franz Schubert's works. and I know when it comes to Mozart, this edition can be one of the best source available for scholastic purpose to this day.Each publisher has strength for certain composers or purpose. Some editions/publishers are known for inexpensive editions but no critical notes were included, and cannot be a good source for scholastic purpose. Some, known for the quality of the prints and integrity. So we choose the edition fit particular purpose.)

Of course, the ones you seriously performing those compositions or learning, has to purchase printed edition, it is unavoidable despite the expense. However, learning chamber music or parts you do not play and/or to learn orchestral pieces, or to learn critical notes not available from other editions, this digital editions can be *god's gift* to us, starving musicians.

Mozart's music is one of the gift of all humanity has to offer. And this digital edition enable access to his composition to everyone.

(I wonder if they have Bach compositions... I have to check their link, later.)

warm summer night

2008-08-08T06:42:00.000-07:00

of funny turn of events, Fred encountered two women in one warm summer night. He knew one of them was a demoness.
I do not think it was punishment of any crime that he committed, although it resemble one. To Fred, I think, it was more like a sport of some kind. What do I know. He is just too twisted to be measured in an ordinary scale.

That took place in a open courtyard. The platform was built and the pole was installed at the center.

Some who watched from the side thought Fred was out of his mind, and understandably so. The demoness is known to thrive from fear and pain of their victims. And Fred did not know what she could do to him. It was a dangerous game, if he was thinking it was a game.

The lure of two beautiful women showering their attention solely on him so enticing? Probably.
In fact, the adoration poured onto him was more than enough to make him intoxicated from a surge of endorphin and other biochemicals... who needs pharmaceuticals anyways.

From false sense of security or lack thereof, he let one of the women blindfold him without any resistance, and he received few strikes across the cheek by both women, not long after his cheek started form bruises and welts he was brought to the center of the platform and his bound wrists hang awkwardly from the pole.

He did not know what to expect next. the scent of two women circling around, the sense of warm air stirred near his exposed flesh, a caress or a fast strike, either way he would suffer...

I got this schedule. :))

2008-08-07T14:01:00.000-07:00

Friday August 15th
8pm-10pm
Fang Bang Presents "Altapalooza"

I solemnly claim the origin of the idea. *nods sagely

Fred will not be there. LOL (yup, he is still banned. ) but of course I received the invitation nevertheless.

Funny feeling. You are banned but not forgotten, moreover, you are missed.

I have that effect.
People who knocked out of my graces but had kept their eyes on my comings and goings, though I am not that dangerous as they think I am. I also kept this outlet for those who are not capable of communicating with me directly in person, so they can kiss my holy relics or have a glimpse of my life.
*extends the ringed finger
"... you may approach..."

(yea. Here, you kneel and bow to me and say "We are not worthy!" )

And for ley,
I always make an exception. (And you damn well know what it is!)

hahahahaha

Alas, poor Yorick!

2008-08-04T08:34:00.000-07:00

First Clown:

A pestilence on him for a mad rogue! 'a pour'd a flagon
of Rhenish on my head once. This same skull, sir, was, sir,
Yorick's skull, the King's jester.

Hamlet:
This? [Takes the skull]

First Clown:
E'en that.

Hamlet:
Alas, poor Yorick! I knew him, Horatio, a fellow of infinite
jest, of most excellent fancy. He hath bore me on his back a
thousand times, and now how abhorr'd in my imagination it is!
My gorge rises at it.

(Hamlet Act5)

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I decided against putting on Tudor/Elizabethan costume. I would look ridiculous in tights... So here it is. An anachronism takes over.

Voice of an angel with a technique of a devil

2008-08-04T08:23:00.000-07:00

Countertenor Philippe Jaroussky

I cannot add anything to say.

new wig

2008-08-01T13:00:00.001-07:00

I found new wigs that are without bangs, and still works with my av.

For those of who insists on being "Looking like 'me' in RL" - how useless and irrelevant the notion could be and I personally think that those people just put the same color hair and height but they make a better looking version of themselves. For that matter, they are as vain as I am.*smirks I hate people can't admit that to themselves.- here, my hair usually looks boring as this.

Last time, I got red dye, but it washes out in a week or so. Ashy dark brown with faded blond highlights.

My wardrobe is boring as it gets.

Black T-shirt, Jeans, barefoot. I know I do not need any more pairs of jeans nor black t-shirt, however, it seems to accumulate each season no matter what. And I hate T-shirt... ... *sighs

The glasses. I have that black frame glasses, too.

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there. the blog actually about me. lol

limited capacity...

2008-07-31T12:41:00.001-07:00

Just because you are talked about in public, that does not mean you are important person, nor you are respected.

I know this is so obvious to anyone with average intelligence, but in this you tube/blog/internet/reality Tv age, many started to misunderstand this *quasi 15 min of fame* as respect or in some case, mistaken for some self importance.

Yea just because Paris or Hulk will be on TV or people's blog, doesn't mean they are respected.

Just because I write about my observation of some losers in here, it does not change they are losers. Just because I talk about some general observation does not change some stupid person suddenly gain intelligence and/or interesting, creative mind.

*snorts

Hey, I never said I am important. You reading my blog does not make me important, nor make you important.

The fact is that you can't live without reading my blog, does not dumb me down.
The fact is that I am the one writing it, not you.

Everyone but oneself is at fault... the victim psyche.

2008-07-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

This kind of psychiatric display just gets to me even since I was a child.

The early memory probably I was 3 or 4 years old, and there are lots of children around me who cries to get out of everything. Because once the little child cries, all the adults think s/he needs to be protected and comforted, without investigating the cause.
And I hated that my friends just cries about everything and basically the fun stops there, because their parents take them away.

I was way above my age of understandings and logics of things, and at the same time I was not aware that all other kids do not develop as fast as I am. So, to me, I could not understand why these kids maybe sometimes year or two older than I am cries about something stupid.
Then, I started to dislike that behavior, because those children get out of everything by becoming victim of every fucking single circumstances.
Oh they didnt need to explain. Adults never expected them to, because they are only children.

When I was angry, I had strong reasons. I had a good logic to explain clearly my displeasure. I was able to explain what causes the chain of events and chain of action and reaction, and what displeased me in articulate words.(I am sure for a 4 year old..)

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So, I was repelled from all those girls that cries at school, just because they can't do simple thing, or someone said something *mean.

I hated those passive offensive people. They do not explain what was wrong, nor admit the wrongs they did. In stead , they just cried and becoming or play victims.

I had friends like that in elementary school, middle school, in highschool.

Was that only because the child didnt have maturity to cope?

I hoped so, but it was not.

There are people like that when I was 19, 23, 26,31 ....

And there are still people like that. And I am fucking 44 years old.
There are 35, 46,49,53, on and on....

They never learned to look at themselves and what is *wrong with themselves*. So everything gone wrong in their life are everyone else's fault but theirs.
They are on welfare. They never able to keep stable relationship. The children are delinquent. They got fat. They are on meds. They spend money they don't have.
It is the other one's fault when you are single parent.
It is everyone's fault, when you can't keep a stable relationship.
It is everyone's fault, when you can't find jobs.

You know what I think?

I think they deserve that life.

Oh I know what they going to say.
It must be my fault that they are psycho.

Coma

2008-07-25T10:25:00.000-07:00

Meh...

I was busy yesterday, and by the 6pm, my brain was unable to process the info took in. I was staring at the TV channel 100(which shows 3 minutes loop previews of current movies over and over) for a while, not knowing what you were supposed to do. (Usually change the channel to whatever you want to watch.)

The similar symptoms continues while I'm online. I am reading article on some current topics on some news page, which I am sure, I meant to check on some particular article. Yet, I was just staring at the page presented and could not comprehend what it was said nor what I meant to do with that website.

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I was able to get out from the bed around 7:25 am, but again, I sat on the couch for a few hours. "Oh. I know. I have to make some coffee... "

I made coffee, had about 3 cups... then I heard garbage track driving around.

"Meh... it can't be Friday..."

And so it is.

Enthralled

2008-07-24T09:56:00.001-07:00

We were working on the sets of poses out of our own sheer OCD tendency...
She made these poses from scratch.

There are whole bunch of poses design to bound women, but rarely designed to fit male. It is not about equal opportunity. Simply, the thought of stronger male put female who are submissive to begin with, in binding, is simply becoming a turn off.

Strong alpha male, putting submissive weak female, is nothing out of the ordinary. It is boring. It is just too easy.

You know how twisted and how jaded I am.

**so after 4-5 hours of kneeling, we were satisfied with the scene results, tentatively, I have to say.

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You have to understand that the male in this scene is not a willing slave. He fought, till he was the only one left standing, or left alive. He was bound, dragged down to the dark dungeon where the rotted corpse of victims strewn, smell of dried blood and human hide mingled with musty, humid air.
At the foot of the stone throne, he saw the skulls of former warrior like him, probably had the same fate as he was, surviving the killing field, only to be killed slowly after the one last pleasure was given...

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Creating something out of our own imagination is very satisfying.

(Yea after several hours of fiddling creative juice, my brain shuts down all of a sudden while rping... >.> )

I learned few things about those altaholics and...

2008-07-23T10:05:00.000-07:00

But I'm not tellin'... (don't you love the suspension?)