Everyone but oneself is at fault... the victim psyche.

This kind of psychiatric display just gets to me even since I was a child.

The early memory probably I was 3 or 4 years old, and there are lots of children around me who cries to get out of everything. Because once the little child cries, all the adults think s/he needs to be protected and comforted, without investigating the cause.
And I hated that my friends just cries about everything and basically the fun stops there, because their parents take them away.

I was way above my age of understandings and logics of things, and at the same time I was not aware that all other kids do not develop as fast as I am. So, to me, I could not understand why these kids maybe sometimes year or two older than I am cries about something stupid.
Then, I started to dislike that behavior, because those children get out of everything by becoming victim of every fucking single circumstances.
Oh they didnt need to explain. Adults never expected them to, because they are only children.

When I was angry, I had strong reasons. I had a good logic to explain clearly my displeasure. I was able to explain what causes the chain of events and chain of action and reaction, and what displeased me in articulate words.(I am sure for a 4 year old..)

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So, I was repelled from all those girls that cries at school, just because they can't do simple thing, or someone said something *mean.

I hated those passive offensive people. They do not explain what was wrong, nor admit the wrongs they did. In stead , they just cried and becoming or play victims.

I had friends like that in elementary school, middle school, in highschool.

Was that only because the child didnt have maturity to cope?

I hoped so, but it was not.

There are people like that when I was 19, 23, 26,31 ....

And there are still people like that. And I am fucking 44 years old.
There are 35, 46,49,53, on and on....

They never learned to look at themselves and what is *wrong with themselves*. So everything gone wrong in their life are everyone else's fault but theirs.
They are on welfare. They never able to keep stable relationship. The children are delinquent. They got fat. They are on meds. They spend money they don't have.
It is the other one's fault when you are single parent.
It is everyone's fault, when you can't keep a stable relationship.
It is everyone's fault, when you can't find jobs.


You know what I think?

I think they deserve that life.


Oh I know what they going to say.
It must be my fault that they are psycho.