Breakdown moment

This piece is not even my favorite.

I totally wept for a while listening to this.

The execution of the piece was so evocative and so pure, as always with the case with Gould,

yet so unfamiliar of the emotion that I was experiencing.

There was nothing I could do but to sit and wait till everything was over.

There are no artist left alive today who can play like this.

Only once before that I have experienced similar emotion.

But she was a 8 months old baby, who touched a piano for the very first time in her life.

Her mom and I watched her eyes widen in sheer bliss and joy, pressing her tiny finger into the huge

black machine in front of her in amazement.

The baby had no intention to please anyone.

Just her, and magic machine that makes beautiful sounds on her command.

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By the way, I always thought Gould was talking to Bach through his piano.

Just him, his Steinway (his chair, too-He never played without his chair)

and the composer he never met.

There were no audience, no listeners.

Perfect Score + extra credit and nightmares

I just finished my performance final.

Perfect score + extra credits. (Extra credits for letting my professor choose two pieces to perform for her, instead of two of my own choices. )

I don't have to suffer weird nightmare for awhile.

Seriously, in last few nightmares:

I have been smited by Liszt in his practice room.

Some dude who was suspiciously looking like Guy Pierce professed his dark secret love for me, (Don't ask. All I could see that was painful situation for him to admit that he has thing for a man, and letting others to know.)

Or a girl I picked up at shady club where dealing illegal pharmaceuticals and prostitution, turned out to be a shemale, however Fred the person he is, not even flinching at the sight of...um(Edited for contents~) then got on to business... She was wearing turtleneck red dress, and Fred thought she looked like the actress in movie Underworld.

I never had that kind of vivid dream with all sorts of details.

I have to go to my dentist, so I can't analyze my nightmare right now. I will add if I get to it.

Additional item on my fetish

There were comment posted by my reader warspite, on the entry below.

Frederic Prevost's fetish

5. messing with inane people's minds
6. telling it what it is
7. making people gnaw their legs off because they cannot get you

yes... pretty much.

The biggest mistake on the part of "inane people" in Second Life is this:

They are mistaken that they are protected by Geneva Convention while they are playing some virtual characters.

And then, they realized that there are no protocols in Geneva Convention for the humanitarian relief of fake characters... they try to blame it on Fred.

The fact: Inane or not, the logic applies to everyone. Surprise!

"Blame it on Fred!"

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I have a Final exam on dictation tomorrow.

(I just came back from the Final Exam. I think I got everything correctly. Perfect score. A+. It really sucks that I got -0.5 on one of the sight reading quiz. Every other quiz, online quiz, Mid Term, were all perfect scores on this unit. Actually, I have one more performance Final on this unit on next Tuesday. I am prepared and confident about the subjects on performance, so it will not be a issue.

Although she is not my Music theory 101 professor, she also teaches the different section, therefore I asked her opinion on my first composition. She answered me a couple of minor notation questions, corrected few notations for different voicing, and gave me fictitious A+ on my composition Final Project, if I was in her section. Not only that, she suggested that I should keep this piece for the projects in advanced music theory, because some of the musical elements that I included are only covered in intermediate and advanced classes. Yay --Too bad, my professor decided not to do any composition project, citing the reason that too many of my classmates are not yet to be capable to fulfill all the requirements.

She explained some analysis on my own composition to me, and told me that I should continue relying on my ears, since I already have enough grasp of musical expressions and knowledge, vocabulary to compare to. If it makes sense, you are doing it right. Sometimes, it is just as simple. )

Spring Semester

In the comment by Lord Diglett about my college classes... Yes, definitely, my college music class started really slow.

However, after all of 15 minutes of soul searching (lol) I decided to pursue degree in music. Next semester, I will be a half time student, with 4 units of theories, 1unit of performance with private piano lesson, and maybe Swimming or class voice I. 1 unit each.

As long as I keep up with those 6 units, I will be qualified for some grants, too. As you know, coffee won't be covered, but 150$ of free money? I'm not complaining.

With all these severe budget crisis, only one class is offered to almost any level and any subjects. Professors would be left no choice but to drop students who doesn't show up on classes.

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Piano Accompanist who works for the classes agree to take me as his piano student, and since he comes to school, we can do the lessons on campus, which is very convenient for me. I kinda feel bad he only charges 20$ per lesson... as you know, my coffee cost more... ... ...

******ACK, eeeee! I just saw Stravinsky's almost naked picture! He was in sagging speedo... ***

(Downside of dual monitor!)

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my kinks and fetishes...

Hmmm, there are lot of hints through out my blogs, but there is no summary in here, huh...?

In short, I am not sure myself. Everyone knows I'm not vanilla, but other than that, there aren't much of particulars are there?

So I just list several that has not changed ever since I was a little kid.

1. dude with long hair. Liszt (heart eyes) to Ted Nugent... what can I say.

2. boots and gloves

3. some sort of restraints. ---The one I really like is that metal loop on the wall which could be used with anything. I wish I could install one in my room. I need some sort of bracer for the structure.

4. certain music

See?

Please add if you can think of something that I have not remembered.

Forum and what not.

So I joined the message board/forum of certain book series.

The place is very well moderated, and ppl are engaging in all civil and friendly manner. Since the main subject of the discussion is almost always about the creation of the author, you would think that topics would very limited...

Wrong!

Some ppl are as you may imagine, almost function as walking encyclopedia for the whole series, not only that, those ppl has list of links of quotes by authors who posted in online book dealer's webpage.

Man, I had this burning question about one of the book from the series, and I could not deny the feeling that same notion could have felt by at least some of the readers out there. That was the main reason I joined. If I was totally satisfied with the story, I wouldn't have been.

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There are individual board on each books, and boy, "I didn't like the book, although the main character is my favorite one from the series" comments are in sticky... LOL

Anyways, I will not reveal the series name here. That is my guilty pleasure for now.

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Second Life? ...... i do not have any motivation to log in at this very minute.

I tried to construct web profile for second life, but it is turning out to be a more than a challenge. I just don't have enough concentration on learning yet another format of blog/website (using wordpress this time) . Oh no, I'm not making this new one my blog. This one will stay here as it is.

The purpose is to paste the link to my profile *web* tab. Well, I could have used SL profile. com, but yea................. i dont remember the login and whatever...

Jagerkinz kindly provided me with his server space, so I would think its anything goes, compared to those of PG/explicit content warning rating crap on other servers. Am I right, Jager? Otherwise, he won't be sending me hardcore graphic background for my use...

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Rant of the day, #1

Jager and I are not lovers.

Anyone who feels jealousy towards us, are idiots.

I need to get that out of the system, once and for all.

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Rant of the day, #2

Jager is a big boy. He can take care of himself, meaning he doesn't need anyone coddling him or defending him form whatever the indiscretion I supposed to be committed on him. That is none of your business, quite honestly put. Leave the man's yard to himself.

There is nothing wrong with him, and he doesn't need any fixing. AT ALL.

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I love college Music theory class. I'm kinda becoming the Diva of the class, but that is just my character. Now at least 1/4 of the class prefer to sit around me for convenience of getting a quick question answered or purely the pleasure of my company. (truly) Of course, there are ppl never sits around me and probably annoyed that I always be able to answer the difficult questions, but that is their problem. (as always)

As a matter of fact, I am always willing to answer or discuss the related matters regardless of who they are.

However, there is also my favorite whipping boy, too. LOL

He is a cute mexican kid (well, so as the most of them are.) but he has this charming, outgoing personality with lots of faults. So, he always taking my blow in the class projects.

We also have 14 year old boy who are home schooled. He lives in my neighborhood. I think I visited his mom like 6 years ago, because I heard whole bunch of violins practicing.

There is an old Mexican mariachi musician in out class as well. He is always performing, I take it that was his life work. Mariachi is a very difficult style to master, as the most of the folk arts usually are. I have a respect for him, for taking college class, although he probably doesn't require any of those at all. (Mariachi is usually passed down from master musicians to apprentices, parents to children. )

I also have respect for remaining classmates. For the most part, these are pretty new to them, and keeping up with the contents takes a lot of studying, since music theory has nothing to do with any of out daily life, so to speak.

Loving both of my professors.

They are true musicians. They give me slack when I need. Well, not that i need a lot, but they understand when I make silly mistakes, are not that I'm not studying the contents, and it is just that. They also gives me a recognition that I am actually a good student, and understand I secretly studies at home. (>.> *darted eyes)

They also patiently explain to me when I ask oddball questions. (remember, I have been a musician for a long time, so I have very practical questions that are not addressed in the book.)

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I gained a lot of weight during the last several months. I had been my heaviest. But since my sleeping pattern is disrupted, i'm losing some again. Its not physical activity that lose me my weight. Always my sleep patterns.

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I HEART Banana Republic's Luxe card.

They give me free hemming on pants.

DO you know how much I have to spend on hemming in my whole life? This is a life saver. I should always thought my height should qualify for tax break or disability, since I need alteration of almost anything. At least one clothing label recognize some useful benefit. Forget stupid points. All for free hemming service.

Entry from my laptop

Wow, i have been away for a long time. No, that is not accurate. I just didn't have nothing to post here. And this blog on PC laptop looks totally different than in my mac. Maybe I have to adjust some graphics here.

As I mentioned in my previous entry, I started a couple of college classes. Every day of the week, on 8 am, and I usually get there about 20 minutes before the class starts.

Music Theory class is not that hard, but turns out to be quite informational. It isn't quite Perfect A+, but I am able to maintain A's so far. Every now and then, I encounter something I have not seen before in my performance practice, and I thought I have very broad experience even as a musician. (Piano, violin, voice, choir, vocal ensemble, some orchestra, brass band, limited string chamber ensemble and various popular music group format.) without seeing actual scores, those theory is hard to comprehend with one liner explanation of one textbook. Maybe because there are so many ways to explain these things, I suppose. Professor also repeats that, we should put into practice, and that is the only way we learn these theory. I quite agree with that assessment.

Sight Singing 111, i was taking it only because it was co-requisite. just finished mid term. Perfect A+ so far. I think I will take next level of classes with this professor.

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LL being an idiot.
Stupid localization team announced Japanese portal, when they don't have Japanese speaking reps on toll free number. I am very understanding when it come to mixed culture, but I also have my limits on stupidity as you well all know.

Would you even consider calling 1-800 customer service number when you know they will be answered in some foreign language you don't understand, say, Dutch or Icelandic? No fucking way. But that is basically what they announced.
I called them out in both Japanese and in English in official blog. None of the LL employee responded.

On another LL blunder.
I just age verify myself with Elvis's name. Thank you, thank you very much!
Some reason, they do not reject dead people. They only match the input data with public record. Therefore, as long as the data you provide exists somewhere, regardless of that person is you or not, they will give you verification. LMAO

There is a group of ppl pointed out this loophole when the adult rating controversy started. LL's own fault, really. Their ignorance on ppl's suggestions and input, is always apparent.

Can they use this blog as an admission of my guilt? No. lol Because they have no evidence of me falsify my identity. Therefore they cannot prove it. Remember, they are the one who has burden of proof. And I may have used my real life info. Either way, they insists that they don't receive any of the private info, therefore they cannot match my account, may it be true or untrue.

There are many Elvis running around in adult sims!

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On the subject of idiot.
We should nominate Amiryu Hosoi into SL idiot Hall of shame.

She, either seriously think Shunga(19th century Japanese pornographic wood prints. Even with disclaimer I should not put that sample in here. Since my blog is not about erotic art. But if any of you want to know what I'm talking about, just google the term Shunga will give you more than enough examples.) is an art ... or anything old is an art, or anything should be permissive in PG sim, because it is 150 years old, even if it is a blatant display of copulating couple. ... ...

Bringing up once in Forum, is quite enough. Three times nearly after 4 months? I think she should get over her obsession on Japanese porn.

Decided to get rid of my sim

Let's just put this one first.
I am not having any difficulty financially. That is NOT the reason for selling my sim.


Lately, I am sick and tired of SL in general, and SL has been nothing more than a drag to me. I have always said that SL is a place I can fail and no consequences whatsoever. And this is the time.

Actually I have considered to rent the land as many people in SL do. However, the new announcement by LL about content roadmap just made me think that I can't endure any more fiasco created by the lack of planning and objectives by LL.

In short, I'm not trusting LL enough to give them 300$ of free money for no reason.

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In a few short weeks, I'm starting college classes (music. YAY! Easy A's) and I'd rather spend 300$ for my books and snacks. Even for me, 300$ for sim so I can just idle and AFK while practice my piano, doesnt worth the money.


If anyone thinks having a SL sim is some sort of status symbol like driving a luxury car, the person probably need to develop a good self esteem. As I said before, either of them means nothing to me. I used to see some value in SL, now I no longer see the same value. Simple as that.

It's kind of amusing to hear someone feel bad about me letting my sim go. They lament the work I put in, or the memory of good times they had on my sim. Sure. That was nice. But that is just them.

I pay 300$ for SL if i enjoy whatever it offers. Since it is no longer the case, I stop paying them.

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Anyways, this is your last chance to stop by and take a pic. :D

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And no, I'm not leaving SL.

Conflicts?

Warning: This is somewhat macabre post. Don't read, if you feel these kind of contents are negative.


Some people here who knows me to a certain extent already, can tell that I have a good life, fabulous living environment with enough material comforts. My immediate family members are perfectly healthy and happy.
My children are very happy, and we have great relationship. 17 year old is very mature and responsible, very intelligent, even as a young adult. His school work is meticulous, his academic achievement start to show his true talents in all areas. The important of them all is that he start to recognize his own potential (took some time to make him understand how exceptionally intelligent and capable he is; was the almost the hardest. ) I braced myself for tumultuous teenage years, but he skipped stupid and awkward antics and straight into maturity of 27 year old. I really can't find anything to be desired at this point.

9 year-old. He is the happiest child in the world. What can I say. He may not have academic achievement of his brother, but he has great, resilient character to offer. His mental strength in certain area can help his older brother in the future.
They are years apart, but also have great bond in between them and understand that, in years to come, they have each other.

Any parent would love to have such family in a heartbeat.That is what anyone wants and anyone would be working hard to achieve where I am at.

I am contributing to the community, I have a lot of good hobbies that are meaningful. I have a happy, good life, and I am a very happy person.
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Yet, there is this nagging feeling of boredom and apathy.
In a way, I need constant challenge in my life, and I suppose I overcame all the challenges of the early human life in general such as raising a healthy family or establish oneself.

Mid Life Crisis? Certainly.
I bought 60,000 $ Steinway several years ago. That is about the same sticker price of Corvette or Hummer, isn't it? (And my piano still values about the same if not more. I doubt that 5 year old Corvette has same value.)
I can play some of the great piano literature from memory, on demand, and I can impress any musician, without using any excuse such as " I only learned when I was a kid."

Yet, all those achievement seems irrelevant and trivial. I don't feel like cheering myself for having a good life. "yay me!"... seems stupid. And I loathes everyone becoming Oprah's "Yay me! I overcame my drug abuse/ obesity/ poverty/ abusive relationship/ whatever you think you don't want in your life etc etc etc.. "
I wasn't stupid so I never be in that situation in the first place.
I always know when I was a kid, that I don't get those awards, because I was already above the level of *achievement awards* that some of the kids get. "Yay, you are able to count to 20!" awards? And I never resented the fact that I was always smarter than other kids, which means i hardly ever get praise, nor teachers ever let me answer the question, when I raise my hands.
Many teachers asked questions deliberately that the most kids doesn't know, so they can sustain the classroom for some attention, yet, they refuse to let me answer, because they knew I know the correct answer of Shakespeare's "Hamlet" quote or who wrote "Beneath the wheel" or "Brothers of Karamazov" in 5th grade class.

so yea, to me, achievement is not a big deal.
I didn't even think those i described above was an achievement till recently. I thought that is no brainer, common sense stuff everyone has to do.

Having a right path is not an achievement for me. It is expected and quite compulsory.

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We sometimes see the news of a suicide by a person with full of talents and great life. And as anyone else, I always wondered what went *wrong* with that person's life.

But recently, it occurred to me that maybe there was nothing *wrong* with his/her life. All of a sudden, it came to me that you can just end your life in absolute certainty that you have absolutely perfect life.

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The society we live might think that it is a conflicted view. But I don't think so. Those views are based on the notion that death is a bad thing.

Think for a second.
Death is bad for the people who are left. It is a very selfish sentiment by the family or friends.
The who is dead is dead, and could careless what happens after. Or, rather, one can't do anything about it.

I always thought vaguely that I really don't want anyone to throw any typical funeral for me. It is stupid. Several grand for dead me? They should just discard my carrion somewhere and go to vacation or have a nice dinner.
Now, I'm sure of the reason why. I don't want anyone to feel sorry for themselves by the passing of myself. lol


It is NOT true, "death = negative, bad thing."

PPl who feel threatened by my presence... lol

In SL, I am not an obnoxious ass that giving grief to others. I am respectful, and I don't play games nor go into drama shit.
No gadgets and weapons I can use effectively in SL. I don't know how to hack other people's account, nor I don't know how to cyber stalk anyone. I'm not that geeky.

For that matter, I am not a threatening presence to anyone in SL.

Yet, there are a couple of grown man who feels threatened by my presence in their own place for whatever the reason/issues they think they have with me. In reality, I don't know either of them, and I don't talk to them either.

So, why do they asking me why I'm where I want to be, or they feel obliged to tell me to confirm what I write in this blog is truth or not?
And the ultimate amusement of the thing? They don't have a balls to come to my face and tell me what the FUCK is their problem. (One, seems to think that I am writing about him, in the article below. LOL THanks for confirmation. Sometimes, silence is golden. ) The other, apparently sent IM to mutual friend and hinted that I leave. LMAO

Why the fuck are you so afraid of ME?

Look, the fact, that just I'm not as egoistic as you nor having *I'm the king complex* like you that everyone has to like you, doesn't mean I am not reasonable nor I am going apeshit throwing drama around like you do. (No drama policy wearing thin, since you are always surrounded by fucking drama of the worst kind in SL... )

I never spilled shit inside SL, never griefed anyone, never attached anyone. So, I just dumbstrucked by the fear/negative energy I sense from you. (Yea, it sucks to be empath, but I get over it quickly.)

If you have issues with me(from fucking two years ago that you should well have been to be gotten over with.. but) say so, and I can discuss that. If you wanted me to leave for whatever the reason, all you have to do is ask. LOL It is YOUR place, and you can have your own kindom. Just as well I have my own and I have the control in mine. I was there by invitation of my friends and I wasn't bothering no one, i was minding my own shit. IF you don't like DRAMA but you seem to forget a lot that what you do is ACTUALLY the very drama you say you hate? When the man become hipocrytic or repeatedly inconsistant, the weight of his words becomes less meaningful.

Just don't send some 21 year old girl as a messenger, like some immature 14year old girls in highschool cliquey cheerleader shit, to tell me to leave.

Of course, whatever the drama you have in mind, you can keep that yourself and stay the hell out of my way. Because in honesty, I have no clue what the issue here. Either way, I'm parepared to deal with you.

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And for others who seems to be unable to read the warning and public disclaimer of this blog, and addition to that, forgetting to understand that my BLOG is out side SL, and I have constitutional right to express my opinions in here...
You *chose* to come here and read my blog. LEAVE, if you don't like what you see.
Simple as that. Squeaking about what I write in here? lol high school cheer leader shit. GO to your own clique and talk amongst yourselves. LOL


What I write here, NO ONE have any control nor say in this.

This is MY blog, and I have my RIGHTS to do so, as much as you have the same rights.

IF you are mature, grown man, you should know that you can't tell me what to do in my own domain, You are not my father. LMAO For that matter, my own 82 year old Faustian father don't even tell me what to do in my domain.

You have no fucking power over me.


Here is an idea.

Set up your own blog, and get over it.
This is not your clique bulletin board where everyone love one another.

Get
Over
IT

Here's a recap of some of the drama I was talking about

letter

How do people writes the condemning letter thinly disguised as an apology, and what they really mean...


This note card is being sent to all the Royals in regards to my stupid and unwarranted behaviuor that occured in August 2008.
I apologise for Ravenheart Armistice's behaviour and whatever part I may have partaken in it.

First paragraph after the opening.
Interesting. Meaghan apologize for Ravenheart, but not her own mistakes and indiscretions. "Whatever part I may have partaken" insinuates that, in her own mind, she does not recognize anything wrong in *HER own behavior* nor no recollection of *offense* that brought her ban. If her *sincere apology* starts with blaming someone for her own mistake, watch what follows...


He ended up ripping me off for the tune of $500 USD. So I have learnt my lesson the hard way. I also lost my fulltime job in real life as a result of the split. He never tried to repay me.

Here we go. *Pity me* paragraph.
"He ripped me 500$", but who gave him that money? Oh yes, She did. And what? How the hell she lose her RL job, because of a split from SL pixel? Possible answer? She is fucking mental, nutjob, who cannot seprate fantasy from reality. When gift was made, the recipient usually does not have any obligation to repay. It is a matter of contract. If she is thinking that giving him 500$ get her some good fuck, she should have written up a contract to hire this manwhore who lives half way across the world. I would think that 500$ does not cover the travel expense that the gigolo have to pay from his own pocket from US to Australia. I certainly would not be hired by such cheap-ass woman for just 500$.
Oh i digress. Those, just my irrelevant thoughts. My point here? What is got to do with her apology? NOTHING. Not a FUCKING thing. This is a paragraph to solicit sympathy, so she can obtain the pardon without making any consession herself.


I took my alt Carolyn Paule there because she was partnered at the time to Rune Galicia and we had a business partnership together which fell apart when he unpartnered Meaghan on the grounds he had grown bored with me. I apologise for taking her there to dance with his alt. Again I have no excuses.

Well, Transylvania people knew her alt and Ravenheart's Alt (Rune Galicia) the next day, those two were created and partnered. I have a blog entry back in July 8th '08. about alt attempting to recreate a new character only to fail in a moment it was created because of the lack of creativity, and I ended my blog entry with one prediction ;
"But it would be something to amuse about for another 2 months or so? As far as I know, those ppl are on 2 months cycle. New alts, join the new place, had a drama or two and be banned.
I swear it only takes about 2months, 3, tops.
Mark my words on it.-July 08 my blog"
Instead of going to new places, they just went back to old place, and got banned. LOL
Another interesting fact is that Ravenheart listed his gazillion alt names but Rune Galicia's name in his profile, mostly to suggest that my empathic findings are false, that he has not hide in such alt account and anyone (me) can find him in one of those alts but not Rune Galicia. (lol) At that entry appeared in his profile, probably all the officers of Transylvania already knew that was him, along with Meaghan Winthorpe's yet another alt Carolyn Paule.
She has no excuse, because she deliberately, knowingly entered Transylvania with her alt, even she knew well they do not tolerate alt.
Yet again, pity me phrase appears here. "He unpartnered Meaghan ---grown bored with me." WHO THE FUCK CARES? lol


I tried to stop him from selling his Lycan vial's on Xstreet, but he ignored me. He also refused to accept the fact he was jeopardising my position in the family. I apologise for not stopping him, there are no excuses.

Lip service.
That is not the reason she was banned. Let's just be clear. If she thinks she has influence on anyone, she is gravely mistaken. This paragraph should be read as follows. "Since I have no authority over any adult, lets just take the blame for everything and earn more points. There is nothing to lose by saying this. "


My own bloodline and one blood vials are not transferable. Even if they were, I would have destroyed them not sold them. I kept them as Obscuro was my friend prior to SL.

Again,Irrelevant. This does not earn her points because she didn't sell the prim junk.But She did not lose the opportunity to name *name*. IF she knew him that long and did not understand what is going on in this place, it is just shows her selfish point of views and her inability to grasp the concept of this place in general.

My own actions in creating a group to snub the Royals at the time, was done in anger and it was the only way I could deal with the fact I had been kicked out of the family.

I apologise personally to the Royals, Willow and Annie in particular for saying what I had said in my group charter again it was out done out of anger and was extremely childish of a grown woman to act that way.

I spend a lot more time in World of Warcraft and should I ever feel like venting I shall go there and kill things.

Boring excuses. Childish. Immature.
Remember who is writing this. This is not a teenager who are pretending to be vampire. This is a grown woman of over 50 years of age. She could have blamed her stupidity on her menopausal hormornal frenzy, tho... lol It could have been a lot better, I would think... but thats just me.


All I am asking at this stage is for me to be allowed back into Transylvania. I would be quite happy with a probationary period and should I do anything that is disrespectful to anyone, you can boot me and ban me for life. I will never ever bring an alt into Transylvania of any kind. I have not taken any alts into Transylvania since August 2008.

dun dun dun. I hope she is reading this.
I am back into Transylvania since last Friday. I kinda doubt that she wants to be back in Trans if she find me there, AGAIN, and NOT disrespectful. LOL but yea. It is just too funny of a coincidence to be this timing.


So I ask for the forgiveness of the Royals and the Transylvanians, and ask for your mercy as I know that the Royals have been gracious and forgiving before, and have let others that may have done worse than I might have done, back into Transylvania, and even the Family.(IS she serious? "~let others that may have done worse~"?) I would like just to come back to Transylvania as I have always loved it there, and I miss it terribly. I hope that all of you can truly understand what it would be like if any of you suddenly had this part of SL taken from you. I humbly request your forgiveness, and ask to be allowed to come back. If I am allowed to return, I will never disrespect the Royals or anyone in Transylvania again.

Respectfully yours,

Meaghan Winthorpe


Yeah, yeah, yeah... lol

This, was passed to the officers of Trans last week, but there is another underlining current that this letter does not suggest at all.

Transylvania is known as the oldest Vamp/goth community in SL, but lesser known fact is that some of the older members came from other online community. That is the reason why Meaghan deliberately mention obscuro's name in the above paragraph to remind all those officers that she is known the owner of this sim longer than the most.
Another drama/tabloid point is that, now, Meaghan lists her umpteeth SL boyfriend in her profile, and it is not widelyknow fact , the person is one of the oldest member of Transylvania who is just separated from his wife(I heard they are in the process of divorce in RL. According to the rumor, his wife committed adultery-!- with one of the Vamp from Trans in RL... LOL talk about drama. My rl is not that interesting. ... ... )
Ok, so what right? lol
Well, it seems that this dude offered to pay for the whole tier peyment for this month in exchange of *pardon* of her status.
I can easily imagine that Meaghan offered 300$ US to buy her status in Transylvania, because, read the top paragraph about 500$ Ravenheart ripping her off.
Raven probably did not rip her off, not in the sense that con her out, but I can make an intelligent guess that she sent him money to reconsider their *partnership* or asked him to visit her in Australia. The 500$ was to fund his trip. (Impossible, since Raven lives with his mother. LOL Yes. )
Why do I know this?
She did the same thing to me. The only reason she is not accusing me of ripping her off is that I returned her money. I think she tried to buy my friendship for about 200$. (meh, i'm that cheap? LOL)

Anyways, the apology letter arrived just after the Trans officer was asked to consider this *option* with benefit, so to speak.
Talk about pathetic.

You know what I suggested? Just accept her *donation* and keep her banned. LOL

I suppose this letter was laughed at, and circulated. Because I (remember, I 'm the bad guy in trans.) even had a hands on this notecard? which meant that this was a fair game for my blog.

Toyota of North America is owned by GM??!!!!!!LOLWUT

I was ignoring the seemingly pointless thread about GM's financial difficulty byHunter Linden because it has been an old news, and it is like discussing why the stupid people are stupid... But then again, I saw this post this morning and just couldn't stay out of it.

You can scroll back a page and read the comment by Nyala blaisdale... Ho my gawd...


"While I agree with you about the unions, the thing that you may not realize is that toyota is majority owned by, and operated by guess who? GM... to the point that the Toyota Camry is actually no more than a Chevy Impala (or is it the Malibu) with slightly different sheet metal, yet costs MORE, and is made in America by non union labor... THAT is the reason Toyota is profitable while GM goes bankrupt..."
~~~Nyala Blaisdale

Um... Toyota of North America is 100% subsidiary of Toyota Motor Co.

Camry is not sharing any platform with GM vehicles at this time.

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I explain this about three times after I saw this, and the woman still insists that Toyota of North America is 51 % owned by GM. "Ridicule and joke all you want, the fact remains... " NO no No NO NO!

The decline of US auto industry is parallel to the phenomenon of degradation of the intelligence of the educated (err... lolwut?) average Americans.

I think I wrote something about Americans totally ignorant of who is the Japanese manufacturer back in 80s trade *cold war*... that many so called self proclaimed economic patriots didn't even know Sony was Japanese Company, while they cheerfully burn the Japanese products, their prized possession being a new aqcuisition of fabulous 30inch Sony TV.
"Errr... Mike... You don't like Japanese products, right? That means if you can buy the same item from American company , you will not buy anything from Japanese Company right?"
"Hell yea. What?"
"Um. Sony... That's a Japanese Company. Morita-san runs it. (yea this was back in late 80s. ) "
"NO fucking WAY!"
"WAY, dude! So can I have it? "

Yea this is a real episode.
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I didn't imagine back then, some 20 years later, I still have this conversation with some dumb, ignorant American. I always laugh at this sort of stuff. It is just... lol comical. It's not racial, its not bias, its just fucking comical dumb shit.


GM owns the half of Toyota North America's shares... lol IF that was true, do you think they are in this deep shit?
I don't think so.

Oh Hunter Linden in my follower's box... lol

Um, you could just use your *bookmark function* to follow my blog, just as suella or beagles do. LOL

And another new anon person . :D

Both welcome to my boring blog.

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I can say one thing about Hunter Linden, tho.

He reminds me of some dudes in highschool that who never dates with the girls but strangely very comfortable hanging out with girl's clique, talking about fashions and stupid jokes that only the pubescent girls perceive them to be funny.
They are usually very geeky and that ability also apparent when they have no problem learning the latest fashion and variations of cheap fashion brands all those teenagers patronized...

What I don't understand is tho...

How can some grown man laugh repeatedly and think it is just a lighthearted comments about the same old fucking joke about cheese and knickers thrown into it... for the ... get this, folks, not once, not twice, not even three times... but like gazillion, bazillionth of time.

Can anyone explain that to me?

This week's stupid thread.

Amiryu's border line libelous cloner thread.

LOLOLOL

Her *stupid question of the week*.

The woman who claims to own the design firm in RL, and also established herself as somewhat successful owner of store in SL.
She can't seem to understand nor had ever read the LL's TOS by herself? Unlikely.

The funny part of this question is this:
1.Amiryu bringing up some old news in SL, asking the moral center of the product she didn't seem to know what it is.
2.Amiryu carefully avoids the word to be perceived as *libel* but then again, since she didn't seem to contact the creator herself to understand what the product is, it is a libelous entry in context.
3.Bringing up the words such as TOS, but then again, from her entry, no one can tell which part of TOS she said the product is violating. Person who claim to own a company do not do these type of *baseless accusation in public* , UNLESS, her stupidity serves her right. And in this case, and in Forum, as always, it does.
4.Without me, pointing her *petty scheme to put her name/banner in the forum*, the most of the comments pretty much dismissing her *self righteous question*.

Cara Ametza-It's possible to screw up like that. Either SL has a glitch and messes up, or you screw it up yourself. Things like this can happen, and responsible usage of these tools is not against the TOS. Your a bit late to gripe about it, this was hashed out weeks ago.

Ginger Glimmer-If you want to report something, report it. Be done with it. We've had this discussion about this product at least once already. Another occasion where sales went very high thanks to the added exposure here.
Can we please stop picking apart other merchant's products?

Ann Otoole-If you wish to address the issue of ethics within Linden Research Inc. in respect to content theft then the best place is on a blog Google can index and no censor can remove it.

Rene Marsaille(Creator of the products)-Amiryu, I would have told you if you asked me

Cito Karu-oh lord not again.. people whines about this product for like 30 pages not too long ago but in the end it did not violate any rules.
so here we go again
I wrote my own version since it's simple script that get's the prims parameters then rez's a new prim and makes it have same parameters.
it's nothing new and it's great I use the one I wrote to instantly mirror tortured torus's and stuff to save time.


LOL
Amiryu probably has thicker skin and bigger ego than I do. She thinks ppl in the forum are stupid dumb asses. That is the part that amuses me more than gazzilion other stupid forum threads that serves no purpose.

She doesn't care, her contents had any logic nor purpose, nor even tinge of wisdom. Put her name up there, accomplish that, making her self look stupid, or not, is not a question. In that sense, her goal oriented focus is way exceeding the ones of Suella Ember or Beagles.
Let's just say, repeating cheese is like a preschool kids who can't stop bringing in the blankie or her favorite plulshies still, at the end of the school year.
(*pets Suella's head) On the other hand, Amiryu offends everyone in Forum, even the silent readers. By not saying "You are all stupid dumbass who will comment in my thread to keep it bumped till next week."

LOL

Frederic, You have gotten crude lately...

"Frederic, you have gotten crude..."

"Have I ...?
~Frederic rubs his chin with black tinted slender fingers, his lips curved in faint but cruel smile.
... must be the crowd I'm mixing lately. I may be crude, but I'm not a coward like of those who paste my picture in their password protected forum, talking amongst themselves *AWAY* from me.

Like I said before, sarcasms and insults are art. You only achieve something when your enemy who you hate is truly dented his/her ego by your clever insults. Sarcasm and insults goes two ways,too. The one on the receiving end has to be equally intelligent to understand the depth of the insults as well. If the insults goes off and brushed off as *no value* *Oh are you done? I'm bored*, it is a clear indication of their lack of comprehension. If their insults do not go farther than the scope of picking on their grammer or semantics, it is equivalent of their inability to match your skills. There is no further discussion required.
Had they ever achieved any of that? "

"They are just afraid of you."

"And is that supposed to be my problem? And of those who lament that they had not made a *hit list* yet. Well, Either they have to be very stupid and single minded or very smart to make the list. I loathe mediocrity. I probably don't even remember who they are, it is unlikely that they would ever make it in my list. And repeating the certain dairy products day in and day out, those ppl should be banned, as well. At this point it is not even funny nor entertaining. Perpetuating the same jokes usually are the sign of weakness between their ears, wouldn't you agree? I could make other people's life much easier, if I was to be really vicious as can be, but hey, I am just a selfish elf. Who am I to worry about those good people , yes?"


Frederic and his gentleman friend laughed as they swirling their brandy in their stuffed chair...

Another classical concert preview...

(Note: I have to cancel the invitation, since we (me and my charges) are all plagued with persistent cough for weeks now... I am so bummed that the fact this might be the last opportunity to see her as a top performing artist. Oh well. )

I get to go to certain American soprano diva's concert tomorrow.

This singer, I had purchased her CD's in the past, so I have been quite curious to see the actual performance of hers. Her career as a diva opera singer was mostly behind when I moved here in US, and at that time, I couldn't afford to travel and chase her performance career.

According to the symphony musician who will perform with her, she has been very difficult to deal with, musically, as a musician and as a person. LOL (yea, that is always the case with diva.) I was already warned that, since she didn't really participate fully in the rehearsal session, can't guarantee the performance quality...

I suppose the mostly oblivious audience will be happy to see some well known performer, but the juicy story like this, is much more interesting. It sucks, that the artist starts to act out some cliche, by doing that diminishing the respect from fellow musicians. They may not have to earn the respect from *uneducated audience* but certainly, the respect from musicians who perform with them, count as something...

Just a thought.

The lesson stupid ppl may never be able to learn... #1

(OK the entry ended up nothing to do with original title so I fixed the title.)

As much as I tell it like it is, I never intent any of my entry as hate speech. If you read my entry of any kind, I never pass judgment on person themselves, mainly because I don't care, and I don't know the person enough to form any sort of opinion about them.

That has been said:

In general Forum for Xstreet (public forum), there are variety of characters who just cannot project themselves as they probably intended.

The reason for failure, mostly for
their lack of consistency (You should have learned this vocabulary by now.),
lack of control for their own emotional reaction,
lack of backbone(balls, if you may),
lack of ability to comprehend other ppl's entry,
lack of conviction when they try to deliver/articulate/execute their points IF they have one etc etc...

In short, they are just weak minded ppl, who tend to go *lynch mob mentality* whenever they see fit. Their mass psyche of sheepish followers are just too predictable to be amusing all the time, since they do not have wicked intention as some of us do. *wink, wink*
So they are just pretend to be upstanding, righteous citizen of the forum, when they are alone, and just switch to ugly troll when in numbers. WHICH, gives me the conclusion that they are fake and superficial, lacking their own conviction, and inconsistent.
Their inconsistency is apparent from thread to thread, often, only few seconds apart. That, is almost comical, since those ppl like Sleven whoever, posts righteous comment on one moment, then at the same time, go to next thread, and making the opposite comment of trolling. He also knowingly particiate in deliberate trolling, yet have audacity to call some elf(!) being a troll. LOL omg. wha?


However, there are always some exceptions to the rules... in this case, there are ppl who are deliberately being one of the dumb ass in Forum on purpose, by design, with intent on self serving objectives to achieve.
Oh, I'm not talking about drama whores and some emotional posts.

I'm talking about character such as Amiryu Hosoi, who repeatedly manipulates her posts disguising into seemingly innocent(and really dumb, but it wont look significant in forum because there are so many retarded threads anyways) questions, so just be able to put her name on the thread originator, and with it her banner on every entry she *kindly* take her time to responds to the *contributions* of *innocent-I mean in a bad way* forum readers.

Those sheepish brainless forum readers are always stupid enough to buy into her scheme every fucking single time.
So, Amiryu now posts about twice a day.

Her thread title are usually one word, to peek interests. -Her trick #1.
Her questions, so retarded, no one seems to put any opinions of their own -Her trick #2
Her answers, already prepared when she posts question, are posted some 43 minutes later from the original entry.With it, she earns her own star sticker. LOL -Her trick #3

Couple of threads by Amiryu last few days

"Salary"
Regarding some ads that business who pays 250L for 15 hours a week employment.
She pretends to be disgusted. LOL I bet that is her own ad for her sweat shop labor.
SL's emplyment always have been cents to the dollar. She knew this all too well(that is why she is in here.) yet this retarded question at this time of SL...

"Linden Trees" (or trees whatever.)
"Linden trees doesn sway on release candidate viewer. But I like my trees swaying when i'm walking thru a beautiful sim(of mine, which there are NO linden trees)"
Boohoo.
less than 50minutes later(lol) she posts how to trigger flexi on debug menu. ... Right She had that blog entry BEFORE she posted retarded *I want to enjoy "MY" beautiful second life as it was* thread. I'm not THAT narcissistic. Please.

"9465"
"6534 Is this forum record?"
LMAO both just too retarded.
The number of concurrent login for Forum. Mind you, Xstreet Forum.
Who the FUCK cares.
etc etc

Since I already pointed out a couple of times in her own thread, and she didnt even defend herself, I take it was true. lol
All she could say to me each time was: "You are gay!" insults and "Look at my blond japanese av and smile, it will take my dark clouds away!" --phailed sarcasm? ... She needs to bring her game up, if she wants to insult me.

Oh that will take me to next, much more deeper subjects.

Insults.
Please, just, ppl. Learn the art of insults. Just. Please.
I read Forum not because it is important, but because it is like TV, and sometimes, you need to watch Jerry Springer between CM time on CNN ,Fox and ESPN.

Now, you watch ESPN because professional sports are good. They beat each other up, but they do it with skills, right?

So, why do I have to suffer reading these elementary school playground insults like "your mama has outie." "you gay!"... ... ... ...

And what the fuck is wrong with all those ppl, who can't take the opposing opinions as it is. Always OFFENDED easily by just about anything. This, i know there are some silent forum reader already blogged about the subject. But I have to repeat that here, as well, since this is one of the main Forum characteristics in general.

They always have to be warm and fuzzy with everyone in their OWN clique, and anyone who is not in it, are trolled or derailed or flamed whatever the moods suit them.
And then theres ppl who are so senthitive about everything.
They would be appalled at the slight impression of sarcasm or insults for their sheep brains. Then all of a sudden they turn into trolls themselves, because they can't controll their emotional dent.

*Learn the art of insults (recommended)
*develop some thick skin, if you don' t want to be looking like some 14 year old Emo girl.
*Controll your emotions, when you engage in debate.

It just deeply amuses me when ppl make false assumption that I am trying to earn their respect or I would be insulted by barnyard mudslinging of the least sophisticated level... They make false assumption that insults by them would dent my pride because I could not earn their validation... lolwut?


Let this be known now:

I am not trying to earn their respects nor validations, therefore, also, their playground insults does nothing to my pride in a least bit.Just because they are easily offended about stupid stuff, that doesn't mean I would be.

Watch and Learn, every now and then. lol

Yet another shamless plug...

Check this idiot out.

I am not sure if I could be THIS narcissistic and self centered.

We have seen so many forms of self plug and thread for attentions, but along with Amir Hosooi's self advertisement, this got to be the most shameless personal attention seeking thread I have ever seen. Forget all those "I have terminal illness" shit.

Forum poll is one of the stupid thing you can do, and you paste your own picture, and asking the public if you are datable... pity. He has condom on his lighted keyboard, but I totally bet on the fact that the batteries sold separately.

Shameless and Stupid Self Plug on Forum

I think that in ANY sort of public forum either prohibits this by clear forum rules or enforced deletion of the posts.

However, when the poster gets cocky and start their self advertisement thinly disguised as a legitimate Forum Topic, only gives me the reason to pound on that poster. Lemme tell you.


Apparently, some Forum readers were amused to read all my bantering.

Observant blogger. But just don't announce that I was speaking up for all the Forum readers... Come on. Moi? No way. lol
This would totally affect my reps, seriously, Jager.

I really wonder who this Ami Ho sooi, tho. Her products are just recreation of RL objects which I totally doubt that she created. (LOL they are Japanese crafts and traditional objects. )

Totally stealing the design of others/real life creators. It may or may not be punishable by law, but yea.

She trying to insult me by asking me if I have created anything to look at... LMAO Girl, she should remember that I am 100% Japanese who can trace up to 7 generations in Traditional Japanese families of which, some of the branches are Bushi(Samurai) Caste. My mother was accomplished craftswoman of traditional kimono fabric dye technique and some traditional weaving. My mother and my step grandmother were both Certified Mistress of Tea celemony, my home in Japan has traditional tea rooms, and I am well versed in knowledge of Japanese arts, crafts, culture and architectures.
Yes, things Ami makes and sells in SL. (Now... I am really not sure she is the one really makes those stuff. To me, the vast output of her products are too industrial to be made by just one person... I am suspecting that there are whole bunch of slave designers and virtual creators in her windmill warehouse in holland ... LOL yea My imagination. )
Does she really want all out war with me?
I think not. I don't think she is paid enough. LOL

You think you can sell your sim for over 10K US$?

LMAO

I was browsing thru SL related business websites. There are many businesses that open inside SL as Solution Provider or Community Gateways.

Either of them, in short, advertise themselves as such and basically solicit business. Community gateways also provide individual new residents a broad choices of where to start, in addition to LL welcome/help island.
Anyways, I was looking at one of those websites and one of them tells us that their business offers services for "Appraisal" of their sim's worth.

And the example shows us that it will be up to 10,000$

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How ever you look at it, I just can't think of any *sim* that worth that amount in SL right now. I am not talking about selling a turn-key established business. I'm talking about *private Estate*.

If anyone who has been in SL, that sort of amount is like joke that no one believes, nor taken seriously. If anyone wants to get in SL as business, and believing they can sell their sims after they *developed* a sim for that price... they are dumbasses that who can't even sell lemonade in front of their houses.

LOL

It's not like real life land development, which can add almost any amount of value by landscaping, building a house, whatever... SL sim has nothing to do with *developing a sim*. Any owner who buys sim WILL develop in their own specification, therefore what you hav e *developed* has little or no meaning to the new owners.
(Very few exception in the past. )


Why do they have to mislead potential new client?
They may think that buying a sim for 1500$ would be a bargain, while the market probably let you buy any sim for around 350-600$.
If the purchaser is lead to believe that they can sell them for 10K US$ in time, that would be a gross neglect or intentional dishonest practice on the advertiser's part.


SL is a land of crooks.

I just noticed about people in Forum...

1.They try to get my attention.

2.They try to get my approval.

3.They want me to know *their* truth (lol).

4.They want to convince me that they are smart.

5.They try to troll me so they can type my name "Frederic". It looks better than trolling "Beagle"

6.They try to obtain *my validation* by trying to convince me that their rhetoric has some logic. (LOL)

7.They try to piss me off by saying *Boring* */me yawn*... because they can't come up with anything smarter to say.

8.They try to convince themselves by making me *boring* ... is somehow change the reality that they are still not funny/interesting/smart/whatever... (LOL

9.They don't care what I presents, regardless of the fact that it is the truth that they know it is the truth. They just want to read what they think I say, and never be convinced otherwise. They get offended when the truth is harder for them to bear. They suddenly becomes illiterate.

10.They just love to repeat the name Frederic.
If they start their post with addressing my name "Frederic... " they think their post may look intelligent or something. (... unno) You know, certain French name always sounds better than ordinary sounding English name? If my name was *Bob*, I totally doubt that I get this many trolling or verbal challenge. (ROFLMFAO)


mmhmmm *nods sagely

The reality is cruel, and at the same time beautiful

I just came back from watching special engagement by MET opera HD, presents "The Audition"-Film by Susan Froemke.

This is a documentary about aspiring opera singers, who are semi finalist of 2007 Metropolitan Opera National Council Auditions. Especially focused on several of them from semi final to the final on.

There were winners, one of the singer who are on his life's turning point, with financial difficulty, suffering bankruptcy and what not, just coming back from three years of absence from singing. As being 30year old singer, this was the last, make or break opportunity for him, Ryan Smith pursuing his dream.

The bitter sweet real life drama.

He won by triumphant performance. More than that, right after that phenomenal singing, he tells the camera that he did what he came here for. And his exhilarating expression tells all of us that he, himself was not expect anything from it. It didn't matter the outcome but it was personal triumphant that mattered to him.

He won.

He got to perform on MET with veteran star such as Thomas Hampson, but all of the audience were informed on the credit scroll that he passed away from cancer last Nov 2008.

Was that the tragedy?
Not really.
He pursued and achieved something that many would ever be. He reached where many only dreamed to be. In that note, I think it was a story of triumph. Not about the life cut short by cancer.

The artist is always remembered by his art. Not how he died.

LOL some annonymous forum reader

both of you. I see you you are lurking around Thanks for Contributing to my Traffic.
R, and E. :) Welcome anyways. Bring in more friends/cliques/mignions... More traffic for me.None for you.

So just you (Ewan and Rival, and others in the clique) know, my blog has general disclaimer set by Blogger/google that this is not for little kids who can't take the criticism. As just you quote me, you have a choice to read or not, and use X button above. You cant really bitch about what I said, because you are entitled to my opinion in MY BLOG, because you choose torture yourself by choosing to read it. I have legal rights to say whatever. This is not Forum governed by some other entity. This is personal. You are invited to read it *on your own discretion. I have no obligation to cater to your taste, AT ALL.

So, here is what you can do.

Read the disclaimer, understand what it means, read MY disclaimer on top of this page, and understand what it means, read the first amendment of the United States, and understand what it means. Then continue to read what you want, not what I really said (many are seems to be incapable so I have noticed.)
This is not about what it says in my blog. You are howling at the wrong trees.
or, continue to come here, read my blog, continue to contribute to my blog traffic. I will totally appreciate you coming here and contribute that in that aspect more than anything. LOL *bows

And watch & learn, mister/miss smartasses.

Blog is to attract attention/stir controversy so we can bring in more traffic. So you working for my blog, by putting a individual thread(trolling or not) on me, IMing your friends to read and make them into the clique of your own, make them come to MY BLOG, I totally didn't expect but welcome with everything.

So, any of you, just curious, or thinking that Rival/Ewan is sincerely have everyone's emotional/ethical rightousness in mind-which is not. They are just another cute little trolls. They are just a bit uglier than me. :D

As for them, making a equally personal/pathetic(let's just make it clear, I know my blog is pathetic and I never said my blog is better than anyone's .Nor this is unbiased journalism. Have I? lol LMAO) blog, thats their legal rights, and I totally approve/recommend practice their own first amendment.

Would I go there and read? no. I'm not that into you. sorry. lol

You people need to understand this once and for all.


It is irrelevant what you think about my blog contents.
Agree with me or not, is your opinion. Not mine.
Because Unlike many of you, I'm not making a blog to solicit your approval/agreement nor your validation. That is the difference.
It is not even about who is better. I'm here. You are there. That is it.

This is MY BLOG, and you are all entitled to my opinon.
You can do the same on your own.


As for all others who reads my blog because of who and what I am, thanks and continue to enjoy with your coffee and bon bons. :)
This is not a serious jornalism. This is biased opinion of me. Didn't I say that before?
Yea I did. lol Just some noobs.

Srsly, guys. SRSLY...

Ok.

I know not too many of the whole population possess some equal intelligence as I do, which is just a fact of life, so I could careless about that.
Edit to add: Ok, if you read this above paragraph and really offended by them, then you really should log off and regain some sense of humor. This is not a kindergarten classes, OK? Ann, thanks for Bell curve. which side I'm on, is again, irrelevant. Left, so that makes everyone feel better about themselves, even if is untrue, or concede to the fact, again, that i'm on the right side, and take it just a fact of life. I never said, I'm beautiful like beckham or Brangelina. Because its not true. I said I'm smarter than the most of you because its a fact. Saying that, is crude and uncaring. Yes. But never said I'm gracefully uptight have I? I guess it is the crowd I'm mixing lately. LMAO So continue reading.


The thing that mind boggles me is this.

Why in the hell anyone want to make themselves look so godDAMN STUPID...?

Srsly

The worm who claims to be 23 year old boy... I used to pity him.
Now, I seriously pity their parents.
That pretty match explains it all about him.
I feel really sorry for his parents.

I sincerely HOPE his parents are TOTALLY FUCKING OBLIVIOUS for their own SAKE. Because to parents, your child is like your legacy work. Your Masterpiece.
You really don't want to know if your legacy master piece is in fact,whiny little petty lying piece of shit.
You.
Really.
Don't.
Want.
To.
Know.
LOL

I'm bored with Xstreet Forum now. It's fucking immature ... i really can't say kids, honestly.
All the RL kids I know, whom I have been taught, have in contact with, or friends of my sons... are not even come close to those stupid adults I see here. THEY -the children I know around here- all at least speak with purpose.

Adults in Xstreet Forum... *snorts... their immaturity/stupidity knows no bounds.

Another one bites the dust... LOL *sings

I provide entertainment for Forum readers, because I am not that stuck up to get into the muddy insects infested battlefield and get myself dirty.

I know and I certainly understand that some people wants to maintain certain grace in the public. Frederic, as his most complex personality that you could ever imagine, thinks he can achieve to be a sort of status as a court jester, with bluntness of truth and twisted humor of reality. Any deceptive, superficial fuckers who uses and hides behind the lies built with half truth, are exposed as soon as they have the nerve to step into the field with him.

I love a formidable adversary, and more often than not, I just acquire my allies before they even become my adversary.

It is hard to play chess without the opponent, isnt it? (bitching and bitching... lol)

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Anyways, so I have to settle with swatting some flies buzzing around me.

Check this thread on page three, scroll down to the bottom.Then to page 4

Recap of the court comedy of the day:

So this idiot with some false sense of *i'm smarter than you* or*I get to take a shot at Fred first, regardless of how stupid I am*... takes the bait I laid out.
Now, my friend like Sabrina, would know that if I set a verbal trap such as this, you should not baited into taking a shot at me *without thinking 5 moves ahead*.
He did.
Watch how he dig himself a hole, deeper and deeper with each posts.

1. "You are not Torley, otherwise the world will be grayer"
-Okay cool. You just wanted to be a idiot Number One. Srsly.

2."Seriously. whats with the war with vowels"
-Now he trapped himself in the verbal quicksand... My Entry using uncharacteristically lolcat vocabulary is direct reference to Torley/Torley's blog entry.
Which he used the word *srsly* in his both Linden and his own blog.
LOL THAT , was really funny, because the idiot just didn't even had a decency to check out what is he getting into. (it's called strategy planning)

3."Now you are butthurt Torley aficionado and I'm jealous.."
-Come on. LOL Do I ever look like some "teacher's pet, linden Ass kissing I heart Linden supporter to you? He must have lost his cool there. I can see his hand trembling. Now, it is easy to take him down by keeping my cool, and GENTLY nudge him to remember some humor and creativtity. (I know that would be another quick sand there. Smart people will know. but NOooooo. not this idiot)

4.So he posts some monty Python Holy Grail clip.
-Ignorance is futile. oh wait. LOL He hammer a nail into his own coffin there.
You just can't bring in some cult classic such as Monty Python or Terry Gilliam film and intend as a insult, (not to mention the lack of creativity...) and expect anyone to look at you with complete admiration and respect for facing bravely before dragon or giant like Fred. LOL
He could have been better off taking some home made clip. Then I didn't know what to respond to him.
What he did was, in effect, comparing me to the most highest form of humor and sarcasm exists in this century, not to mention respected creators of comedy/film classics... Yea , kinda things that Frederic worships... tsk tsk.
Bad move for him.

At this point, the activity getting boring so I just bow out.

Because your adversary is not really your adversary anymore.

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As for Torley thread... lol
I really feel for Torley. Because dumb public puts him in a very awkward position like "Torley you can do better than that"(than comment "Pretty cool")

I loath this type of situation. Peanut gallery or parents get me to say something you are not willing to say. Like. Real life.
Kids trying to get me to praise their artwork when his parents are also standing behind them. Or Parents standing in the backstage asking my approval of their kids performance... *not even my opinion, They ARE asking me approval as a musician...

What can you say, when the kids' art work/sings totally off key and two bars behind sucking big time and has no talent whatsoever, but the parents asks you how much talent he is showing?
Yea, I hate that. I have no heart to break the news to the little kid or the parents seemingly believing that the kid are truely gifted.
What can you say?

"Well, you can continue to encourage his artistic activity. "
*sighs and avoids parents eye contact, and gives sticker to the kid.


Yea.
I am not a heartless s.o.b in RL. LOL

So just you know...

I don't need to manipulate you or anyone to think I'm a nice person.

I just counted Xstreet Forum post on first page. There is only two that remotely something to do with SL. What the fuck is wrong with people who post links to some blog or news and *what do you think?*

*ship captain released-viva america*
*I lament because I pay too much tax-meaning that I am rich!*
*GLBT vs amazon-did you write that blog? no ok. lol*
*I got fired but I'm overqualified-read I am mentally unstable*
*COPYBOT!--- yea for like last three years*
*Mindless game1* *mindless game 2* ----*mindless game 27*
*Clique thread- opposition not needed*
*Clique thread- its not clique thread, everyone is welcome as long as you are in the clique*
*mindless Happy easter post 1*
*mindless game number 36*

sadly one post that really needed other experienced reader's response was
"kitty needs help with setting up RLV folder" which one of the poster made fun of the op without contributing. LOL sad isnt it.

FUCKERS.

I watch CNN if I want to know whats going on. Thanks.

Another hilarious stuff from Xstreet Forum...

Xstreet Forum is full of unrelated, irrelevant posting, which is why I was totally oblivious about the existence of the Forum for so long.

That is Jager's flow chart *Guide to Forum Thread you can ignore*

Today's theme
People ask for the honesty, but they hate me for giving it.

Unfortunately, this is not a biased view of one person, but a general view of actuality.
So why so many irrelevant thread? Because if you put something relevant in Forum thread, it will be taken over by response such as
"You are FUNNEH! HUGZZZZ ALL AROUND!!!"
" Someone was making copy right violation products What Am I GONNA DO? OMG OMG OMG"
" I AM THE EXPERT ON FORUM COURTESY"
"MY IP RIGHTS ARE VIOLATED"
"I have absolutely nothing to contribute to this thread but I will post my totally hilarious av picture. HAHAHA"
" Everyone should listen to MY DRAMA and RANT, because I have to be the center of attentions, but i dont have to be respectful because the rule does not apply to ME. "
"The forum rule says you can't say that."

Today, we had that another irrelevant thread what I call a *Clique thread* appeared... on... ta da! Beagles and maia. Maia is an absolute crazy chick but she at least never been disrespectful, nor never be oblivious to the time, occasion, place of what she can or cannot post. In short, she knows appropriate place to be funny.

As i said in yesterday's blog. Beagles... on the other hand... He just dont know what he is doing. I never really paid attention, because he makes mostly irrelevant comment, but on one thread, he instantly start posting HUGE, unrelated picture from some joke site... in effect, the original post totally highjacked, nothing interesting came after, since no one knows what to respond to *I can't fucking careless about OP but JUST LOOK AT ME!"

I ignored more than few times, but yesterday, he complained that no one had came to confront him on the forum... LMAO

Guess what?
He got his wishes.

He also complained in public that he received inbox full of mail that expressed displeasure in his "light hearted posting practice" LOL

beagles apparently incapable of making distinction between *light hearted* and disrespectful practice. Yea ... its hard to see. it is so close and its probably depends on the person, right? LOL

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I spare you the details but the punchline is this.

I thought he was much more intelligent and capable enough to understand my sharp tongued but adoring comment. LOL Some people just cant recognize real humor, when they are claiming to be humorous person themselves. HAHAHAHA

And he had a nerve to make a comment about what is the Forum Par standard... And THAT... WAS funny. Yea. He is an expert of Forum courtesy.

Lemme tell you.

Some people just need *hugs* with cliques, so they can be safely within the limit of caring people.

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I wasnt dislike him nor hate him. Certainly I was hoping that we could be make some sort of conversation. But my mistake.
Some people are capable of seeing the truth thru another's eyes. using that to his advantage and grow from it. Some. Not. LOL
As such is life.
Just another immature kid in SL.

Not even worth my time.

However, as always, I gain a few really intelligent, talented allies. That counts more than hundred *insects-not my word*.

The moral of the story is this:
As much as some superficial avatars hates me for giving them a truth, there are more people learn to like me for my truth.

Some hilarious stuff from Xstreet Forum

So I post non-sense in Xstreet forum.

And I posted my total displeasure of one of the poster in one of the thread.
Nothing new. I am not that annoyed with the person himself.

Anyways, one of the poster made some Funny SL cartoon out of our differences of opinion and I should like to share them with you.

Frederic vs Beagle

I hope the link will take you to the post.

My pokemon card 's weapon/strength says
*Flaunt
*Icy Truth
I cant see the words of the description but the punchline was also hilarious.
(The noob girl with heart all over my picture. LMAO LMAO)

Now that is some creativity. I totally approve such humor.
(I'm trying to obtain the picture from the creator. so I hope i can show them in detail.)

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Edit to add:
So I talked to the creator of the cartoon. I guess he meant to annoy me, but his creativity failed his attempt. How can one not to recognize such humor.
i liked the card so much, I paid him 500L for full perm card. Now I can use it for my calling card in world.

During the conversation, I almost killed myself from laughter.

It is almost embarrassing my subtle attempt for my sarcastic/tongue in cheek character were seen thru so easily by total stranger. He was observant enough to use my vanity.
I was saved by the truth(or he let me believe it as truth), that the noob with heart was not his creation but was real event which took place when he was taking a pictures...

Maybe it is time to buy this skin...
(like I stated somewhere, the picture is DEMO skin... )

One of very few entry about my RL...

If you are reading my blog, you already know, or at least you can make an intelligent guess that I like classical music to a certain depth.

The most of my boring real life consists of practicing piano or listening to those music through out the day. Therefore, naturally, the most of the very few outings are also classical music concerts/related events and operas.

This weekend, I was invited by a symphony musician to the concert of Mendelssohn. (The famous E minor Violin concerto and Italian Symphony) I would have posted music player from Jiwa.com, but they just restricted access from US because of the license issues... so if you want the sample music, please do your own research, maybe Amazon can provide you with plenty of samples.

I am looking forward to the Violin concerto, since I count this violin concerto as one of the three best Romantic Era violin concerto of all time, along with Beethoven's D major, and Bruch's No.1. (well, there are not that many... lol And I really don't count Paganini's violin concertos as *Romantic works* despite the era he was in. )

In his very short but eventful accomplished life, Mendelssohn established firm base layer of German classical music in general. His contribution is not limited to his productive composing career, but also in music education, establishing new theater/orchestral productions. If he did not revival Bach when he was 19 by the first performance of "St. Matthew's Passion" after the Bach's death, we might not aware of the greatness of Bach to this day. By the early 19th century, Bach was entirely forgotten and buried, unknown to the public. I believe that we owe it to him for reminding us about the one of the greatest legacy and an essence of humanity -music of Bach- left by the genius. Amazingly, he had done all these from late in his teens to early 20s.

Anyways, these concerts are for my enjoyment as well as for the part of *the grooming process* of my two boys.
It is not just about the education, because I really hate to make this as an *education*. Music is supposed to be an enjoyment, and if theya re able to enjoy these performance, their life would be richer for it.

I just do not understand the notion in US, that classical music is somewhat snobby, and attract snarky comments such as "Oh, I am not THAT cultural nor educated..."
LOL It is apparent that many are missing the whole point.

I doubt that my boys would be a president of the United States, but they won't be intimidated by the protocols of meeting the Queen of England. lol Not that I teach the protocols of official business, but they are all derived from the tradition of court protocols and manners. Just because we don't have Royals, courts and aristocratic ranks, doesn't mean you don't have to know the manners and protocols, where it came from.

For instance, attending evening performance or Saturday matinee... what would we wear? My boys are taught about dress code prescribed by traditional protocols. I tell them not to be *ignorant rule-breaker*. In order for you to know when, where and how to break the rules, you really have to know and well versed in every situations.

That cannot be learned an hour before the events. They are all my responsibility as a parent to *groom them* to be the smart cosmopolitans in the future.
That is not even about sending them to an ettiquette classes or giving them protocol books.

I have seen many adults simply intimidated by the formal place setting at the table, preventing them from enjoying the meal, or their ignorance utterly apprent, preventing others to enjoy the otherwise exquisitely prepared meal. How sad is that?
(and some - there always be one- that bragging the knowledge of ettiquette and preaching everyone at the table. LMAO Fake ass. The real people with class who are smartly educated would not make others feel inadequate at the table. )

Since I didn't graduate from college nor accomlished in anything, so I can't really say that I am educated. However, I have to say I am fortunate that I was groomed well by my parents.

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We won't be wearing tuxedoes to the performance. But my boys would know what they should know if that occasion was specified, and how to break the rules when the occasion were called for.
Following every rule to a T, is one thing. Being able to break the rule is quite another. It takes more than knowing the rule.

Don't be an ignorant, if you want to break the rule.

Career change for virtual world?

lol
I am still pondering about Ars Nova's skin.
What do you think? should I buy? its 1300L for just single skin.


No, I'm just jaded and bored.
I bitched about it to my 16 year old, and he said I should practice my instruments. LOL Yea in my RL. Has he not noticed I have been spending more than several hours a day in front of that $ 56K machine every day? LOL He must be tuning out the sounds mentally and not noticing at all anymore. (I must say I am making an effort to learn classical(like mozart.. eek) and baroque(bach. yea) I even start practicing Vivaldi's aria for the castrato.(!) Seriously, my voice falls in between the range and counter tenor aria is very confortable for me. So I'm squeaking aria from Giustino... I find it less strenous than flashy Donizetti without any sort of operatic training ... ...(i have very basic classical voice training in the past. But not opera.)
I think its very funny if anyone heard me singing baroque opera aria in my car in California city. hahahahaha


In second life, I think its time to learn clothing designs.

I have been staring at the templates for like two days now. I guess I'm fiddling the idea inside my head for all these hours. Some sort of Goth/Regent or goth/Biedemeier style. (I'm not really into Victorian, even tho I love the whole 19th century thing, I never liked Victorian English style. They are just that up in the ass, you can tell that its never my style. )

I really cant say what it look like because they are all still inside my head. LOL
My creative process had started long before it would be realized on photoshop. All I have to do is find the proper ways. Once it gets rolling it should not be that hard. They are all labor. But right now, its the hardest part of them all.

Finding some inspirations.
I'm not talking about surfing the websites and stealing the designs or downloading some catalog pictures.

I'm talking about tracing back some of my favorite books, letters of artists, music ... that sort of thing. IT takes a lot of time.
Imagining what went on the salon hosted by the wives of newly emerged social class, mixing with bohemians and aristocrats, politicians and priests... That sort of things gives me an inspiration. I know its unusual, but it can't be helped.

There may be month before something comes out, but I am not worried.